MENDACITY IS THE ROOT OF A LOT OF EVIL.

I CONTINUALLY EXPERIENCE ANGUISH OVER NOT HAVING BEEN PROPERLY DIAGNOSED AS TO MY INJURIES AND THE RESULTING DISABILITY I EXPERIENCE.

I THINK THAT IS A RESULT OF THE CONCERTED EFFORTS OF INSURANCE COMPANIES AND ADJUSTERS, THEIR LAWYERS AND THE JUDGES 

WHO COOPERATE WITH THEM TO MINIMIZE OR BETTER STILL TO DIS ACKNOWLEDGE THAT AN INJURY OCCURRED WITH THE AIM OF AVOIDING RESPONSIBILITY. 

UNFORTUNATELY FOR THE INJURED AND DISABLED PERSON THERE IS NO MORE PAYCHECK AND LIFE IS MADE ANGUISHING AND DIFFICULT BY THE NEEDLESS DEFAMATION HEAPED UPON AN INJURED AND DISABLED PERSON.

SKEPTICISM AND UNCERTAINTY ARE NOT EVIDENTIARY.

My Declarations about how disabled and non functional I am are dismissed without there being any evidence that I am wrong.

RAGDOLLED

WHAT IS "RAGDOLLED"? THAT IS A SITUATION WHERE ONE'S BODY HAS NO SUPPORT, NOR WILL IT STAY ERECT WHEN ONE IS SITTING OR STANDING WITHOUT ONE'S HOLDING ONE'S BODY UP BY WEDGING UNDER OR UP AGAINST THINGS, OR BY CLINGING TO WALLS OR FURNITURE AS AN EXOSKELETAL SUPPORT MECHANISM. 

AFTER I WAS ACCIDENT INJURED I HAD TO LAY IN A RECLINING, SUPPORTED POSITION ON AN ARMCHAIR WITH MY FEET AND LEGS SUPPORTED ON A TABLE OR I HAD TO LAY FLAT ON MY BACK OR CURLED UP WITH SOMETHING BETWEEN MY LEGS TO ALLEVIATE THE WORST SYMPTOMS OF MY CONDITION.

THIS WENT ON UNINTERRUPTEDLY IN 1968, FROM 1970 TO 1974 AND FROM 1974 TO 1979 INTERMITTENTLY AND I HAVE NO MEMORY OF 1986 TO 1990 AND IN 1991. 

I HAD PERIODS OF RECOVERY IN 1990 AND IN 1992. FROM 1993 TO 1996 I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED ONCE AGAIN BUT I HAD SHORT PERIODS WHERE I COULD ACCOMPLISH TASKS, NOT THE UP TO FOUR HOURS I HAD GRATEFULLY EXPERIENCED DURING THE 1980'S, WHICH SPECIFIC YEARS, I DO NOT KNOW.

DISABLED AND DISCREDITED: BEING DEFAMED AS DELUSIONAL, ADDS TO THE ANGUISH OF BEING UNABLE TO FUNCTION. MORE STIFFNESS AND SPASM AND VIRTUAL PARALYSIS RESULT FROM UNJUST TREATMENT AND FROM BEING THREATENED.

IT IS EASY FROM THE OUTSIDE OF A SYMPTOM TO DENY ITS EXISTENCE BUT FROM THE INSIDE, ONE IS VIVIDLY AWARE OF THE EXISTENCE OF ANY SYMPTOM. THIS IS A POST @blogspot.com ABOUT SYMPTOMS WHICH ARE IGNORED AND UNIVERSALLY DENIED IN MY CASE.

SHELL SHOCK LIFE

My devastating Shell Shock is the result of childhood through 76 years old of having sociopaths harass and intimidate me trying to effect their terminal supervision conquest.

