I HAD ALWAYS HOPED THAT I WOULD RECOVER AGAIN BUT

THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.

JUST LIKE

 I WROTE IN JANUARY 2019:

THE CONSEQUENCES AND EFFECTS OF DISABILITY PERSIST.

THE HIGH COST OF PERSISTENT DISABILITY:

I have had a stretch of severely disruptive periods of virtual paralysis. Yesterday for instance I woke up and went pretty well right to the grow room and started to transplant five, yes, just five plants into large containers to grow. I broke down one might say, I became unable to sit  to keep working and certainly not to stand. I got to the living room and I reclined and went to bed and got up did some laundry work and back to bed or recliner all day like a fog of up and down. 

I went to bed, work clothes still at the ready, usually a nap lasts an hour or less, but the time I slept til was 1:26 am. I got up. I saw the news on CBC and went to finish TP and re-siting in room.

At 3:20 am or so I was done and I showered and went back to bed. I got up again before 4:00 am.

I missed all of my property tax deadlines last week, similar to yesterday. I was up and down in bed, on the recliner on the up couch in traction and I was trying to make meals and do the dishes and to do the laundry which now could be done and line dried. I did not even realize that it mattered that I wrote July 2 or 5 in my diary, I did not put it together with the DEADLINE. 

WHY WOULD I DO THIS: MY TAX BILL DID NOT COME IN THE MAIL!

Bills arrive and I read the amount I owe, I did not do that, the bill did not arrive. I put the bills with my drivers license and keys to remind me to deal with them the next time I go out. When I am in a disrupted state of fuge in particular, the only thing that works and saves me being late with payment is that method.

I BELIEVE THE TAX AUTHORITY WANTS TO FINE ME OVER ONE THOUSAND TWO HUNDRED DOLLARS FOR BEING FIVE DAYS LATE PAYING PROPERTY TAXES!!!

https://policepowersociopaths.blogspot.com/  This is a link to a blog for some reason? unaccessible?

September 15 2019-POSTSCRIPT:I am floating in a state of fuge. I have to spend so much time reclining that all track of life is gone. A seamless sameness from day to day.Wake up and do some chores while and if I can. Go back to bed, wake up and have oatmeal or eggs and toast. Try to clean counters, (not floors or walls) or do laundry or dishes.  Traction on recliner, trying to get aligned with the reverse arch out of my back so I could drive my Norton for instance. I have it licensed for another 10 days or so. I really should start moving all small objects out of the Living Room and I have to get the floor put in.

For years, I have Salmon and Rice or Potatoes with peas or sometimes brocolli and I have Vegi Burgers with bread or tortilla and Spinach and Mayonaise.  Every 10 days or 2 weeks I go shopping at a few Grocery Stores. I support myself on the Grocery Carts but still I wreck myself so badly that I can barely get through Hand Carting in the Groceries and Bird Seed and Cat Food.

I WILL REQUIRE TWO OR THREE DAYS TO RECOVER FROM SHOPPING. FORTY MINUTE DRIVE, SHOP FOR AN HOUR OR TWO, FORTY MINUTE DRIVE AND A FORTY MINUTE UNLOADING AND THEN RIGHT TO BED ALMOST DROPPING DEAD FROM THE EFFORT.

My back and neck have been locked and collapsed and have collapsed repeatedly sinceNovember 2015 or thereabouts. Every Collapse and every Threatening  With Police causes pulled out joints to collapse and lock again, causes new collapsed locked joints, the Threatening and my Isolation combine to create a feeling of being alone and having thousands of dangerous Police adversaries FOR NO REAL REASON, THE WHOLE OF THE HOSTILITY AND PROVOCATION AND DEFAMATION CAUSED BY FABRICATION.

I RECALL BEING SUMMONED TO JURY DUTY. I REPLIED THAT I WOULD HAVE TO RECLINE ON A RECLINER AT 135*. I REALIZE NOW HOW WHENEVER I TRUTHFULLY DECLARE MY SYMPTOMS AND MY NEEDS, NO ONE BELIEVES ME. THERE IS NO ONE ANYWHERE WORKING AT ANYTHING WHO HAS MY SYMPTOMS AND NEEDS.

PHYSICIANS KNOW THAT MUSIC AND DANCE CAN BE IMPORTANT TO RECOVERY FROM BRAIN INJURY OR A NEUROLOGICAL PROBLEM.

MY INSTINCTIVE REHABILITATION FROM VIRTUAL PARALYSIS TO BEING ABLE TO PERFORM AND DANCE LIVE ON STAGE WAS DEMONIZED BY MY UNCARING SELFISH SOCIOPATHIC FAMILY WHO RECRUITED POLICE AND BY-LAW AND EVEN THE NEIGHBOR WOMEN. NONE OF THESE PEOPLE WHO WERE RECRUITED HAD EVER MET ME, NONE OF THEM HAD EVER HEARD ME PLAY HARMONICA NOR HAD THEY SEEN ME DANCE.

THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.

REGARDLESS THEY ENTHUSIASTICALLY  AND WHOLEHEARTEDLY COMMITTED THEMSELVES TO ENDING MY MUSIC CAREER, FORCING THE LOSS OF MY PROPERTY AND THEY TRIED TO JAIL ME.

THE MUSIC AND DANCE WERE IMPORTANT FOR RECOVERY FROM INJURY. A FEELING OF SECURITY, COMPANIONSHIP AND FREEDOM FROM FEAR AND APPREHENSION ARE ALSO IMPORTANT IN RECOVERY. THESE ATTRIBUTES WERE RUTHLESSLY DESTROYED BY THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG, POLICE, BY-LAW, SHERIFFS, LAWYERS AND THE UNDERCLASS NEIGHBORS.

