WHAT HAPPENED IN 1970 THAT ENDED MY ABILITY TO WORK THREE WEEKS ON AND ONE WEEK OFF.

I WAS A PASSENGER IN A MINI COOPER.

WE WERE SWOOPED IN FRONT OF AND WE CRASHED INTO A 1956 FORD. THE SEAT BELTS HAD BEEN KNOTTED INTO A BALL AS MANY PEOPLE DID BACK IN 1970 TO AVOID THE WARNING BUZZER. 

I WAS SMASHED INTO THE ROOF AND THE WINDSCREEN AND THEN I FELL OUT ONTO THE PAVEMENT. THAT WAS IT, I NEVER WORKED AT THE RAILROAD AGAIN.

THE ORIGINS OF MY DISABILITY ARE PROBABLY FROM MY BEING STRUCK IN THE HEAD AND PULLED OFF MY FEET BY MY HAIR AND THROWN DOWN BY MY MOTHER UNTIL I WAS TWELVE YEARS OLD.

AT AGE SEVENTEEN I WAS STRUCK ON MY HARDHAT BY A HAMMER DROPPED OFF A BRIDGE WHICH CAUSED FATIGUE AND MADE ME SUSCEPTIBLE TO GOING INTO A CONVULSION. I NEVER RECOVERED BUT I ADAPTED AND I MANAGED TO KEEP ON WORKING AND GOING TO UNIVERSITY.

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I WAS DRIVING A TINY MOTORCYCLE IN 1967. A LEFT TURNING CAR CRASHED INTO ME THROWING ME OFF MY MY BIKE ONTO MY HELMETED HEAD BUT I STILL ENDED UP VIRTUALLY PARALYZED FOR MANY MONTHS. I DID NOT GET MY OUT OF WORK INSURANCE FOR THE FIRST OF TWO TIMES I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN IT. I HAD A HEAD INJURY AGAIN.

I RECOVERED ENOUGH TO GO BACK TO WORK AGAIN IN 1969.

I HAVE NEVER RECOVERED FROM INJURY AND DISABILITY.

DESPITE THE INJURED 

AND PARTIALLY 

RECOVERED STATE I 

HAD TO ENDURE, 

I RETURNED TO 

FULL TIME

WORK FOR THREE WEEKS

EVERY MONTH IN 1969 

THE POST ABOVE HAS 

DETAILS.

Saturday, July 1, 2023

I WAS COMPLETELY TRAINED AND CONDITIONED TO WORK AT THE CANADIAN NATIONAL RAILROAD.

 

WHEN I SEE THE YARD AT NIGHT AM NOT REPELLED NOR DISQUIETED, I FEEL A SURGE OF ENERGY, I FEEL READY TO WORK.

BACK IN 1970 I WOULD WORK THREE WEEKS AND THEN I WOULD HAVE TO TAKE A WEEK OFF. MY BACK WOULD HAVE BECOME UNSTABLE. IT WAS DANGEROUS OR IMPOSSIBLE TO GO TO WORK AS THE CANADIAN NATIONAL RAILROAD YARD FOREMAN I WAS EMPLOYED AS. 

TODAY APRIL 18 2024 I HAVE EXACTLY THAT PROBLEM. WHEN I STAND UP I BEGIN TO SWERVE AND MY BACK WOULD FALTER AND I WOULD HAVE TO SUPPORT MYSELF ON SOMETHING.

"DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED":THIS IS AN ABSURD OUTCOME FOR MYSELF.

THE INVISIBLE NATURE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS DISABILITY:

I AM DISABLED AND DUE TO THE NATURE OF PARALYSIS NO ONE IS AWARE OF THIS.

WHEN I AM AFFECTED THE ONLY TIME I FEEL LIKE I AM NOT UNDER TERRIBLE STRAIN TO SIT OR STAND IS WHEN I LAY THERE MOTIONLESS. THIS IS THE SAME PARALYSIS AS I ENDURED, AT ITS WORST FROM 1970 TO 1974, WHEN I HAD TO RECLINE OR LAY DOWN ALL OF THE TIME. I COULD HARDLY EVEN SIT OR STAND AT ALL. I PLAYED HARMONICA  FLAT ON MY BACK. 

