COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION

JULIUS CAESAR HAD A SIMILAR COLLAPSE SYMPTOM AS THE COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION EVENTS I HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT EXTENSIVELY IN this blog DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED @ blogspot.com.

Ancient accounts from biographers like Plutarch and Suetonius describe Caesar as suffering from the "falling sickness" and having episodes accompanied by body tremors and loss of consciousness. While widely interpreted as epilepsy, some modern neuroscientists argue that late-onset seizures and symptoms like limb weakness could be the result of a series of transient ischemic attacks (TIAs), commonly known as mini-strokes. 

CAESAR HAD COLLAPSED AND CONVULSED MANY TIMES LATER IN HIS LIFE. CLOSE FAMILY MEMBERS HAD ALSO EXPERIENCED THIS EPILEPTIC SEIZURE. 

JULIUS AUGUSTUS CAESAR COLLAPSED  AND HAD A CONVULSION AS HE ADDRESSED THE ROMAN SENATE.

THE ROMAN EMPEROR AND DICTATOR WAS STABBED TO DEATH SHORTLY AFTER THIS HAPPENED. 

I HAVE SIMILAR EPILEPTIC OR OTHER HEAD INJURY REACTIONS TO SITUATIONS WHERE I AM INVADED OR THREATENED AND I WILL EXPERIENCE A REPRISE OF THE CONVULSIVE OR PARALYTIC EVENT UNDER THE SAME CIRCUMSTANCES OR AT THE SAME PLACE OR IN THE PRESENCE OF THE SAME PEOPLE OR EVEN PERSONS WHO BELONG TO THE SAME GROUP OR THOSE WHO SUPPORT OR EXCUSE OR JUSTIFY THE ACTIONS OF  ATTACKERS, THIEVES OR VANDALS. 

I THINK THAT DAYS WEEKS MONTHS OR YEARS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS RESULT FROM MY REMAINING PERMANENTLY  COLLAPSED AND/OR CONVULSED. 

PEOPLE DO NOT REALIZE HOW DISABLED I AM.

YESTERDAY I DID FORTY MINUTES OF SERVING MY JUNIOR AND BUD ROOMS.

IN THE EVENING I HAD TO DRIVE TO SOOKE TO SIGN DOCUMENTS AND I ALSO SHOPPED BRIEFLY AT BOTH GROCERY STORES WHICH WAS FORTY FIVE MINUTES DRIVING, TWO TEN MINUTE SHOPPING SESSIONS AND THEN I HAD TO SIT FOR A HALF HOUR WAITING AND SIGNING DOCUMENTS REGARDING A FAMILY OWNED FOUR LOT SUBDIVISION.

I HAD TO LAY DOWN MOST OF THE DAY, ELEVEN AM TO SIX PM TO DO THIS.

TODAY, THE DAY AFTER, I AM SPASMING AND I AM ALMOST UNABLE TO STAND AND I HAVE TO HOLD MYSELF UP ON THE ARMS OF MY TYPIST CHAIR.

I CAN NOT DO THIS, LIVE PERFORMANCE ON STAGE.

I CAN NOT DO THIS, MUSIC PRACTICE.

THIS IS REALLY TERRIBLE AS I CANNOT DO ANYTHING TODAY BUT TYPE THIS.

FROM MY BLOG "'HATE"@blogspot.com.

HATE IS CHARACTERIZED AS AN EMOTIONAL ISSUE WHERE THERE IS AN INTENSE DISLIKE OF OTHER PEOPLE, BUT THERE IS HATE WHICH IS ACTED UPON. ANOTHER IMPORTANT FACTOR IN CONDEMNING DISLIKE AS HATRED IS WHO DAMAGED WHOM. WHO HURT AND KILLED AND STOLE THE POSSESSIONS OF AND THE PROSPECTS OF OTHER PEOPLE IS JUSTIFIABLY DISLIKED

Friday, April 10, 2026

THERE IS A WHOLE LOT OF HATE.

THERE IS CONTEMPT, WHICH MORPHS  INTO HATRED, DIRECTED AT ANYONE WHO SEEMS TO BE POOR AND IT IS DEPLORABLE THAT PERSONS DISABLED BY THE NEGLIGENCE OF OTHERS ARE HATED.

FROM MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE I KNOW THAT IS TRUE FROM THE COMMENTS MADE DURING MY LIFE OF POVERTY ABOUT MY CARS, MY CLOTHES AND ABOUT MY CAREFUL MANAGEMENT OF MY FINANCES; "CHEAP", IS WHAT I WAS CALLED. I JUST PLAIN DID NOT HAVE ANY DISPOSABLE FOR DECADES. 