Neurologic music therapy (NMT)

In some cases, neurologic music therapy (NMT) may be helpful as a rehabilitation and recovery tool. Neurologic music therapy is a specific training focused on the use of music and musical elements to motivate and target change (neuroplasticity). It is often used in connection with specific goals related to physical movement, communication, cognition, and emotional control and stability.

Music therapy & physical independence

When an individual wants to improve their uneven gait (how they walk)(or what about a complete inability to walk more than a few feet?), live music can be used to motivate them to take more coordinated/even steps. Rhythmic music and different chord progressions engage with the motor cortex of the brain.

“Following brain injury, our brain constantly recalculates how much energy it will take to carry out each function. When energy demands are too great on the brain, it causes our movements to become abnormal: tremors, stiffness of muscles, effect on balance or pace."

Default Mode Network  is active in reasonably automatic bodily actions, self-consciousness and self-related thoughts, emotions and memories. The main brain areas are the posterior cingulate cortex, the ventromedial prefrontal cortex, lateral inferior parietal lobes and medial temporal structure. Activity in the Default Mode Network has been associated with creativity and pain reduction , music listening , musical improvisation , narrative thinking and autobiographical memories, as well as the experiential self , and making decisions considering self, such as future goals and events . 

When multimodal training is combined with previously learned music and dance material and skills, memory- and motivation-related brain regions may be re-activated. The Hippocampus is crucial in storing and retrieving the non-overlapping representations of the distributed cortical activities when different events are encoded. An important fact is that the Default Mode Network  physically includes the hippocampus and adjacent areas. More specifically, many of the key neocortical regions constituting the Default Mode Network are functionally connected with the hippocampal formation and show spontaneous activity correlation with it .

POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER AND STIFF PERSON SYNDROME MIGHT BE TRIGGERED BY THE SAME STIMULI BUT THERE ARE IMPORTANT DIFFERENCES IN THE EFFECT THEY HAVE ON THE VICTIM.

PERSONS EXPERIENCING A POST TRAUMATIC EPISODE CAN REACT DURING THAT EPISODE ENERGETICALLY BUT THE STIFF PERSON WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DO THAT WHETHER THEY ARE VIRTUALLY PARALYZED BY STIFFNESS OR THEY HAVE FALLEN OVER OR THEY ARE COLLAPSED. 

THERE ARE REPORTS OF PERSONS WITH ALLEGED PTSD WHO ALSO EXPERIENCE VIRTUAL PARALYSIS OR COLLAPSE.

ARE THESE PERSONS ACTUALLY HAVING A "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME" EPISODE OR DO THEY HAVE THIS AND PTSD ALSO?

WHAT ABOUT 

SHELL SHOCK

I THINK THAT I HAVE A NUMBER OF PHYSICAL NEUROLOGICAL LOCKUP, COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION SYMPTOMS.

THERE IS NO NEED TO PUT ONE NAME TO THE INJURY RELATED DISORDER I HAVE SUFFERED FROM TO VARYING DEGREES FOR MOST OF MY LIFETIME. 

THE LATEST CLUE I HAVE IS KNOWLEDGE OF THE "STIFF PERSON DISORDER".

I WILL RESEARCH THIS CONDITION.

What triggers stiff person syndrome?

The main symptoms of Stiff Person Syndrome are muscle stiffening in the torso and limbs, along with episodes of violent muscle spasms. These can be triggered by environmental stimuli (like loud noises) or emotional stress. The muscle spasms can be so severe that they cause the person to fall down.

 The legs are the most commonly impacted area for these spasms and often lead to falls. The abdominal area can also experience spasms, causing a person to feel fuller faster and lead to unintended weight loss.Dec 8, 2022

It is possible people who have less severe manifestations of stiff person syndrome have been overlooked or possibly misdiagnosed with muscle tension. As more doctors learn to screen people, especially people sent to orthopedic clinics, more people will get the help they need for the long term.

How do I know if I have stiff person syndrome?

Stiff person syndrome can be suggested by findings on electromyography testing (EMG). EMGs assess muscles and the nerves that control them. There are also blood and spinal fluid tests to find GAD antibodies typically found in the disease.

Symptoms of Stiff Person Syndrome

• Extreme muscle stiffness and rigidity
  • Most often in the head, neck, back, chest, and limbs
  • Less often, but severe, in the leg
• Extreme spasms

  • Triggered by stress, loud noises, and other environmental stimuli  ( EDITOR'S NOTE : THE COLLAPSES AND CONVULSIONS I EXPERIENCE ARE TRIGGERED IN THE AFTERMATH OF SERIOUS INJURY,BY MY BEING THREATENED, ASSAULTED, SURROUNDED, UNJUSTLY DISBELIEVED, OR SUBJECTED TO POLICE RAIDS.)

  • So severe the person can fall down in response
• Difficulty walking
• Anxiety and/or depression

Can stiff person syndrome be cured?

Not yet. Currently, the effects of immunotherapy on neurological syndromes associated with GAD antibodies are incomplete.

I THINK I HAVE MANY OF THESE SYMPTOMS.I HAVE POSTED ABOUT THESE SYMPTOMS AS ACCIDENT INJURY, TONIC IMMOBILITY, TONIC COLLAPSE AND EVEN SHELL SHOCK. I MIGHT HAVE MORE THAN ONE OF THESE MALADIES CAUSING MY VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND SPASM ON THIS "DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED" blog @blogspot.