Consistent with complete disclosure, include this.

                                   PARALYSIS IS MORE THAN JUST IMMOBILITY.

THERE ARE OTHER LIMITING FACTORS. 

ONE IS THE REQUIREMENT TO NOT MOVE A MUSCLE TO REMAIN COMFORTABLE. 

ANY MOVEMEMNT COULD DISRUPT THIS AND SOMETIMES SPASM WOULD OCCUR.

THE OTHER MAIN LIMITING FACTOR IS THE REQUIREMENT TO BE IN CERTAIN POSITIONS.

1. THE LAYING ON MY LEFT SIDE WITH MY LEGS CAREFULLY BENT IS THE MOSTY COMMON.

2. RECLINING AT 135* WITH MY LEGS ELEVATED IS THE SECOND MOST COMMONLY USED POSITION.

(I SPENT MOST OF MY TIME LIKE THIS 1970 TO 1974.)

3. PRESSED DOWN FLAT FACE DOWN. RARELY.

4.FLAT ON MY BACK. VERY RARELY. 

5. SITTING UP WITH MY BACK SUPPORTED CAN BE A POSITION I HAVE TO ASSUME OCCASIONALLY. 

       

THE INVISIBLE NATURE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS DISABILITY

DISABLED AND DUE TO THE NATURE OF PARALYSIS NO ONE IS AWARE OF THIS.

I WILL GET UP ON A GOOD DAY AND DRIVE TO SOOKE AND SHOP BUT I AM ON THE EDGE ALL THE TIME AS I SUPPORT MYSELF WITH A GROCERY CART AND WHEN I GET BACK HOME TWO HOURS OR LESS FROM WHEN I STARTED TO GET INTO MY CAR, I CAN OFTEN ONLY PUT THE PERISHABLES AWAY.

THEN I WILL SPEND FOUR DAYS ALMOST ENTIRELY LAYING IN OR ON THE BED. 

I DID A BIT OF WORK, AN HOUR AND A HALF OR SO, THREE TIMES EVERY SECOND DAY AND I AM ON DAY THREE NOW OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.

THAT MEANS THE ONLY TIME I FEEL LIKE I AM NOT UNDER TERRIBLE STRAIN TO SIT OR STAND IS WHEN I LAY THERE MOTIONLESS. IT HELPS TO ELEVATE MY LEGS. EVENTUALLY, USUALLY, I WILL FEEL OK AS LONG AS I DO NOT MOVE A MUSCLE. THIS IS THE SAME PARALYSIS AS I ENDURED, AT ITS WORST FROM 1970 TO 1974, I COULD HARDLY EVER EVEN SIT OE STAND AT ALL. I REMEMBER PLAYING HARMONICA LAYING FLAT ON MY BACK. 

Consistent with complete disclosure, include this.

                                   PARALYSIS IS MORE THAN JUST IMMOBILITY.

THERE ARE OTHER LIMITING FACTORS. 

ONE IS THE REQUIREMENT TO NOT MOVE A MUSCLE TO REMAIN COMFORTABLE. 

ANY MOVEMEMNT COULD DISRUPT THIS AND SOMETIMES SPASM WOULD OCCUR.

THE OTHER MAIN LIMITING FACTOR IS THE REQUIREMENT TO BE IN CERTAIN POSITIONS.

1. THE LAYING ON MY LEFT SIDE WITH MY LEGS CAREFULLY BENT IS THE MOSTY COMMON.

2. RECLINING AT 135* WITH MY LEGS ELEVATED IS THE SECOND MOST COMMONLY USED POSITION.

(I SPENT MOST OF MY TIME LIKE THIS 1970 TO 1974.)

3. PRESSED DOWN FLAT FACE DOWN. RARELY.

4.FLAT ON MY BACK. VERY RARELY. 

5. SITTING UP WITH MY BACK SUPPORTED CAN BE A POSITION I HAVE TO ASSUME OCCASIONALLY.                                                         

NOT JUST NOT COMPENSATED, BUT DEFAMED AND ATTACKED AND STOLEN FROM.