I DO NOT THINK THERE IS AN UNDERSTANDING OF HOW MY VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AFFECTS ME.

I CAN BARELY WALK OR GET TO MY FEET AND I AM DISBELIEVED ABOUT HOW MANY SITUATIONS CAN PUSH ME THAT LAST BIT OF THE WAY TO COLLAPSING.

PEOPLE CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I SPEND MONTHS OR YEARS PARALYZED AFTER ACCIDENT INJURY, COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION.

I AM HAVING ONE OF THOSE PARALYZED DAYS TODAY. I CAN MAKE IT TO THE TOILET; I CAN WALK THE FIFTY FEET NECESSARY TO FEED THE WILD BIRDS; I CAN LEAN ON A COUNTER AND SLICE UP A SALAD OR PUT A MEAL ON TO COOK BUT I HAVE TO LAY FLAT REALLY QUICKLY. THE EFFORT TO MOVE OR STAND IS UNBEARABLE FOR VERY LONG.

THE YEARS FOR WHICH SOME IMPEDIMENT HAS CONTINUED AND THE PREVIOUSLY ENJOYED ACTIVITIES HAVE NOT CONTINUED SURELY ARE EVIDENCE THAT SOMETHING NEGATIVE OR DISABLING HAD HAPPENED.

 

VIRTUAL PARALYSIS CAN BE LIKE BEING ENCASED IN CONCRETE OR WADING IN MUD, IT IS JUST INCREDIBLY HARD TO MOVE.

I AM SUFFERING FROM ANOTHER PERIOD OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS, A SYMPTOM OF STIFF PERSON SYNDROME OR TONIC IMMOBILITY. 

I ENDURED MONTHS OR YEARS OF THIS DISABLING INABILITY TO STAND OR SIT, I HAD TO LAY DOWN AND STAY DOWN FOR MOST OF THE DAY FOR MONTHS IN 1967 AND 1968 AND AGAIN FROM 1970 TO 1974 AND I HAD TO SLEEP EVERY FOUR HOURS OR OR EVEN AFTER FORTY MINUTES OF MOBILITY TO REMAIN ACTIVE AFTER THAT UNTIL 1978 AND AGAIN FROM 1986 UNTIL  1992 AND AGAIN FOR MANY YEARS AFTER THAT, IT WAS NOT AS BAD BUT I NEVER REALLY RECOVERED.

DOES THIS NOT MEAN THAT WHEN I WAS INJURED THROUGH COLLISION, CONVULSION OR  COLLAPSE SOMETHING SERIOUS AND DISABLING HAPPENED.

I HEARD ABOUT TWO CASES SIMILAR TO MY DISABILITY.

CASE ONE: I MET A MAINTENANCE MAN WHO HAD BEEN REAR ENDED IN HIS CAR. TWO MONTHS LATER HE BEGAN TO HAVE INCREASING INSTANCES OF HEAD INJURY SYMPTOMS. 

CASE TWO: I MET A CONCRETE WORKER AT THE CREDIT UNION LAST WEEK WHEN I WENT SHOPPING.

HE SAID HE WAS WORKING POURING FOUNDATIONS AT SUN RIVER ON A HOT SUNNY DAY. HIS STEP BROTHER WAS WORKING WITH HIM CARRYING SHEETS OF PLYWOOD. HIS BROTHER HAD BEEN HEAD INJURED AT LEAST TWICE BEFORE THIS TIME. 

SUDDENLY THE INJURED PERSON FELL OVER AND WENT INTO A REVERSE ARCH AND BEGAN TO HAVE A CONVULSION WHICH DISABLED HIM AND THE INJURED STEP BROTHER NEVER WORKED AGAIN.

THE INJURED PERSON TRIED EVERYTHING HE COULD TO RECOVER, INCLUDING SUBMITTING TO DRUG THERAPIES FROM HIS MD. THE DRUGS ACTUALLY HAD A NEGATIVE IMPACT ON HIM I WAS TOLD AND RECOVERY WAS NOT EVER ACHIEVED.

I REFUSED THE USE OF THE MEDICAL PROFESSION'S DRUGS WHICH WERE INTENDED TO CALM THE PATIENT BUT WERE ACTUALLY JUST BARBITUATES.

I HAVE COMMUNICATED ABOUT THE HEAD INJURY SYMPTOMS WHICH BECAME MUCH WORSE IN MY CASE PARALYZING ME TO A GREATER DEGREE AFTER ENSUING ACCIDENTS OR COLLAPSES OR CONVULSIONS.