Sunday, April 23, 2023

SHELL SHOCK MAY BE AN IMPORTANT CONTRIBUTOR TO MY TONIC IMMOBILITY, COLLAPSE AND THE VIRTUAL TO TOTAL PARALYSIS WHICH I AM EXPERIENCING NOW. I CANNOT EVEN DO MY, PREVIOUSLY ALWAYS DONE DAILY, MUSIC PRACTICE.

I FIND MYSELF, REPEATEDLY, IN A SEMI-FETAL POSITION. I AM HALF CURLED AND MY LEFT LEG IS BENT MORE THAN THE RIGHT LEG. I DO NOT MOVE A MUSCLE.

Postscript: I often do not get relief without applying traction to my back and/or neck, or legs and in addition, often, I have to interlock my fingers and apply traction by curling my hand to pull on my  fingers and my arm or I pull out my fingers by grasping and twisting my fingers and applying traction to finger joints.

THIS IS THE "THROWN DOWN" PART OF ONE OF THOSE MOTHER'S ATTACKS WHERE MY NECK WAS TWISTED TO THE RIGHT AND THEN YANKED BACK TO THE LEFT AND I WAS THROWN TO THE FLOOR.

WHEN I WAS SNUCK UP ON AND THROWN DOWN, AND SOMETIMES JUMPED ON AS WELL, A PAVLOVIAN COLLAPSE RESPONSE WAS CREATED. 

I CAN COLLAPSE IF I AM THREATENED OR IF I THINK SOMEONE IS GOING TO SNEAK UP ON ME OR IF AN UNJUST PUNISHMENT IS ATTEMPTED. THE IMPOSITION OF A PLAN TO HAVE NUMEROUS AUTHORITIES STALK, CHARGE AND JAIL ME CREATES A WEAKNESS IN MY ENTIRE BODY.

WHEN I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY HOSTILE PERSONS I HAVE COLLAPSED, USUALLY DOWN MY LEFT SIDE, WHICH COMPRESSED AND INJURED MY KNEE.

AFTER EVERY INJURY, COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND TONIC IMMOBILITY SET IN, ALONG WITH, AT THE WORST, THE REVERSE ARCHED BACK WHICH IS A SYMPTOM OF  

SHELL SHOCK.

JUST BECAUSE YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW SOMETHING HAPPENS DOES NOT MEAN THAT IT DID NOT HAPPEN. I AM VERY VULNERABLE.

THE COMPOUNDING OF FINANCIAL OR PROSPECT DAMAGE WITH PHYSICAL DAMAGE FROM IMPACT INJURY OR COLLAPSE OVERWHELMS ME WITH VIRTUAL PARALYSIS OR IS IT SHELL SHOCK?

 

Tuesday, April 19, 2022

MY BROTHER HELPED FAMILY MEMBERS TO HIDE AND STEAL MY INHERITANCES. 

HE DID  THIS TO START WITH AT THE BEHEST OF HIS WIFE, MY BROTHER ANDREW ADMITTED. HIS WIFE OBJECTED TO MY INHERITING MONEY LIKE HER OLDER BROTHER HAD. SHE DID NOT WANT THIS HAPPENING IN "HER NEW FAMILY". I LINDON COLLARD WAS NOT HER NEW FAMILY. SO THEY STOLE THE FAMILY FROM ME. 

 

MY BROTHER ROBBED ME, LIED TO ME, DEFRAUDED ME AND HID MY MAIL AND MY INHERITANCES FROM ME AND THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH DAMAGE. HE CAME TO MY HOUSE IN 2000 WHERE HE SUCKER STRUCK ME WITH A TEN FINGER TAI CHI BLOW THAT HAS LEFT ME CRIPPLED TO THIS DAY. 

DESPITE BEING DISABLED AND EASILY INJURED IN THAT STATE, I WENT TO WORK AT THE ROCKCLIFFE WHICH I HAD JUST PURCHASED, FOR A FEW HOURS.

AT THE ROCKCLIFFE AFTER MY FIRST DAY'S WORK, I WENT TO BED AT 4;30 PM.

