WITHIN A FEW WEEKS OF MY VARIOUS VEHICLE CRASH INJURIES I WAS NOT THINKING ABOUT WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME. I TOLD THE DOCTORS AND LAWYERS WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME. THE ACCIDENT INJURY ASSESSORS AND ADJUDICATORS SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASSESSED BY A NEUROLOGIST.

I GOOGLED "CAN BLOWS TO THE HEAD CAUSE EPILEPSY"?  THE AI OVERVIEW:

Yes, blows to the head can cause epilepsy, a condition known as post-traumatic epilepsy (PTE): 

• Risk factors

  People who have experienced head injuries from falls, car crashes, sports injuries, or other accidents are more likely to develop PTE. The more times someone has had a head injury, the greater their risk. Other risk factors include: 

ABOUT VIRTUAL PARALYSIS

VIRTUAL PARALYSIS IN MY CASE, IS CHARACTERIZED BY MANY AUTONOMIC OR AUTOMATIC STANDING AND WALKING PROCESSES HAVING TO BE DONE BY INDIVIDUAL COMMANDS. I HAVE TO WILLFULLY MOVE AND HOLD IN PLACE ANY PART OF MY BODY, LEGS AND ARMS I AM USING TO WORK, STAND OR MOVE.

THIS IS AN EXHAUSTING TASK. WHEN I CAN OR THINK I CAN STAND OR MOVE ABOUT I AM OFTEN EXHAUSTED WITHIN AS LITTLE AS TWO OR THREE MINUTES.

RIGHT NOW, I CAN HARDLY MOVE. I CAN WEDGE MYSELF IN OR LEAN ON SOMETHING AND ACCOMPLISH A TASK. I SWEPT THE SAUNA WHERE I STORE BINS OF CLEANED CLOTHES AND NOW I CAN ONLY WEDGE MYSELF IN AT THE COMPUTER DESK.

THIS IS IT. I CAN NOT PHYSICALLY WRITE ANY MORE, I HAVE TO LAY DOWN FLAT NOW. IT IS UNUSUAL THAT LAYING FLAT REDUCES THE STRAIN ON MY BODY SO MUCH.

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DEVICES ARE ON THE WAY WHICH WILL HELP TO DEAL WITH VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.

 

KNOCK! KNOCK! AND COLLAPSE.

THERE WAS A LOUD KNOCKING ON A DOOR. I SPASMED INTO A REVERSE ARCH. MY LEFT LEG TWISTED. I FELL ASLEEP REPEATEDLY IN THE FOLLOWING HOURS.

I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS THE SAMSUNG R5 SOUND BAR. I THOUGHT IT WAS REAL.

I HAVE SPECULATED ABOUT WHY I MIGHT HAVE BECOME MORE DISABLED WITHOUT INJURING MYSELF. THE REAL ARRIVAL OF POLICE, OR THE THREAT OF THE CREATION OF THAT, HAS CAUSED ME TO COLLAPSE IN THE PAST.

THIS LEADS BACK TO CHILDHOOD ASSAULTS BY MY MOTHER, WHERE I WAS WRENCHED DOWN TO THE GROUND BY MY HAIR, BENDING MY BACK INTO A REVERSE ARCH, TWISTING MY NECK AND COLLAPSING MY LEFT LEG TO DO IT.

I STILL HAVE THE SAME REACTION WHEN I THINK I HAVE THE POLICE TRYING TO GET INTO MY HOUSE AND AT ME.

PAUL WHELAN SAID THE MOST TERRIFYING PART OF STATE OPPRESSION WAS WAITING FOR THE RUSSIAN POLICE TO ARRIVE. 

I WILL HAVE TO OBSERVE WHAT IS GOING ON EVERY TIME I HEAR SOUNDS IN MY DRIVEWAY. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOW AND I HAVE
MEMORIES OF LOOKING OUT TO SEE THAT THE POLICE WERE HERE.

 

I AM PRETTY SURE THAT NO ONE KNOWS HOW DISENABLING MY DISABILITY IS.

I STRUGGLE TO JUST KEEP UP WITH BASIC HOUSEHOLD MAINTENANCE AND TO DO MY DISHES AND ALL OF MY YEAR'S LAUNDRY IN THE SUMMER. I ALSO GROW A SELF SUPPLY, BUT THAT IS IT. I CAN DO NO MORE BETWEEN BOUTS OF HAVING TO LAY DOWN.