I HAVE ALSO COMMUNICATED WITH DOCTORS, PHYSIOTHERAPISTS, POLITICIANS AND THE MEDIA ABOUT HOW LONG IT CAN TAKE TO RECOVER FROM THE REVERSE ARCH, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND WEAKNESS SYMPTOMS WHICH PERSIST FOR MONTHS OR YEARS. I HAVE NEVER HAD ANY SUPPORT NOR RECOGNITION OF MY LONG LASTING PERIODS OF DISABILITY.

VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND THE "RAG DOLLED" SYNDROME.

I HAVE EXPERIENCED MANY DAYS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS RECENTLY. I HAVE NOT RECOVERED FROM MY COLLAPSE ON FEBRUARY 2016 AND MY CONVULSION JUNE 2016 HERE AT OTTER POINT. THESE INJURIES WERE PRECEDED BY A  NOVEMBER 2015 COLLAPSE AT THE ROCKCLIFFE APARTMENTS.

I ALSO FELL INTO THE DITCH THE LOCAL HOOLIGANS DUG TO RUIN MY LAND AND I BECAME MORE VIRTUALLY PARALYZED AND HAVING TO LAY FLAT SINCE I EXPERIENCED THE TEN FOOT FALL INTO THE DITCH WHICH IS DEEPER AND WIDER THROUGHOUT MOST OF ITS TWO HUNDRED FOOT LENGTH.  

I COLLAPSE AT THE ROCKCLIFFE WHERE, STARTING IN 2001, THE POLICE AND BYLAW WERE CONTINUALLY SENT TO INTIMIDATE ME. I COLLAPSE OR EXPERIENCE CONVULSION WHEN THE POLICE OR BYLAW ARE SENT TO MY HOME AT OTTER POINT OR WHEN I VIEW THE DESPOLIATION MY LAND WAS SUBJECTED TO WHICH PERSISTS TO THIS DAY. MY HOMESTEAD IS AN IMPOSSIBLE TO HUSBAND AND DANGEROUS PLACE FOE A DISABLED PERSON TO LIVE AND TO TAKE CARE OF.

I AM SEVENTY NINE YEARS OLD AND THIS MAY BE A FACTOR IN MY FAILURE TO RECOVER BUT IT HAD TAKEN ME YEARS TO RECOVER FROM INJURY WHEN I WAS IN MY EARLY TWENTIES AND WHEN I WAS FORTY AND WHEN I WAS FIFTY YEARS OLD.

THE POLICE AND BYLAW HAVE RAIDED MY HOMESTEAD AT LEAST FORTY TIMES.

LONG AGO THERE HAD BEEN ONE HUNDRED RAIDERS AND TRESPASSERS HERE ON MY PROPERTY AT MY RURAL SINGLE OCCUPANCY HOME. I AM HERE ALONE,  NO ONE FROM HERE HAS EVER SUMMONED THE POLICE NOR HAVE THEY EVER HAD A REAL PURPOSE FOR RAIDING MY PROPERTY. ALWAYS SOME MADE UP PREMISE IS USED. I  ALWAYS OBEY REGULATION AND LAW EXCEPT FOR CANNABIS PROHIBITION IN THE PAST. THE POLICE AND BYLAW AND PROVINCIAL CONSTABLES CAN ARRIVE ANYTIME SOMEONE MAKES SOMETHING UP AND EVEN THE MADE UP COMPLAINTS DO NOT CONFER A WARRANT BUT STILL THE POLICE AND BYLAW HAVE BEEN HERE SO MANY TIMES I ALWAYS EXPECT A RAID AT ANY TIME. THIS CONTINUAL APPREHENSIN AND FEAR PROBABLY INTERFERES WITH RECOVERY FROM  COLLAPSE, CONVULSION OR INJURY.

I ALWAYS HAVE THESE IMAGES IN MY MIND.

I AM ALWAYS ON THE VERGE OF COLLAPSE. I HAVE TO SUPPORT MYSELF ON SOMETHING ALMOST ANY TIME I AM ON MY FEET. EVEN THE TWO MINUTES WHICH ARE ALL I CAN DO OFTEN ARE SUPPORTED.

I HAVE TO SUPPORT MYSELF ON SOMETHING EVEN WHEN I AM STANDING IN MY HOME. I CAN MAKE SHORT RUNS FOR A FEW SECONDS TO FEED BIRDS OR THE CATS BUT I HAVE TO LEAN ON SOMETHING TO COOK OR WASH DISHES.

From my Microsoft documents file:

Apage on how I feel May 27 2025:

I have been keeping a paper diary with many entries daily.