THIS WAS WHAT I WORKED AT BEFORE I WAS INJURED TWICE IN MOTOR VEHICLE CRASHES WHICH I DID NOT CAUSE.

I LAY FLAT OR RECLINED, VIRTUALLY PARALYZED FOR MONTHS ONCE AND THEN FOR YEARS AFTER MY 1970 INJURY.

SEVERAL TIMES I HAD REHABILITATED MY WRECKED BODY SO I COULD  CAREFULLY UNDERTAKE SOME ACTIVITIES FOR LONG ENOUGH TO ACCOMPLISH TASKS AND TO DO WORK.

THE COMMERCIAL GOLD CASTING SERVICE PART OF ADVANCED METHOD JEWELRY MANUFACTURING'S WORK WAS A POSITIVE AID TO SMALL BUSINESS FROM 1974 TO 1978.

THEN I SOLD MY BUSINESS AS I WAS GOING TO BE EVICTED FROM MY PERMANENT RENTAL SO MEN IN THE BCDC OFFICE COULD GIVE MY HOUSE TO A FRIEND OF THEIRS. 

I PURCHASED AN UNFINISHED AND VANDALIZED HOUSE AND I FINISHED IT WITH SOME EMPLOYEE WORK, BUT MOSTLY BY MYSELF.

THE HOUSE WAS ARSONED.

EVERYONE ATTACKED ME AND CONTROLLED WHAT I COULD DO AND I ENDED UP WITH A TRASHED HOME SITE AND A FLOODING HOUSE IN A HOLE.

THIS IS A PICTURE OF THE HOUSE IN A HOLE TAKEN FROM THE FOOT OF THE POWER POLE PICTURED ABOVE.

NEXT MY WIFE AND MY FAMILY FORCED ME TO BACK MY EX-WIFE'S ADVENTURE IN BUSINESS WHERE SHE LOST EVERYTHING I OWNED AND LEFT ME IN DEBT AGAINST FUTURE TO BE INHERITED MONEY FROM MY FATHER. 

IN FALL 1986 THE BUSINESS CLOSED AND I WAS  GOING TO GET MYSELF A JOB. 

I JUST GOT STARTED ON THAT AND MISTER INGRAM TURNED LEFT CRASHING INTO  ME AS I DROVE STRAIGHT UP THE ROAD IN VANCOUVER.

THERE WAS ANOTHER ACCIDENTAL OR NEGLIGENT MISADVENTURE AND DUE TO NO FAULT OF MY OWN I WAS, AGAIN, CRIPPLED TOO BADLY TO FUNCTION.

AS I DROVE DOWN GEORGIA STREET IN VANCOUVER BC IN DECEMBER 1986 A CAR TURNED LEFT AT  THURLOW  AND PROPELLED MY CAR RIGHT INTO A TELEPHONE POLE. I NEVER RODE MY BICYCLE AGAIN. I WAS INA STATE OF "FUGE" UNTIL 1990 AND I RELAPSED IN 1991.

IN 1992 MY EX-WIFE USED THE POLICE AND BY-LAW AND SHERIFFS TO TRY TO SEIZE MY HOUSE AND THE POLICE BYLAW AND SHERIFFS NEVER STOPPED COMING BACK FOR MORE THAN TWENTY FIVE YEARS. SHE ENCOURAGED PEOPLE TO SEND THE POLICE SO I WOULD HAVE TO SELL MY FINANCIALLY UNDER WATER HOUSE. SHE SAID SHE WANTED ME TO BE "ON THE STREET OR IN JAIL". 

USING THE POLICE TO CAUSE PROBLEMS FOR ME CAUSES ME TO ENDURE PHYSICAL AND MENTAL PARALYSIS.

THE LOSS OF TIME AND ABILITY TO DO ANYTHING CONTINUES.

This is an excerpt from my continuing document on my condition.

Apage on how I feel February 8 2024:

It is almost 1 PM and I am still not able to move for more than a minute or two. I am collapsed even as I sit to type. I could not get dressed until now. I did it in bed, stopping, laying there repeatecly, and with great difficulty.

I have pulled out some spasm kinks but the result is more virtual paralysis.

