Thursday, June 25, 2020

MY BUTTONS HAVE BEEN PUSHED SO MANY TIMES THEY ARE STUCK

I THINK THAT I HAVE BEEN ATTACKED, RAIDED GANGED UP ON AND DISREGARDED SO MANY TIMES THAT I AM IN A PERMANENT ADRENALIZED STATE OF HYPER- VIGILANCE.

 Down at the bottom of the page is an account of what bad behavior by Police can do to anyone. 

I know this is a discrediting statement. Why can I not get over it? Because I cannot get over what has been the negative stimulus applied to me and my life since I was four years old. Just the decade of childhod beatings could set a person up to be unable to deal with a 24/7 impending threat of a raid, forever.


There is a physical component. Swayback, Tonic Immobility and Virtual Paralysis are physical manifestations of the Shell Shocked Reality I live in.


If I could slow down to dead slow, eyes closed, I could slowly start to move about. I was doing that last night and this morning. Now it is evening and I have not succeded yet in just feeling nice and not listening carefully, always watching.


I am delicate, injured, and disabled but I am tall and I look healthy. That does not mean I am not screwed up by this. The continual tension, aprehension and anguish are not balanced by the release brought by sexual activity. The lack of any sexual contact does add to the unsettled nature of my experience and my mental state. Sexual activity leaves a person refreshed, purged of dissatisfaction, pleasured and relaxed. I do not have that.

 

I got married and to get me to leave her behind with my house my wife moved in and said she would not Cook Clean or Fuck. Great, I did everything for the Family that a Father could. I was all in here at Otter Point and nothing was left to do anything to get sex and if I did, what a horrible unfaithful man. No, what a horrible sadistic wife.  I was extorted to bankruptcy twice and finally divorced.   


I did have a girlfriend briefly then she became my old girlfriend with whom I had sex occasonally until six or seven years ago when she felt guilty about it. That was a shame because she was very skillful. I did not have any more sex of any kind with her but I did keep buying her repairs and a car and tires for it.  That was the end of my only opportunity to have sex after I was driven off my downtown Victoria suite. It does not feel good to never have any sex.

 

I HAVE STATED BEFORE THAT SEX AND AFFECTION WERE A LARGE PART OF WHAT IT TOOK TO RECOVER FROM TONIC IMMOBILITY. PRODUCING ART AND MUSIC ARE ALSO COMPONENTS OF A RECOVERY FROM ACUTE COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY.


I believe that I went all the way from Swayback and Virtual Paralysis to being able to perform on Harmonica and dance live on stage with exceptional force and demonstrating masculine dance moves through Music Practice and years ago Dance Practice.


I THINK I KNOW HOW TO FREE THOSE OVER PUSHED BUTTONS BUT I EXPERIENCE ONLY MORE PRESSURE.







TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 24, 2009

TORTURE IN CANADA

October 3 1996 at 3:30 pm RCMP Sergeant Zeike and RCMP Constable Hudson entered my private property and came into my home without a warrant or any form of lawful jurisdiction and manipulated the time and my transport which was the result of bogus charges so that I was kept in jail for an extended peroid of time and then tortured by being chained at the feet and wrists and around my waist and left in an unheated
unventalated truck van until I convulsed repeatedly and I have been very badly crippled since then.

The RCMP on isolated rural Vancouver Island exercise a brutal combative and reactive form of Police abuse taking advantage of the isolation the distance from urban centres the difficulties posed citizens who are abused by these Officers in that these persons such as myself are often alone and if we are hauled away from our rural properties it is very difficult to get back without having an automobile with us.

There is an attitude that every concivable or imagined offence has to be pursued and that if no evidence of any wrong doing is turned up try to find something else to charge against a citizen who has done nothing to harm anyone. Furthermore they make it plain as they hector and intimidate and rave at property owners and citizens that they don't think the penalties are stiff enough for any offence no matter how many or even if it's some form of statement offence where they simply take the word of a complaintant.

Continual incursions onto private property without lawful purpose by tresspassers Police and Regional District Enforcement Officers create a stuation where persons such as myself will simply tell them to go and get lost and stop with their nonsence. This unfortunetly as these Officers do not recongnize the authority of ownership creates a situation where they actually write in their files that they plan to try to charge an individual who has broken no laws but has offended him.

Hal Zeike and I invite you to access the articles he wrote in the Sooke BC News Mirror . He came to my door and  said that the letters that I wrote lawfully complaining had annoyed alot of people. I ended up chained up and tortured and crippled and the specific complaint which was used as an excuse to lock me up and torture me could not be supported by any evidence not even the complaintant was willing to swear under oath that the allegations he had made were true. I was chained up and tortured right here in Canada and I am still badly crippled. Is it really much more important what happened to one Afghan citizen at the hands of other Afghan citizens than what has been done to Canadian Citizen Lindon Collard right here in Canada? I know absolutly what is more important. 
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Thursday, June 18, 2020

HOW COULD PEOPLE STEAL FROM DAMAGE AND ATTACK A SO OBVIOUSLY CRIPPLED PERSON

I WAS STILL FUNCTIONING BUT I WOULD HAVE TO STOP MY CAR OR GET OFF MY BICYCLE AND QUICKLY ROLL AND PULL MY LEGS UP TO MY CHEST AND ROLL ON MY BACK, BREAKING THE SPASM OF THE REVERSE ARCH WHICH I NOW COULD NOT BREAK FOR YEARS.