TODAY IS WORSE THAN THAT. POSSIBLY BECAUSE I WORKED LATELY AT MY SELF SUPPLY I AM SO PARALYZED TODAY THAT I CAN NOT EVEN SO MY DISHES.

I DO NOT THINK ANYONE, NOT EVEN DOCTORS, REALLY BELIEVES ME WHEN I SAY "I AM VIRTUALLY PARALYZED."

HERE I AM, SIMILARLY DISABLED TO WHAT I WAS IN 1970

I JUST CAN NOT MOVE WITHOUT IT BEING AN EXTREME EFFORT OF WILL AND I CAN NOT WAIT TO LAY DOWN ALL THROUGH IT.  

I HAVE HOPED FOR THIS FOR YEARS.

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I FORCED MYSELF TO DO MY SLASH THREE DAYS AGO AND I AM GOING THROUGH THAT FOUR DAYS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AFTER AN HOUR AND FORTY MINUTES OF WORK. I HAVE DONE NOTHING ELSE TO CAUSE THIS SITUATION WHERE IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE TO MOVE NOR TO GO ANYWHERE.

I CAN NOT EVEN SIT AND TYPE ANY MORE.

I SEE MANY JOBS I MUST DO AND I DO TRULY WONDER: HOW WILL I DO ANY OF THESE JOBS I HAVE TO DO?

THIS IS WHAT DISABLED AS I AM IS LIKE, I JUST CANNOT DO ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR A FEW THINGS LIKE SITTING TYPING, BUT NOTHING FOR VERY LONG. ALMOST ALL OF THE JOBS I NEED TO GET DONE ARE TOO ARDUOUS OR THEY TAKE TOO LONG. 

THERE IS A NEW UNDERSTANDING OF THE ESCALATING DAMAGE CAUSED BY REPEATED CONCUSSION.

TUA TAGAVALOVA SUFFERS FROM ANOTHER CONCUSSION AND MEDICAL EXPERTS ARE MORE CONCERNED ABOUT HIS CONTINUED WELL BEING THAN BEFORE.

I, EACH TIME I SUFFERED AN ADDITIONAL CONCUSSION, WAS DEMONIZED AND ATTACKED AS IF I WAS FAKING INJURY.

I WAS HIT ON MY HEAD WITH BROOMS AND A STEEL EDGED YARD STICK HUNDREDS OF TIMES AS A CHILD.

I HAD A HAMMER, FALLING EIGHTY FEET STRIKE ME ON MY HARD HAT COVERED HEAD IN 1963.

I WAS THROWN ONTO MY HELMET PROTECTED HEAD; I WAS STRUCK ON MY MOTORCYCLE BY A LEFT TURNING CAR IN VANCOUVER IN 1967. 

I WAS SMASHED INTO THE ROOF AND THE WINDSCREEN IN A MOTOR VEHICLE CRASH AS A PASSENGER IN 1970.

I WAS PROPELLED INTO A STEEL POLE BY A LEFT TURNING CAR IN 1986 WHICH CAUSED A SEVERE HEAD INJURY AGAIN.

I WAS CRASHED INTO BY A PICKUP TRUCK WHICH WAS ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD IN 1997 WHERE I WAS UNCONSCIOUS AFTER THE COLLISION.

I HAD MY CAR LIFTED UP BY A J-HOOKING 94 PASSENGER BUS AND THE CAR WAS DROPPED ONTO MY HEAD IN DOWNTOWN VICTORIA IN 1998.

I SUFFERED FROM MORE HEAD INJURY WHEN I COLLAPSED WHILE BEING ASSAULTED  BY OVERWHELMING MOBS OR ERRING LAW OFFICERS AT MY HOME FROM 2001 TO 2016. THE COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION CAUSED A SHOCK WAVE TO TRAVEL UP TO MY HEAD, KNOCKING MY TEETH OUT FROM THE SEVERITY OF THE BLOW AS MY JAW CRASHED SHUT.

THERE NOT ANY UNDERSTANDING NOR RECOGNITION OF HOW SERIOUS AND DEBILITATING THE REPEATED CONCUSSIONS WERE.

