Exacerbation: The increase in severity of physical symptoms and mental symptoms through pre-existing vulnerability or post trauma stimulus can create devastating damage which is mis-diagnosed.
I can see in the articles which I wrote in the past, that I was unaware of the nature and multiplicity of my unusual disabilities which occur and re-occur as a result of the repeated accident and collapse injury which I have experienced and the Tonic Immobility Disability which is the result of childhood trauma. Tonic Immobility is seriously re-instituted by being abandoned by family and authorities and by my being attacked by numbers of persons while I am alone.
The injuries to my Head, Neck, Knees, Legs and Back and Jaws, Teeth, and even "Balance System" make the full or partial collapses of Tonic Immobility more damaging than they would be to an uninjured person. The re-institution of female abuse and control of myself through color of law or family disinheritance pressures was more devastating due to my Mother's beatings and her theft of my childhood bank account of gifts from relatives and my inheritance at age eighteen, an inheritance from my Paternal Grandfather, which thefts and the inability to reverse the thefts have scarred me for life since childhood. The daily beating with thick hardwood handled brooms and steel edged rulers was devastating physically and emotionally. The beaten child never forgets. Nor does the child forget who is dispossessed.
I can see the event as my Grandfather's bequest to me was stolen, like a memory from an hour ago. I was eighteen years of age, my mother had said I was under their authority til I was twenty-one years of age and I was not getting the money until I was twenty one. I did not realize until years later what I had been forced to sign at nineteen, I could not know what the document was that was covered except for the signature line. I was told that the document was about father saving on income tax but I was not allowed to see, there was a sacred secrecy about income sheltering the theft and fraud.
My Father and other family members were there, as I was forced to sign a document with another blank paper over it. Farmers and Merchants Trust at the top of the page could be read right through the covering page. My Mother forced the pen into my hand. Back at school and where I worked I was made a fool, as I had counted down the weeks and days til inheritance time. I regret that valuable and enjoyable experience I would have had was changed to baloney sandwich student poverty and then later accident injured destitution. Mommy put the money in the Bank where it still was when she died and all the interest too.
I had been willed a large estate by my Uncle Albert. The documents were sent to my mother and she and my brother Andrew and sister Joanne and my wife knew about it but I was not informed, did not respond with a letter of thanks, I scrimped and saved and suffered. Years later, Andrew said laughing, "Mother and I thought you wouldn't try hard enough if you knew". All of the money was diverted and the house in Lachine P.Q. was sold and I did not get a cent from the estate.
Talking old dying people into changing their wills is theft and fraud. ``You and your vaunted intelligence``, said my sister,`` if people can do things they will ". Joanne Phillion now, she was proud that the diversion of all of *Albert`s Estate* had occurred and that in addition she had taken shares from my children from my Aunt Annette`s estate on whose behalf I was supposed to inherit through a ` number of children, number of shares plan`, European Style again. ``The Estate of Annette Rugenuis``.
*The Estate of Albert Rugenuis: There was a huge diversion of funds from myself to other family members when My Uncle Joseph Albert Rugenuis died, Ruggins his incognito surname, somehow I went from inheriting European style, everything my childless Uncle had so as to progress my Life and Art, to getting nothing, with even the last 15% of the plundered Estate taken to pay a debt my ex-wife had generated without my permission and over my objection.*
All of the trauma and loss and betrayal make a person so vulnerable to the additional abuse I have been forced to endure for decades and the Abuse, Lies, Abandonment and Attacks continue unabated and false and disproven accusations are hoarded by Police and By-Law and any who can access the defamation of myself and the FALSE INFORMATION IS USED TO BRING OVERWHELMING FORCE TO ANY PROPERTY I OWN AND MAY BE OCCUPYING OR WORKING ON AT ANY TIME WITHOUT MY DOING ANYTHING. I HAVE HAD MY DOORS KICKED IN, BEEN TRICKED TO OPEN A DOOR AND POLICE RUSH IN, NO WARRANT. FALSE COMPLAINTS, BUT ABLE AND WILLING OFFICERS WILL DRAG ME OFF. OTHER TIMES THEY SEARCH LIKE FERRETS FOR SOME VIOLATION .
When someone creates a false emergency and I am outnumbered again at my only refuge, my home, by angry dangerous Police and/or By- Law Officers or Trespassers, I collapse and as the research on this subject indicates these events cause serious long term MENTAL and PHYSICAL DAMAGE. I had a really bad reaction to e-mail condemnation, exclusion and threat of Police Intervention against me for minimally standing up for my right to accurate calculation in a business transaction. Whatever happened which would cause a disagreement cannot be dealt with by rejecting, ignoring, expelling me without my uttering a threat or lifting a finger to argue my case.
July 5 Today: I have been thinking about why I am so damaged and why Tonic Immobility is triggered on many occasions where I am confronted. On behalf of complainants when crown employees invade my property or in a disagreement with women, there is always the possibility that Police will be called and I will be disregarded and extremely unlikely, improbable or impossible accusations will be acted upon by Police. Even Trespassers are unlawfully considered credible and I the property owner disregarded despite physical evidence VISIBLE AT THE PLACE OF CONFRONTATION. The Law Officer must look and observe and act on evidence, not dis-believe and hold eyes fast shut, irrationally pursuing a false complaint.
There are persons who have acted to damage me severely as they cannot possibly believe that a Woman or Police Officer could do wrong or lie or imagine bad things about innocent people and I am punished or economically disadvantaged by persons who do not believe proofs which I offer.
There is a politically incorrect subject which is part of my Tonic Immobility:
I was beaten and jumped on and dragged back and forth by my hair by a huge angry woman. That would be my Mother, but I sought out girlfriends, had mostly woman employees and only tolerate being touched by women medical professionals and do not mind being touched by any woman ever. I cannot tolerate men or women who are lying, contriving or falsifying a complaint which will place me in the hands of the Brutal Unreasoning Police, who can jail me without my doing anything and contrary to fact and evidence. This is a horrifying reprise of childhood with a crazy overwhelmingly powerful woman in charge. Anyone who disregards property ownership or residence and truthful evidence and attacks is a malignant psychopath, like my beater mother.
Why when there are four or five male officers on a raid, WHY do they have a woman confront me, do they practice this opposite sex gambit on women. WHY with numerous male trespassers in the back line making fists, even pounding them into hands, did female trespassers confront me. Is this because women are not held responsible for criminal acts and because women cannot be physically ejected from private property where they are trespassing or even loudly and affirmatively be ordered to leave? Have they heard I will collapse?
DO THEY KNOW ABOUT MY MOTHER'S BEATING ME, ARE THE WOMEN AND THE MALE THUGS ACTING ON MY EX-WIFE'S LIES? THE TRESPASSERS AND AUTHORITIES ARE TRYING TO CAUSE A VIOLENT CONFRONTATION WHICH THEY CAN USE TO ATTACK OR JAIL ME. I COLLAPSE INTO INVOLUNTARY ( "Impossible to consciously control" researchers publish) EXTENDED PERIODS OF FUGE AND VIRTUAL PARALYSIS CAUSED BY MY DISABILITY, TONIC IMMOBILITY. GOOGLE TONIC IMMOBILITY IN HUMANS.