The period of relative recovery, not complete recovery, lasted from 1974 through all of 1986. On December 20 1986 my car was struck by a left turning vehicle and I do not remember anything specific until 1990, in 1991 had a relapse but regained much memory or something like that in 1992. I could remember oft repeated events but in a not very detailed or related manner. I remember a lot of over and over again but I think that is what I did, 1974 to 1992, more of the same menial work over and over, always having to save but when Trixie took over in 1980 and for sure by 1984 I was always penniless.


I WAS CONSTANTLY HAVING TO STOP AND ROLL MY BACK OUT AND AFTER I COULD NOT, PARALYZED!


I find it hard to swallow that my wife, family members and others who could witness my severe disability would steal my inheritances, force me to work for no money and HAMPER ME INSTEAD OF HELPING. What a cruel pack of SOCIOPATHS!


I am still in the virtually paralyzed or Tonic Immobility. Continually applying traction, sometimes from heel to head. I felt a release which seemed to go through a leg twist into place and up the back to free up the neck. This seemed to release some of the reverse arch spasm and allow low back movement. I am working on my low back and I have a feeling I will  be able to roll it out. I hope so.


 

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Thursday, June 4, 2020

LAY THERE WITHOUT MOVING SYNDROME

EACH MINUTE I LAY NEARLY FLAT AND MOTIONLESS I FEEL BETTER AND BETTER. I WILL EVENTUALLY RISE TO DO SOMETHING AND AFTER A TIME STANDING OR EVEN SITTING I WILL COLLAPSE MORE EACH MINUTE.



VIRTUAL PARALYSIS IS WHAT I CALLED THIS PHENOMENA 30 YEARS AGO BUT I EXPERIENCED THAT MALADY IN 1968 AND 1969 FOR UP TO 8 MONTHS. FROM 1970 TO 1974 I HAD TONIC IMOBILITY OR SHELL SHOCK, CONSTANTLY VIRTUALLY PARALYZED. 


FROM 1974 TO 1978 I HAD PERIODS OF MOBILITY BUT PERIODS OF IMMOBILITY RECLINING AT 135*WERE CONSTANTLY REQUIRED  TO BE ABLE TO WORK IN THE PERIODS OF MOBILITY. 


ALTHOUGH I WOULD BE ABLE TO FUNCTION OCCASIONALLY AT PHYSICAL ACTIVITY I DID MOST  WORK AT ADVANCED METHOD JEWELLERY MANUFACTURING FROM A ROLLER CHAIR OR STANDING LEANING ON SOMETHING. 


FIFTY TWO YEAR .  S AFTER I FIRST EXPERIENCED HAVING TO ENDLESSLY LAY THERE WITHOUT MOVING TO HAVE SOME, OFTEN SHORT, PERIOD OF MOBILITY I AM HAVING TO DO THAT NOW IN 2020. 





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Monday, June 1, 2020

VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND TONIC IMMOBILITY

I am presently dealing with the virtually paralyzing side effects of pulling out locked joints which get locked up as a result of injury caused by impact or by Tonic Immobility Collapses which are the result of my being terrorized while I am disabled.

PHILOMENIA FLOYD COLLAPSED AT THE SITE OF HIS BROTHER GEORGE'S MURDER AND IT REQUIRED TWO PEOPLE IT IS SAID TO HOLD HIM UP JUST LIKE THE SWAYBACKED SHELL SHOCK VICTIMS REQUIRE TO BE HELD UP IN VIDEOS OF SEVERE INSTITUTIONALIZED CASES OF COLLAPSE OR TONIC IMMOBILITY .

IN MY CASE, THE PANIC BUTTON HAS BEEN PUSHED  MANY TIMES IN MANY PLACES BY MANY PERSONS.


It is just plain not good for me to have been overwhelmed by large groups of people, By-Law, Police, Sheriffs and other persons intent on doing damage to me or my property. It has happened so many times that I cannot go to a Court Building without collapsing. At the Rockcliffe collapses occurred long ago and relatively recently as well; I can't get near my suite there nor even pass by the building without risking an episode of Tonic Immobility.

Here at Otter Point I had to keep an alert watch as Police By-Law and Sheriffs tried for decades to fabricate or fake or deludedly imagined some discrediting violation of law or regulation so they could seize myself, my property or fine me.

I do believe that now the enforcement squads have been curtailed by the Covid 19 Pandemic but my body is still tensely anticipating some incursion, or raid or trespass or all of the violations at once until I fall unconcious in naps or nightly sleeping but the declaration "We are a 24/7 Operation and we are coming any time we have to" does tell your mind anf your body unoverrideably "Watch Out", and you better not unknowingly exit your home with what looked like a weapon and be shot and killed or say something in a suprised utterance which would be interpreted as a statement which you could be incarcerated over.


MOST OF THESE PEOPLE LIVE OFF MY PROPERTY TAX PAYMENTS ($35 0R 40K/yr) ISN'T THAT  REALLY CREEPY

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