I WAKE MOST MORNINGS WITH MY LEFT HAND  CLENCHED LIKE TUA TAGOVIAILOVA HAND IS WHICH WAS DECLARED TO BE A SYMPTOM OF A CONCUSSION INJURY.

  

Tuesday, December 27, 2022

TUA TAGOVAILOVA HAS SUFFERED ANOTHER HEAD INJURY

THE NEWS IS THAT THIS HEAD INJURY ON TOP OF PREVIOUS HEAD INJURY IS VERY BAD.

WHEN I WAS INJURED TWICE ON TWO OCCASIONS I WAS DEMONIZED BY INSURANCE COMPANY AGENTS AND INSURANCE COMPANY LAWYERS. 

INSTEAD OF OFFERING INCREASED CARE, THE INSURANCE COMPANY'S AGENTS AGGRESSIVELY FOUGHT THE FACTS WITH DISBELIEF.THEY ALSO DECLARED THAT I WAS TOO DANGEROUS TO DEAL WITH AND THEREFORE THEY WOULD NOT HAVE TO COMPENSATE ME. ADDITIONALLY THE INSURANCE COMMUNITY HAD NO REGARD FOR THE YEARS OF EFFORT I HAD PUT INTO UNIVERSITY AND WORK AND THE SKILLS I HAD ACQUIRED NOR THE SKILLS I HAD ACQUIRED IN THE PURSUIT OF MY MUSIC CAREER AND IN DOING MY WRITING. 

THERE IS VIDEO OF TUA TAGOVAILOVA "STUMBLING" AFTER HIS RECENT HEAD OR BRAIN STEM INJURY.

AS TUA TRIES TO WALK OFF THE FIELD, HE STARTS TO NOT BE ABLE TO PROPERLY LIFT HIS LEGS. THEN LACKING SUPPORT OR LEG CONTROL? HE PITCHES FORWARD.

THE NEAR COLLAPSE AND THE COLLAPSES HE HAS SUFFERED ARE VERY SIMILAR TO HOW I HAVE COLLAPSED A NUMBER OF TIMES. 

HERE IS ANOTHER SIMILARITY: 

I REMEMBER AFTER MY 1998 ACCIDENT THAT I HAD TO TWIST MY LEGS AND MY BACK TO SIT. MY GIRLFRIEND DID NOT THINK I WAS INJURED BUT I WAS BECOMING "FLAWED" AND SHE DUMPED ME. TAGOVAILOVA HAS A "HAND AND ARM" POSTURING WHICH IS SIMILAR TO MY LEG CONTORTION.

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THE WEAKNESS CAUSED BY VIRTUAL PARALYSIS MAKES ONE'S ARMS AND LEGS FEEL LIKE THEY ARE TOO HEAVY TO LIFT.

WOKE THIS MORNING

BEFORE SUNSHINE,

THINGS GET GOING,

BUT SADLY, NOT MINE.

I ROLLED IN BED,

MY ARMS AND LEGS 

FELT LIKE LEAD

THEN I REALIZED 

I AM PARALYZED

AGAIN.

A LOT OF MY HARMONICA LEADS HERE.

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Wednesday, May 10, 2023

"THEY FEEL POWERLESS SO THEY CREATE CHAOS". Dark Imaginings Live performance by Lindon Collard demands freedom from the fabrications and constraints of people who create chaos.

"THEY FEEL POWERLESS SO THEY CREATE CHAOS".

May 17, 2023

VIRTUAL PARALYSIS WAXES AND WANES.

THE PERSISTENCE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND THE INTENSITY OF ITS EFFECT TOOK  A LONG TIME TO RECOVER FROM IN THE PAST AFTER I HAD A PHYSICAL INJURY. 

I HAVE ALSO HAD EPISODES OF COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION INJURY WHICH WOULD ALSO EVENTUALLY TURN OUT TO BECOME VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.

THE NOT COMPENSATED PART OF THESE EPISODES CAUSED ENDURING FINANCIAL DAMAGE, I NEVER CAUGHT UP FOR THE TIME I COULD NOT WORK DUE TO VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.