THE INCREDIBLE WASTE OF TIME WHICH RESULTS FROM MY DISABILITY

I CONTINUALLY EXPERIENCE BOUTS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS. SOME DAYS IT LASTS PART OF A DAY AND SOME DAYS IT LASTS ALL DAY LONG. I AM TRYING TO GET MY NECESSARY ROUTINE WORK DONE SO I CAN PUT UP SOME HANDRAILS. I HAVE THE REPLACEMENT BRACKETS FOR TWO SHORT HANDRAILS ON THE STAIRS TO THE LOWER FLOOR BASEMENT AREA.

I DID GET DONE WITH HARVEST AND REPLACEMENT AND CLONING AND TRANSPLANTING BUT I EXPERIENCED SHORT WINDOWS OF MOBILITY FOLLOWED BY HAVING TO LAY FLAT IN BED FOR THE REST OF THE DAY.

I HAVE FALLEN BEHIND ON DISH WASHING AND TODAY I HAVE BEEN LAID OUT FLAT ALMOST ALL DAY AND AS I WRITE THIS MY ARMS CAN'T TAKE IT.

I HAVE NOT GOT TO ANY OF THE REPAIR WORK I HAVE TO DO FOR ONE AND A HALF YEARS NOR HAVE I BEEN ABLE TO DO MY MUSIC PRACTICE SINCE I FELL INTO THE DITCH OUT FRONT WHICH WAS BUILT TO BE AN OBSTSCLE AND A HAZARD. 

I HAD A KNEE COLLAPSE WHICH IS A PRODUCT OF COMPRESSING MY KNEE AS I COLLAPSED DURING ONE OF THE MANY INVASIONS OF MY PROPERTY. I FELL FLAT ON MY FACE AND I HAVE BEEN ADDITIONALLY DISABLED SINCE THEN WITH MY LEFT ARM LIMP AND UNABLE TO BE RAISES OR USED. NOW MY RIGHT ARM IS FAILING FROM OVERUSE AS MY ONLY FUNCTIONAL ARM.

This is an excerpt from my continuing document on my condition.

Apage on how I feel February 8 2024:

It is almost 1 PM and I am still not able to move for more than a minute or two. I am collapsed even as I sit to type. I could not get dressed until now. I did it in bed, stopping, laying there repeatecly, and with great difficulty.

I have pulled out some spasm kinks but the result is more virtual paralysis.

MENDACITY IS THE ROOT OF A LOT OF EVIL.

I CONTINUALLY EXPERIENCE ANGUISH OVER NOT HAVING BEEN PROPERLY DIAGNOSED AS TO MY INJURIES AND THE RESULTING DISABILITY I EXPERIENCE.

I THINK THAT IS A RESULT OF THE CONCERTED EFFORTS OF INSURANCE COMPANIES AND ADJUSTERS, THEIR LAWYERS AND THE JUDGES 

WHO COOPERATE WITH THEM TO MINIMIZE OR BETTER STILL TO DIS ACKNOWLEDGE THAT AN INJURY OCCURRED WITH THE AIM OF AVOIDING RESPONSIBILITY. 

UNFORTUNATELY FOR THE INJURED AND DISABLED PERSON THERE IS NO MORE PAYCHECK AND LIFE IS MADE ANGUISHING AND DIFFICULT BY THE NEEDLESS DEFAMATION HEAPED UPON AN INJURED AND DISABLED PERSON.

SKEPTICISM AND UNCERTAINTY ARE NOT EVIDENTIARY.

My Declarations about how disabled and non functional I am are dismissed without there being any evidence that I am wrong.

RAGDOLLED

WHAT IS "RAGDOLLED"? THAT IS A SITUATION WHERE ONE'S BODY HAS NO SUPPORT, NOR WILL IT STAY ERECT WHEN ONE IS SITTING OR STANDING WITHOUT ONE'S HOLDING ONE'S BODY UP BY WEDGING UNDER OR UP AGAINST THINGS, OR BY CLINGING TO WALLS OR FURNITURE AS AN EXOSKELETAL SUPPORT MECHANISM. 