VICTORIA CITY POLICE OR THE ALF TOONE CORPORATION DEMANDED THAT ONE OF MY WORKERS FETCH ME, WHICH HE DID, UNFORTUNATELY. I HAD SAID THAT I WAS GOING TO SLEEP AND THAT I MUST NOT BE DISTURBED.

THERE WERE TWO MORONIC FEMALE SUPREMACISTS IN MY PARKING LOT WITH TWO CITY OF VICTORIA POLICE OFFICERS AND TWO BARFIGHTERS SMACKING THEIR FISTS INTO THEIR HANDS AND SCOWLING LIKE DEMONS.

This was in early 2001, I managed a nap or two but I was uncomfortable at my own property The Rockcliffe. Not much later, the Alf Toone Corporation and Atco Fencing had 12 people in my parking lot when I arrived. I had a Tonic Immobility collapse. I was never able to sleep again at my #300 1317 Hillside home at the Rockcliffe and eventually I was not able to go there at all. In 2015 there was malfunctioning equipment, my manager was out of town. I had to go to the Rockliffe. I collapsed and have not ever recovered because I was raided and threatened several more times, each instance triggered either Tonic Immobility Collapse or Convulsion worsening my inability to recover.

NOVEMBER 5 2020 AS I DROVE PAST THE ROCKLIFFE TO GO TO A MEDICAL APPOINTMENT I HAD A COLLAPSE OR SEIZURE JUST FROM DRIVING PAST MY HOME WHICH I SHOULD HAVE USED AS I HAD PLANNED TO FACILITATE APPOINTMENTS AND MEETINGS. THE ROCKCLIFFE IS MY BUSINESS WHICH I AM DRIVEN OFF OF BUT HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYTHING NOT ATTENDED TO SPEEDILY, BUT I AM NOT ABLE TO, I AM NOT THERE, I DO NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON THERE

THIS BEHAVIOR BY ALL PERSONS INVOLVED TERRORIZES ME AND TRIGGERS ATTACKS OF SHELL SHOCK.

This is the result of childhood through 76 years old of having sociopaths harass and intimidate me trying to effect their terminal supervision conquest.

SHELL SHOCK LIFE

VIRTUAL PARALYSIS. THE INVISIBLE DISABILITY

LATELY I HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING MANY DAYS WHERE I HAVE TO CONSTANTLY LAY DOWN. THE LAYING DOWN CAN VARY FROM HAVING TO LAY BACK ON A CHAIR FOR A FEW MINUTES TO HAVING TO LAY FLAT IN BED WITHOUT MOVING FOR MANY HOURS AT A TIME AND HAVING THAT REPEAT AFTER A FEW MINUTES OF STANDING OR WALKING.

AS I TYPE, I AM WEDGED IN TO MY CHAIR ARMS AND UNDER THE EXACTLY RIGHT HEIGHT DESK DRAWER OR I WOULD GRADUALLY BE UNABLE TO SIT AND TYPE.

I REALLY WANT TO DO THINGS, THAT IS WHY WHEN I HAD MY PRODUCTION EXPEDITER I COULD WRITE, DICTATING LAYING DOWN, IMITATE VOICES AND DIRECT ANIMATION WORK. I WILL OFTEN DO AS MUCH AS I CAN ON THE NEARLY COMPLETED OTTER POINT HOUSE. 

THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS WEDGE IN AND WRITE UNTIL I HAVE TO LAY FLAT IN BED AGAIN.

NOBODY KNOWS HOW BADLY DISABLED I AM. STATEMENTS ARE MADE TO ME WHICH ABSOLUTELY DENY THE NATURE AND EXTENT OF MY DISABILITY. I HAVE BEEN UNABLE, WITHOUT SUFFERING SEVERE SPASMS TO DO THINGS LIKE DRIVE TO SOOKE AND BACK TWICE, FORTY FOUR KILOMETERS IN TOTAL

I have told everyone I could, in person, on the phone, in writing, on paper and on line all of the details of my disability. Still no one has uttered any form of statement which shows they understand how badly my disability affects me.