IN THE PAST I WAS PARALYZED IN 1968. I WAS INTERMITTENTLY PARALYZED FROM 1970 TO 1977 WHEN I HAD ONE OF MY BEST RECOVERIES, I WAS ABLE TO WORK AT MY JEWELRY FACTORY, ON THE ORIGINAL HOUSE HERE AT OTTER POINT, AS A VOLVO SALESMAN, AND THEN LONG HOURS AT CHOCOLATE AND VANILLA. IN DECEMBER OF 1986 I WAS IN A MOTOR VEHICLE WHICH DID NOT CAUSE PARALYSIS BUT WHICH CAUSED DISSOCIATIVE AMNESIA AND FUGUE. I ALSO WAS NOT ABLE TO BICYCLE EVER AGAIN. I WOULD EXPERIENCE A REVERSE BACK ARCH SPASM WHENEVER I TRIED. 

I EMERGED FROM AMNESIA AND FUGUE BRIEFLY IN 1990 AND I RELAPSED UNTIL EARLY 1992 AFTER WHICH I DO NOT RECALL HAVING FUGUE NOR AMNESIA.

I COLLAPSED IN 1993. I LIVED HERE ALONE. MY EX LUNGED AT MY EYES AND ACCUSED ME OF COCAINE SELLING AND I WAS AGAIN SUBJECT TO VIRTUAL PARALYSIS. ( I HAD THOUGHT I SLIPPED ON POP BOTTLES TO BE RECYCLED, THAT BECAME FRICTIONLESS ROLLERS, BUT IT WAS A COLLAPSE.) I REMEMBER LAYING IN BED AND NOT BEING ABLE TO TYPE OR TO READ MORE THAN A FEW WORDS.

THEN I WAS SENT AROUND IN CHAINS BY THE FRAUD AND MANIPULATION OF THE LAWYER FRITZ VERHOOVEN AND SOOKE RCMP CORPORAL HAL ZEIKE. I WAS VERY COLD AND LEFT CHAINED UP IN AN UNHEATED UNVENTILATED SHERIFF VANLAYING ON THE FLOOR IN OCTOBER OF 1996. I, SELF REPRESENTED, PROVED THAT THE LAWYER'S COMPLAINT WAS FALSE, I WAS NOT CONVICTED, I DID NOT GET TO HAVE SOOKE RCMP CORPORAL HAL ZEIKE NOR THE LAWYER FRITZ VERHOOVEN HELD RESPONSIBLE. THE IMPOSITION OF POWERLESSNESS ON A DISABLED PERSON CAUSES  FUGUE, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND COLLAPSE. 

LATELY I COLLAPSE OR CONVULSE WHENEVER  ANY CONFRONTATION WOULD OCCUR OR EVEN WHEN I RE-VISITED THE SITE OF PAST COLLAPSES. CONVULSION CAN BE AS SIMPLE AS CHEST CONSTRICTION BUT BREATHING AND SPEAKING COULD BE VERY DIFFICULT DURING A CHEST LOCK-UP.

I NEVER RECOVERED FROM THE MOB AT MY ROCKCLIFFE COLLAPSE COUPLED WITH BEING SURROUNDED IN THE BC SUPREME COURT. 

MY CHEST WOULD FREEZE UP AND MY BACK WOULD ARCH IF I TRIED TO GO TO A COURT HOUSE, AND THEN I HAD THE SAME SYMPTOM IF I TRIED TO DO MY USUAL ROLLERBLADING. 

IT IS NOW 2024. I COLLAPSED AT THE ROCKCLIFFE IN 2015, OUT HERE AT OTTER POINT IN FEBRUARY 2016 AND I HAD A CONVULSION LATER, IN JUNE.

I HAD A CONVULSION PASSING THE ROCKCLIFFE IN 2019 OR THERABOUTS AND I FELL IN THE DITCH (DUG TO RUIN MY LAND)  ABOUT 2 OR 2 1/2 YEARS AGO AND I AM REALLY BADLY PARALYZED TODAY, WEDGED UNDER THE DESK SHELF AND HOLDING MYSELF UP ON THE ARMS OF MY CHAIR AND I CAN'T KEEP ON GOING. I WILL LAY FLAT RIGHT AWAY.

WHY WOULD FAMILY MEMBERS SEEK TO PREVENT MY RECOVERY FROM PARALYZING INJURY?