AFTER I WAS ACCIDENT INJURED I HAD TO LAY IN A RECLINING, SUPPORTED POSITION ON AN ARMCHAIR WITH MY FEET AND LEGS SUPPORTED ON A TABLE OR I HAD TO LAY FLAT ON MY BACK OR CURLED UP WITH SOMETHING BETWEEN MY LEGS TO ALLEVIATE THE WORST SYMPTOMS OF MY CONDITION.

THIS WENT ON UNINTERRUPTEDLY IN 1968, FROM 1970 TO 1974 AND FROM 1974 TO 1979 INTERMITTENTLY AND I HAVE NO MEMORY OF 1986 TO 1990 AND IN 1991. 

I HAD PERIODS OF RECOVERY IN 1990 AND IN 1992. FROM 1993 TO 1996 I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED ONCE AGAIN BUT I HAD SHORT PERIODS WHERE I COULD ACCOMPLISH TASKS, NOT THE UP TO FOUR HOURS I HAD GRATEFULLY EXPERIENCED DURING THE 1980'S, WHICH SPECIFIC YEARS, I DO NOT KNOW.

DISABLED AND DISCREDITED: BEING DEFAMED AS DELUSIONAL, ADDS TO THE ANGUISH OF BEING UNABLE TO FUNCTION. MORE STIFFNESS AND SPASM AND VIRTUAL PARALYSIS RESULT FROM UNJUST TREATMENT AND FROM BEING THREATENED.

IT IS EASY FROM THE OUTSIDE OF A SYMPTOM TO DENY ITS EXISTENCE BUT FROM THE INSIDE, ONE IS VIVIDLY AWARE OF THE EXISTENCE OF ANY SYMPTOM. THIS IS A POST @blogspot.com ABOUT SYMPTOMS WHICH ARE IGNORED AND UNIVERSALLY DENIED IN MY CASE.

SHELL SHOCK LIFE

My devastating Shell Shock is the result of childhood through 76 years old of having sociopaths harass and intimidate me trying to effect their terminal supervision conquest.

Sunday, April 23, 2023

SHELL SHOCK MAY BE AN IMPORTANT CONTRIBUTOR TO MY TONIC IMMOBILITY, COLLAPSE AND THE VIRTUAL TO TOTAL PARALYSIS WHICH I AM EXPERIENCING NOW. I CANNOT EVEN DO MY, PREVIOUSLY ALWAYS DONE DAILY, MUSIC PRACTICE.

I FIND MYSELF, REPEATEDLY, IN A SEMI-FETAL POSITION. I AM HALF CURLED AND MY LEFT LEG IS BENT MORE THAN THE RIGHT LEG. I DO NOT MOVE A MUSCLE.

Postscript: I often do not get relief without applying traction to my back and/or neck, or legs and in addition, often, I have to interlock my fingers and apply traction by curling my hand to pull on my  fingers and my arm or I pull out my fingers by grasping and twisting my fingers and applying traction to finger joints.

THIS IS THE "THROWN DOWN" PART OF ONE OF THOSE MOTHER'S ATTACKS WHERE MY NECK WAS TWISTED TO THE RIGHT AND THEN YANKED BACK TO THE LEFT AND I WAS THROWN TO THE FLOOR.

WHEN I WAS SNUCK UP ON AND THROWN DOWN, AND SOMETIMES JUMPED ON AS WELL, A PAVLOVIAN COLLAPSE RESPONSE WAS CREATED. 

I CAN COLLAPSE IF I AM THREATENED OR IF I THINK SOMEONE IS GOING TO SNEAK UP ON ME OR IF AN UNJUST PUNISHMENT IS ATTEMPTED. THE IMPOSITION OF A PLAN TO HAVE NUMEROUS AUTHORITIES STALK, CHARGE AND JAIL ME CREATES A WEAKNESS IN MY ENTIRE BODY.

WHEN I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY HOSTILE PERSONS I HAVE COLLAPSED, USUALLY DOWN MY LEFT SIDE, WHICH COMPRESSED AND INJURED MY KNEE.

