From my log of condition which I have not made many entries into lately.

DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED: AN ABSURD OUTCOME FOR VICTIMS

A page on how I feel July 24 2023:

I have to lay down every few minutes. If I cling to the furniture I am surprisingly OK continuing to sit.

AS I SIT NOW, I PRESS DOWN WITH MY ELBOWS ON THE CHAIR ARMS AND PRESS UP ON THE BOTTOM OF THE UNDER TABLE SHELF. I FEEL RELIEF, I CAN BREATHE BETTER AND I AM NOT COLLAPSING OR FADING OUT.

EARLIER AS I SAT AT THE LOW TABLE, I NOTICED THIS CLINGING TO THE FURNITURE. I PUSHED DOWN ON THE FLOOR WITH MY LEGS. I HELD ON AND PULLED ON THE PILLOW ON MY CHAIR WITH MY LEFT HAND AND ARM . I JAMMED MY RIGHT BICEP AGAINST THE BED'S FRAME (AT A 3 OR 4 FOOT HEIGHT) AND I ROTATED IT ON THE OUTSIDE FORWARDS. THEN I WAS OK TO SIT.

IN THE PAST I REMEMBER CLINGING TO MY RECLINER AND JAMMING MY LEGS UNDER TABLES. 

I HAVE HAD THIS SITUATION WHERE INTERNAL TENSION HAS TO BE CREATED TO FEEL NORMAL MANY TIMES AND I TOLD DOCTORS AND THERAPISTS ABOUT IT,  BUT THEY HAD NO RESPONSE.

I WONDER IF THE MEDICAL PRACTITIONERS THINK I AM LYING OR FAKING OR IMAGINING THIS UNUSUAL SYMPTOM REMEDY.

I COULD UNDERSTAND WHY LAYING FLAT AND NOT MOVING WORKS. I HAVE USED TRACTION MANY TIMES AND I HAVE INVOLUNTARILY SPASMED AND HELD ON TO FURNITURE OR WALLS, DOORWAYS AND COUNTERS TO NOT SWOON OR COLLAPSE.