I RECOVERED TO VARYING EXTENTS THROUGHOUT THE SIXTY YEARS I HAVE BEEN DISABLED. FAMILY MEMBERS OBJECTED TO NEARLY EVERY ACTIVITY WHICH I TOOK UP WHETHER I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED OR WHEN I WAS ABLE TO BE ACTIVE, WORKING AT MY JEWELRY FACTORY OR PLAYING MY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS OR DANCING LIVE ON STAGE OR IN CLUBS.

I WAS GREGARIOUS EVEN WHEN I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED AND CONFINED TO MY HOME. MY FAMILY MEMBERS DID NOT LIKE THIS. "KEEP LINDON AWAY FROM HIS FRIENDS" SAID MY EX WIFE FOR INSTANCE."LINDON NEEDS PEOPLE".

THIS WAS TO BE MY PERMANENT RENTAL HOME. I WAS DEFRAUDED OF IT AND I NEVER SAW MY FRIENDS AGAIN. MY EX-WIFE WAS OUT TO DESTROY WHAT WAS ALREADY GONE. SHE PHONED ANY OF MY FRIENDS SHE COULD REACH AND UNNECESSARILY DEFAMED ME.

WHEN I RECOVERED TO THE EXTENT THAT I COULD PERFORM LIVE MUSIC ON HARMONICA MY BROTHER SAID " WHO WANTS THEIR BROTHER PRANCING AROUND ON STAGE PLAYING HARMONICA", FOR INSTANCE.

UPON RECOVERING TO THE POINT WHERE I COULD PERFORM ON HARMONICA AND DANCE OR QUAD OR ROLLERBLADE, AND THAT WAS INTERMITTENT AND LIMITED, THE ACHIEVEMENT WAS NOT RECOGNIZED.

THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, LINDON COLLARD, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.

I WOULD SAY I HAD BEEN DISABLED SINCE 1970 AND IN RESPONSE I WOULD BE CHALLENGED BY ANY PHYSICAL ABILITY I HAD MANAGED TO RE-INSTITUTE OF MY FORMER ACTIVITIES. 

MANY ACTIVITIES WHICH I HAD ENJOYED OR WHICH I HAD WORKED AT PROGRESSIVELY BECAME  NO LONGER POSSIBLE FOR ME TO ACCOMPLISH BUT NO ONE EVER PAYS ANY ATTENTION TO THAT. I WOULD BE CHALLENGED AS TO WHY I WAS NO LONGER DOING SOMETHING AS IF IT WAS A WILLFUL OR WEAK OR DELINQUENT RESPONSE.

THE CAUSE OF THE ABANDONMENT OF ACTIVITIES IS THE DISABILITY I SUFFER.

I NEVER WILLINGLY GIVE UP ANYTHING I DO AS THERE IS NOT A WHOLE LOT OF CHOICE OF ACTIVITY, PARTICULARLY NOW, BUT I HAVE BEEN SIMILARLY VIRTUALLY PARALYZED IN THE PAST.

  

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MY FAMILY MEMBERS HAD A LOT MORE DISPARAGING AND IRRATIONAL COMMENTS ABOUT MY ACTIVITIES WHICH WERE NECESSARY TO ACHIEVE AND MAINTAIN MY RECOVERY AND TO TRY TO BE ABLE TO BE GAINFULLY EMPLOYED FROM ACCUSATIONS OF BEING CAPABLE OF VIOLENCE OR BEING CRAZY. "HE'S CRAZY" SAID MY WIFE "HE THINKS HE IS GOING TO BE A ROCK STAR". 

I PRACTICED AT HARMONICA EVEN WHEN I HAD TO DO IT LAYING DOWN.

I ALSO PRACTICED GUITAR, VOCALS AND KEYBOARD UNTIL I WAS SEVENTY FIVE ON A DAILY BASIS. I FELL INTO THE TERRIBLE DITCH THE REDNECKS DUG TO RUIN MY PROPERTY TWO YEARS AGO AND I BECAME UNABLE TO PRACTICE. I WAS HAVING A HARD TIME FOR THE LAST EIGHT YEARS SINCE I COLLAPSED DURING A FAKE 911 RAID, BUT I DID SOME PRACTICE AS IT IS DETAILED IN MY DAILY DIARY, DOCUMENTED IN COPYBOOKS.