I HAVE BEEN SEVERELY CHASTISED THAT MANY PERSONS HAVE HEARD ME AND DO NOT WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE.

I FIND IT EXTREMELY OFFENSIVE WHEN MY FACTUAL DECLARATIONS ARE CALLED "BULLSHIT".

THIS IS INAPPROPRIATE AND DAMAGING.

I CANNOT GO ANYWHERE AND STILL REMAIN MOBILE, I CAN HARDLY WALK ONE HUNDRED FEET ON MY GROUNDS AROUND MY HOUSE. I WILL HAVE TO SIT OR LAY DOWN AFTER DOING THAT.

DOCTORS DO NOT CONSIDER HOW MY DISABILITY DEVELOPED AND WHAT THE CAUSE IS AND MY DISABILITY IS NOT DIAGNOSED AND I AM OFFERED MEDICATION WHICH WOULD BE GIVEN TO PEOPLE IMAGINING SYMPTOMS.

From my log of condition which I have not made many entries into lately.

DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED: AN ABSURD OUTCOME FOR VICTIMS

A page on how I feel July 24 2023:

I have to lay down every few minutes. If I cling to the furniture I am surprisingly OK continuing to sit.

AS I SIT NOW, I PRESS DOWN WITH MY ELBOWS ON THE CHAIR ARMS AND PRESS UP ON THE BOTTOM OF THE UNDER TABLE SHELF. I FEEL RELIEF, I CAN BREATHE BETTER AND I AM NOT COLLAPSING OR FADING OUT.

EARLIER AS I SAT AT THE LOW TABLE, I NOTICED THIS CLINGING TO THE FURNITURE. I PUSHED DOWN ON THE FLOOR WITH MY LEGS. I HELD ON AND PULLED ON THE PILLOW ON MY CHAIR WITH MY LEFT HAND AND ARM . I JAMMED MY RIGHT BICEP AGAINST THE BED'S FRAME (AT A 3 OR 4 FOOT HEIGHT) AND I ROTATED IT ON THE OUTSIDE FORWARDS. THEN I WAS OK TO SIT.

IN THE PAST I REMEMBER CLINGING TO MY RECLINER AND JAMMING MY LEGS UNDER TABLES. 

I HAVE HAD THIS SITUATION WHERE INTERNAL TENSION HAS TO BE CREATED TO FEEL NORMAL MANY TIMES AND I TOLD DOCTORS AND THERAPISTS ABOUT IT,  BUT THEY HAD NO RESPONSE.

I WONDER IF THE MEDICAL PRACTITIONERS THINK I AM LYING OR FAKING OR IMAGINING THIS UNUSUAL SYMPTOM REMEDY.

I COULD UNDERSTAND WHY LAYING FLAT AND NOT MOVING WORKS. I HAVE USED TRACTION MANY TIMES AND I HAVE INVOLUNTARILY SPASMED AND HELD ON TO FURNITURE OR WALLS, DOORWAYS AND COUNTERS TO NOT SWOON OR COLLAPSE.

STIFF PERSON SYNDROME MIGHT ACT IN CONJUNCTION WITH OR SIMPLY ALONGSIDE OTHER FORMS OF VIRTUALLY PARALYZING DISABILITY.

WHEN I WAS READY TO DETERMINE THAT I HAVE HAD "STIFF MAN" SYNDROME FOR A LONG TIME, THE OTHER FORMS OF COLLAPSE I SUFFER CAME TO MIND.

I SUFFER FROM A COLLAPSE SITUATION TYPE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS. 

I RECALL WALKING DOWN THE HALLWAY A FEW DAYS AGO AND SUDDENLY FEELING MY RIGHT LEG LET GO AND START TO FOLD. I CAUGHT MYSELF AGAINST THE WALL. I STEPPED AHEAD AND MY LEFT LEG LET GO AND I CAUGHT MYSELF AGAIN. 