I will note here what I will write in DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED.

WHY WOULD I COLLAPSE WHEN CONFRONTED OR IN THE SAME SITUATION WHERE I COLLAPSED   PREVIOUSLY OR IN THE PRESECNCE OF THOSE PERSONS?

I AM ALMOST ALWAYS ON THE VERGE OF COLLAPSING, BARELY ABLE TO STAND. AROUND THE HOUSE I AM ALWAYS SUPPORTING MYSELF ON SOMETHING.

I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO RECOVER FROM HEAD, NECK AND SPINAL INJURY. I KNOW NOW THAT I HAD THE CORRECT METHODOLOGY TO EFFECT RECOVERY FROM THE PHYSICAL AND THE PSYCHOLOGICAL INJURIES CAUSED BY THE ACCIDENTS AND THE BAD TREATMENT I WAS SUBJECTED TO.

EVERYTHING WAS CONTROLLED BY WOMEN, MY MOTHER, MY WIFE, MY SISTER IN LAW EXERTED A RELENTLESS UNEDUCATED RESISTANCE AGAINST THINGS THAT WERE NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS AND THAT THEY KNEW NOTHING ABOUT EXCEPT TO OPPOSE WHAT OTHER PERSONS WERE DOING.

THE MAD POSTURING ASSUMED BY THE WOMEN AND WHICH THEIR WIMPED OUT SLAVE MEN SUPPORTED NEVER HAD A PRODUCTIVE END PRODUCT. CERTAINLY THEY SUCKED OUT SOME MONEY FOR THEMSELVES IN SOME CASES BUT THERE WAS ALWAYS A NET LOSS FOR EVERYONE ELSE AND ESPECIALLY FOR WHOMSOEVER THEY WERE CONTROLLING.

MODERN DAY MEDICINE NOW PUBLISHES THAT MUSIC, DANCE AND CREATIVITY, COMPANIONSHIP AND RELAXATION AND A FEELING OF SECURITY ARE ESSENTIAL TO RECOVERY, IN PARTICULAR FROM TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY EPILEPSY.

THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG WAS OPPOSED TO A PLEASANT RECOVERY FROM INJURY. THEY THOUGHT THAT STEALING MONEY AND PUTTING PRESSURE ON ME, A DISABLED PERSON WAS THE WAY TO FORCE A MAN TO RECOVER AND GET BACK TO BEING A SLAVE FOR THEM.

I KNOW THAT I WILL COLLAPSE IF I GO TO THE ROCKLIFFE OR SEE MY ABUSERS OF ANY SORT OR WHEN I SEE HOW MY PROPERTY WAS STRIPPED OF SOIL AND TREES AND THE HOUSE IN A HOLE WITH A DITCH OUT FRONT

AM I COLLAPSED OR VIRTUALLY PARALYZED MOST OF THE TIME HERE AT OTTER POINT BECAUSE MY HOME HAS BEEN TURNED INTO A COLLAPSE ZONE BY THE TRESPASSING, VANDALISM AND THE THIRTY THREE RAIDS THERE WERE HERE?

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It was ten years ago when I collapsed as I went to inspect the Rockcliffe Apartments. I heard the hall pressurizer malfunctioning and alarmed, I had a back spasm but I did not go down. I headed to my car and in the parking lot I had a repeat of my 2001 left side collapse bending and folding my left leg and left knee, so the knee was injured and my back was twisted and spasming.

A MULTI BLOG POST FROM LINDON COLLARD TOTAL RECALL. THERE SHOULD BE COMPENSATION FOR DISABLING INJURY WHICH LASTS AS LONG AS THE DISABILITY OR INJURY PERSISTS.

Thursday, May 1, 2025

THE PERMANENT NATURE OF INJURY, UNJUST TREATMENT AND THE LOSS OF WHAT I WAS WORKING AT.

I MIGHT HAVE A MORE FREQUENT RECALL THAN OTHER PEOPLE DO OF WHAT MADE ME LIMP OR OR CAUSED FUGUE, CONVULSION OR COLLAPSE BECAUSE IT COMES TO MIND DUE TO ASSOCIATION WITHIN MY TOTAL RECALL MEMORY. 

EVEN THE NOT PHYSICAL LOSS OF MY PROSPECTS OR PROJECTS OR WHERE I HAD WORKED LINGERS, SURFACING IN MY THOUGHTS, BROUGHT BACK BY SIMILAR EVENTS OR ASSOCIATIVE FACTORS.