AFTER EVERY INJURY, COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND TONIC IMMOBILITY SET IN, ALONG WITH, AT THE WORST, THE REVERSE ARCHED BACK WHICH IS A SYMPTOM OF  

SHELL SHOCK.

JUST BECAUSE YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW SOMETHING HAPPENS DOES NOT MEAN THAT IT DID NOT HAPPEN. I AM VERY VULNERABLE.

THE COMPOUNDING OF FINANCIAL OR PROSPECT DAMAGE WITH PHYSICAL DAMAGE FROM IMPACT INJURY OR COLLAPSE OVERWHELMS ME WITH VIRTUAL PARALYSIS OR IS IT SHELL SHOCK?

 

Tuesday, April 19, 2022

MY BROTHER HELPED FAMILY MEMBERS TO HIDE AND STEAL MY INHERITANCES. 

HE DID  THIS TO START WITH AT THE BEHEST OF HIS WIFE, MY BROTHER ANDREW ADMITTED. HIS WIFE OBJECTED TO MY INHERITING MONEY LIKE HER OLDER BROTHER HAD. SHE DID NOT WANT THIS HAPPENING IN "HER NEW FAMILY". I LINDON COLLARD WAS NOT HER NEW FAMILY. SO THEY STOLE THE FAMILY FROM ME. 

 

MY BROTHER ROBBED ME, LIED TO ME, DEFRAUDED ME AND HID MY MAIL AND MY INHERITANCES FROM ME AND THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH DAMAGE. HE CAME TO MY HOUSE IN 2000 WHERE HE SUCKER STRUCK ME WITH A TEN FINGER TAI CHI BLOW THAT HAS LEFT ME CRIPPLED TO THIS DAY. 

DESPITE BEING DISABLED AND EASILY INJURED IN THAT STATE, I WENT TO WORK AT THE ROCKCLIFFE WHICH I HAD JUST PURCHASED, FOR A FEW HOURS.

AT THE ROCKCLIFFE AFTER MY FIRST DAY'S WORK, I WENT TO BED AT 4;30 PM.

VICTORIA CITY POLICE OR THE ALF TOONE CORPORATION DEMANDED THAT ONE OF MY WORKERS FETCH ME, WHICH HE DID, UNFORTUNATELY. I HAD SAID THAT I WAS GOING TO SLEEP AND THAT I MUST NOT BE DISTURBED.

THERE WERE TWO MORONIC FEMALE SUPREMACISTS IN MY PARKING LOT WITH TWO CITY OF VICTORIA POLICE OFFICERS AND TWO BARFIGHTERS SMACKING THEIR FISTS INTO THEIR HANDS AND SCOWLING LIKE DEMONS.

This was in early 2001, I managed a nap or two but I was uncomfortable at my own property The Rockcliffe. Not much later, the Alf Toone Corporation and Atco Fencing had 12 people in my parking lot when I arrived. I had a Tonic Immobility collapse. I was never able to sleep again at my #300 1317 Hillside home at the Rockcliffe and eventually I was not able to go there at all. In 2015 there was malfunctioning equipment, my manager was out of town. I had to go to the Rockliffe. I collapsed and have not ever recovered because I was raided and threatened several more times, each instance triggered either Tonic Immobility Collapse or Convulsion worsening my inability to recover.

NOVEMBER 5 2020 AS I DROVE PAST THE ROCKLIFFE TO GO TO A MEDICAL APPOINTMENT I HAD A COLLAPSE OR SEIZURE JUST FROM DRIVING PAST MY HOME WHICH I SHOULD HAVE USED AS I HAD PLANNED TO FACILITATE APPOINTMENTS AND MEETINGS. THE ROCKCLIFFE IS MY BUSINESS WHICH I AM DRIVEN OFF OF BUT HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYTHING NOT ATTENDED TO SPEEDILY, BUT I AM NOT ABLE TO, I AM NOT THERE, I DO NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON THERE

THIS BEHAVIOR BY ALL PERSONS INVOLVED TERRORIZES ME AND TRIGGERS ATTACKS OF SHELL SHOCK.

This is the result of childhood through 76 years old of having sociopaths harass and intimidate me trying to effect their terminal supervision conquest.

SHELL SHOCK LIFE