IF I WAS IN THE OPEN, SUCH AS ON THE LAWN, I WOULD PROBABLY FALL FROM EITHER ONE OF THE LEG COLLAPSES.

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME LAST YEAR AS I WALKED PAST THE C-CAN WHEN IT BLOCKED THE DRIVEWAY.

MY LEFT LEG LET GO AND I WAS PITCHED DOWN TEN FEET INTO THE DITCH.

I HAVE NOT BEEN AS GOOD AS I WAS THAT DAY SINCE THAT HAPPENED. I ALSO HAD A CONVULSION AS I DROVE PAST THE ROCKCLIFFE A FEW MONTHS EARLIER.

I HAVE A PROBLEMATIC RECURRING BREATH STOPPING BACK LOCK UP OR REVERSE ARCH SPASM.

ARE LOCK UP, "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME" SHELL SHOCK, TONIC IMMOBILITY OR COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY RESPONSIBLE INDIVIDUALLY OR IN CONCERT  OR IS ALL OF THIS SIMPLY SPINAL CORD AND BRAIN INJURY?

UPON RECOVERING TO THE POINT WHERE I COULD PERFORM ON HARMONICA AND DANCE OR QUAD OR ROLLERBLADE, THE ACHIEVEMENT WAS NOT RECOGNIZED AND IT WOULD BE USED TO CLAIM I WAS NOT DISABLED.

THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, LINDON COLLARD, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.

I WOULD SAY I HAD BEEN DISABLED SINCE 1970 AND IN RESPONSE I WOULD BE CHALLENGED BY ANY PHYSICAL ABILITY I HAD MANAGED TO RE-INSTITUTE OF MY FORMER ACTIVITIES. 

MANY ACTIVITIES WHICH I HAD ENJOYED OR WHICH I HAD WORKED AT PROGRESSIVELY BECAME  NO LONGER POSSIBLE FOR ME TO ACCOMPLISH BUT NO ONE EVER PAYS ANY ATTENTION TO THAT. I WOULD BE CHALLENGED AS TO WHY I WAS NO LONGER DOING SOMETHING AS IF IT WAS A WILLFUL OR WEAK OR DELINQUENT RESPONSE.

THE CAUSE OF THE ABANDONMENT OF ACTIVITIES IS THE DISABILITY I SUFFER.

I NEVER WILLINGLY GIVE UP ANYTHING I DO AS THERE IS NOT A WHOLE LOT OF CHOICE OF ACTIVITY, PARTICULARLY NOW, BUT I HAVE BEEN SIMILARLY VIRTUALLY PARALYZED IN THE PAST.

  

Stiff Person is lame.

THE DESIGNATION "STIFF PERSON" IS SO CONTRIVED IT RINGS CRACKED. 

THE ORIGINAL "STIFF MAN" EVOKES AN IMAGE WHICH SUGGESTS WHAT THE MALADY IS LIKE. I DID NOT DESCRIBE MYSELF AS STIFF BUT AS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED, ABLE TO MOVE AND STAND ONLY A LITTLE USUALLY AND SOMETIMES NOT ABLE TO MOVE AT ALL. 

I CAN LAY THERE AND I FEEL ALRIGHT BUT THE MOMENT I START TO MOVE I CAN FEEL SOMETHING IS WRONG AND I SHOULD RESUME A FLAT POSITION. 

THE VALUE IN THE "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME" IS IN ITS CATALOGING OF MANY SYMPTOMS AND THE "STIFF" RATHER THAN "COLLAPSED OR CONVULSED" I USE TO DESCRIBE THE SYMPTOMS I AM DISABLED BY.

I COULD REASSESS MY SYMPTOMS AS MUSCLES FIRE OR CONTRACT AND THEY WILL NOT RELAX AND FIRE AGAIN.