THE HYPER ALERTNESS I ADAPTED TO SO I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISED BY POLICE ON MY PROPERTY OR TRYING TO BREAK INTO OR IN MY HOME ROUSTS ME EVERY TIME I HEAR A SUSPICIOUS NOISE WHICH SEEMS TO BE NEAR MY HOUSE OR IN THE DRIVEWAY. THE EFFECT OF THE FAKE 911 CALLS AND THE POLICE RAIDS NEVER GOES AWAY. 

THE NEVER ENDING EFFECT OF SOME PHYSICAL INJURIES IS THE WORST ASPECT OF LINGERING INJURY WHICH COMES TO MIND WHEN I WAKE UP OR TRY TO ACCOMPLISH A TASK OR TO DO MY, NOW IN HIATUS, MUSIC PRACTICE.

CLICK ON THE ARROW TO VIEW AND HEAR "DARK IMAGININGS". THIS A LIVE UNCUT VIDEO OF A SONG DONE IN A MUSIC PRACTICE.

I HAVE SUCH A HARD TIME TO JUST STAND OR WALK THAT I THINK WHAT HAPPENS IF I AM CONFRONTED OR TERRIFIED OR DISMAYED IS THAT I LOSE MY CONCENTRATION AND I COLLAPSE.

I AM ALWAYS VERY CLOSE TO LOSING MY EQUILIBRIUM OR THE STABILITY OF MY KNEES OR MY BACK AND COLLAPSING WHOLLY OR ON ONE SIDE.

I MAY HAVE BECOME VIRTUALLY PARALYZED IN 1968 AND AGAIN IN 1970 TO 1974 NOT ONLY FROM FROM MOTOR VEHICLE CRASH INJURIES BUT ALSO  FROM BEING DISMAYED AT THE REFUSAL TO PAY MY OUT OF WORK INSURANCE CLAIM WHICH POLICY I HAD PAID FOR EVERY MONTH FOR MANY YEARS.

GRADUALLY I BECAME CAPABLE OF DOING MORE WORK AND UNDERTAKING MORE ACTIVITIES BUT ONLY USUALLY TWO DAYS PER WEEK FROM 1974 UNTIL LATE 1977 WHEN I WAS ABLE TO WORK FULL TIME AT MY JEWELRY FACTORY AND THEN TO COMPLETE MY HALF BUILT HOME IN 1980 AND TO WORK LATER SIX DAYS PER WEEK IN VICTORIA.

IN DECEMBER OF 1986 I WAS INJURED IN A MOTOR VEHICLE CRASH I DID NOT CAUSE AND I HIRED BARBARA YATES.

THIS IS A SIMILAR CRASH TO MINE IN A SIMILAR CAR WHICH WAS STRUCK BY INGRAM'S LEFT TURNING CAR AND PROPELLED INTO THE POLE. IN ADDITION THE POLE WAS STEEL NOT WOOD, AND THE MOTOR VEHICLE CRASH HAPPENED AT NIGHT IN VANCOUVER. I DID NOT STRIKE AND BREAK THE WINDSCREEN EITHER.

ICBC DECLARED THAT I WAS "WORTHLESS" AND I SHOULD BE DENIED A SETTLEMENT WHICH I THINK THE COMBINATION OF ACCIDENT INJURY AND THAT FARCICAL IMPOSITION OF WORTHLESSNESS CAUSING DISMAY PRECIPITATED ME INTO A STATE OF FUGUE.

I RECOVERED SO I COULD ROLLERBLADE FROM 1998 TO 2001. BEFORE THAT, IN THE EARLY 1990'S I COULD PERFORM LIVE MUSIC. AS LONG AS I WAS ABLE TO CONCENTRATE ON MUSIC, DANCE OR ROLLERBLADING I COULD KEEP ON GOING. WHEN THE POLICE WERE SICCED ONTO ME I WOULD LOSE MY ABILITY TO CONCENTRATE ON WHAT I WAS DOING AND I HAD TO WATCH OUT FOR TRESPASSERS OR POLICE WHO WERE OUT TO GET ME FOR SOMETHING AND WHO I FEARED WOULD HARM ME.

I COLLAPSE WHEN I AM DISMAYED. SEVERAL YEARS AFTER MY BROTHER ANDREW ADMINISTERED A CRIPPLING TEN FINGER TAI CHI BLOW TO MY CHEST. JUST FROM SEEING HIM I WAS DISMAYED AND I BEGAN TO COLLAPSE. 

I ALSO COLLAPSE WHEN I AM DISMAYED AT THE TERRIBLE STATE MY LAND WAS REDUCED TO BY THE TREE REMOVAL AND SOIL STRIPPING AND DITCH DIGGING THAT THE LOCAL CRIMINAL GANG DID.