 I HAVE REPEATEDLY DESCRIBED HOW MY JOINTS ARE SPASMED, LOCKED AND IMPROPERLY ALIGNED. 

THE "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME" IS REFERENCED AS DISLOCATING JOINTS AND CAUSING HYPERLORDOSIS WHICH I REFERRED TO AS "SWAY BACK".

MANY OF THE SYMPTOMS WHICH I HAVE REPEATEDLY LINKED TO CHILDHOOD BEATING AND "THROWING DOWN" AND TO MY HEELS BEING EASILY PUSHED UP WHICH CAUSES A LEG COLLAPSE AND OTHER SYMPTOMS I HAVE SEEN AS THE SYMPTOMS OF 

SHELL SHOCK LIFE

SWAYBACK IS A COMMON SYMPTOM OF SHELL SHOCK.

 I HAVE AN ADVERSE OUTCOME WHEN I AM BULLIED OR INTIMIDATED OR ATTACKED AND THE "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME" LITERATURE REFERENCES THAT FEAR AND EMOTIONAL TRAUMA EXACERBATE THE EFFECTS CAN TRIGGER EPISODES OF "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME".

MORE SEVERE SYMPTOMS OF "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME" ARE TRIGGERED BY SHOCK. EMOTIONAL TRAUMA AND INJURY.

WHEN AN EVENT WOULD OCCUR THAT CAUSED A LONG TERM EXACERBATION OF THE STIFF PERSON SYNDROME SYMPTOMS I WOULD ATTRIBUTE THE RESULT TO THE INJURY FROM THE MOTOR VEHICLE CRASH OR COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION I HAD EXPERIENCED.

I AM SUSCEPTIBLE TO ADDITIONAL INJURY ANY TIME AN EVENT OCCURS BECAUSE OF MY DISABILITY.

IS THE STIFF PERSON SYNDROME ONE OF THE DEBILITATING EFFECTS OF:

 SHELL SHOCK LIFE

I HAD ALWAYS HOPED THAT I WOULD RECOVER AGAIN BUT

THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.

JUST LIKE

 I WROTE IN JANUARY 2019:

THE CONSEQUENCES AND EFFECTS OF DISABILITY PERSIST.

THE HIGH COST OF PERSISTENT DISABILITY:

I have had a stretch of severely disruptive periods of virtual paralysis. Yesterday for instance I woke up and went pretty well right to the grow room and started to transplant five, yes, just five plants into large containers to grow. I broke down one might say, I became unable to sit  to keep working and certainly not to stand. I got to the living room and I reclined and went to bed and got up did some laundry work and back to bed or recliner all day like a fog of up and down. 

I went to bed, work clothes still at the ready, usually a nap lasts an hour or less, but the time I slept til was 1:26 am. I got up. I saw the news on CBC and went to finish TP and re-siting in room.

At 3:20 am or so I was done and I showered and went back to bed. I got up again before 4:00 am.

I missed all of my property tax deadlines last week, similar to yesterday. I was up and down in bed, on the recliner on the up couch in traction and I was trying to make meals and do the dishes and to do the laundry which now could be done and line dried. I did not even realize that it mattered that I wrote July 2 or 5 in my diary, I did not put it together with the DEADLINE. 

WHY WOULD I DO THIS: MY TAX BILL DID NOT COME IN THE MAIL!

Bills arrive and I read the amount I owe, I did not do that, the bill did not arrive. I put the bills with my drivers license and keys to remind me to deal with them the next time I go out. When I am in a disrupted state of fuge in particular, the only thing that works and saves me being late with payment is that method.

I BELIEVE THE TAX AUTHORITY WANTS TO FINE ME OVER ONE THOUSAND TWO HUNDRED DOLLARS FOR BEING FIVE DAYS LATE PAYING PROPERTY TAXES!!!

https://policepowersociopaths.blogspot.com/  This is a link to a blog for some reason? unaccessible?

September 15 2019-POSTSCRIPT:I am floating in a state of fuge. I have to spend so much time reclining that all track of life is gone. A seamless sameness from day to day.Wake up and do some chores while and if I can. Go back to bed, wake up and have oatmeal or eggs and toast. Try to clean counters, (not floors or walls) or do laundry or dishes.  Traction on recliner, trying to get aligned with the reverse arch out of my back so I could drive my Norton for instance. I have it licensed for another 10 days or so. I really should start moving all small objects out of the Living Room and I have to get the floor put in.

For years, I have Salmon and Rice or Potatoes with peas or sometimes brocolli and I have Vegi Burgers with bread or tortilla and Spinach and Mayonaise.  Every 10 days or 2 weeks I go shopping at a few Grocery Stores. I support myself on the Grocery Carts but still I wreck myself so badly that I can barely get through Hand Carting in the Groceries and Bird Seed and Cat Food.

I WILL REQUIRE TWO OR THREE DAYS TO RECOVER FROM SHOPPING. FORTY MINUTE DRIVE, SHOP FOR AN HOUR OR TWO, FORTY MINUTE DRIVE AND A FORTY MINUTE UNLOADING AND THEN RIGHT TO BED ALMOST DROPPING DEAD FROM THE EFFORT.

My back and neck have been locked and collapsed and have collapsed repeatedly sinceNovember 2015 or thereabouts. Every Collapse and every Threatening  With Police causes pulled out joints to collapse and lock again, causes new collapsed locked joints, the Threatening and my Isolation combine to create a feeling of being alone and having thousands of dangerous Police adversaries FOR NO REAL REASON, THE WHOLE OF THE HOSTILITY AND PROVOCATION AND DEFAMATION CAUSED BY FABRICATION.

I RECALL BEING SUMMONED TO JURY DUTY. I REPLIED THAT I WOULD HAVE TO RECLINE ON A RECLINER AT 135*. I REALIZE NOW HOW WHENEVER I TRUTHFULLY DECLARE MY SYMPTOMS AND MY NEEDS, NO ONE BELIEVES ME. THERE IS NO ONE ANYWHERE WORKING AT ANYTHING WHO HAS MY SYMPTOMS AND NEEDS.

PHYSICIANS KNOW THAT MUSIC AND DANCE CAN BE IMPORTANT TO RECOVERY FROM BRAIN INJURY OR A NEUROLOGICAL PROBLEM.

MY INSTINCTIVE REHABILITATION FROM VIRTUAL PARALYSIS TO BEING ABLE TO PERFORM AND DANCE LIVE ON STAGE WAS DEMONIZED BY MY UNCARING SELFISH SOCIOPATHIC FAMILY WHO RECRUITED POLICE AND BY-LAW AND EVEN THE NEIGHBOR WOMEN. NONE OF THESE PEOPLE WHO WERE RECRUITED HAD EVER MET ME, NONE OF THEM HAD EVER HEARD ME PLAY HARMONICA NOR HAD THEY SEEN ME DANCE.

THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.

REGARDLESS THEY ENTHUSIASTICALLY  AND WHOLEHEARTEDLY COMMITTED THEMSELVES TO ENDING MY MUSIC CAREER, FORCING THE LOSS OF MY PROPERTY AND THEY TRIED TO JAIL ME.

THE MUSIC AND DANCE WERE IMPORTANT FOR RECOVERY FROM INJURY. A FEELING OF SECURITY, COMPANIONSHIP AND FREEDOM FROM FEAR AND APPREHENSION ARE ALSO IMPORTANT IN RECOVERY. THESE ATTRIBUTES WERE RUTHLESSLY DESTROYED BY THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG, POLICE, BY-LAW, SHERIFFS, LAWYERS AND THE UNDERCLASS NEIGHBORS.

Neurologic music therapy (NMT)

In some cases, neurologic music therapy (NMT) may be helpful as a rehabilitation and recovery tool. Neurologic music therapy is a specific training focused on the use of music and musical elements to motivate and target change (neuroplasticity). It is often used in connection with specific goals related to physical movement, communication, cognition, and emotional control and stability.

Music therapy & physical independence

When an individual wants to improve their uneven gait (how they walk)(or what about a complete inability to walk more than a few feet?), live music can be used to motivate them to take more coordinated/even steps. Rhythmic music and different chord progressions engage with the motor cortex of the brain.

“Following brain injury, our brain constantly recalculates how much energy it will take to carry out each function. When energy demands are too great on the brain, it causes our movements to become abnormal: tremors, stiffness of muscles, effect on balance or pace."

Default Mode Network  is active in reasonably automatic bodily actions, self-consciousness and self-related thoughts, emotions and memories. The main brain areas are the posterior cingulate cortex, the ventromedial prefrontal cortex, lateral inferior parietal lobes and medial temporal structure. Activity in the Default Mode Network has been associated with creativity and pain reduction , music listening , musical improvisation , narrative thinking and autobiographical memories, as well as the experiential self , and making decisions considering self, such as future goals and events . 

When multimodal training is combined with previously learned music and dance material and skills, memory- and motivation-related brain regions may be re-activated. The Hippocampus is crucial in storing and retrieving the non-overlapping representations of the distributed cortical activities when different events are encoded. An important fact is that the Default Mode Network  physically includes the hippocampus and adjacent areas. More specifically, many of the key neocortical regions constituting the Default Mode Network are functionally connected with the hippocampal formation and show spontaneous activity correlation with it .

POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER AND STIFF PERSON SYNDROME MIGHT BE TRIGGERED BY THE SAME STIMULI BUT THERE ARE IMPORTANT DIFFERENCES IN THE EFFECT THEY HAVE ON THE VICTIM.

PERSONS EXPERIENCING A POST TRAUMATIC EPISODE CAN REACT DURING THAT EPISODE ENERGETICALLY BUT THE STIFF PERSON WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DO THAT WHETHER THEY ARE VIRTUALLY PARALYZED BY STIFFNESS OR THEY HAVE FALLEN OVER OR THEY ARE COLLAPSED. 

THERE ARE REPORTS OF PERSONS WITH ALLEGED PTSD WHO ALSO EXPERIENCE VIRTUAL PARALYSIS OR COLLAPSE.

ARE THESE PERSONS ACTUALLY HAVING A "STIFF PERSON SYNDROME" EPISODE OR DO THEY HAVE THIS AND PTSD ALSO?

WHAT ABOUT 

SHELL SHOCK

I THINK THAT I HAVE A NUMBER OF PHYSICAL NEUROLOGICAL LOCKUP, COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION SYMPTOMS.

THERE IS NO NEED TO PUT ONE NAME TO THE INJURY RELATED DISORDER I HAVE SUFFERED FROM TO VARYING DEGREES FOR MOST OF MY LIFETIME. 

THE LATEST CLUE I HAVE IS KNOWLEDGE OF THE "STIFF PERSON DISORDER".

I WILL RESEARCH THIS CONDITION.

What triggers stiff person syndrome?

The main symptoms of Stiff Person Syndrome are muscle stiffening in the torso and limbs, along with episodes of violent muscle spasms. These can be triggered by environmental stimuli (like loud noises) or emotional stress. The muscle spasms can be so severe that they cause the person to fall down.

 The legs are the most commonly impacted area for these spasms and often lead to falls. The abdominal area can also experience spasms, causing a person to feel fuller faster and lead to unintended weight loss.Dec 8, 2022

It is possible people who have less severe manifestations of stiff person syndrome have been overlooked or possibly misdiagnosed with muscle tension. As more doctors learn to screen people, especially people sent to orthopedic clinics, more people will get the help they need for the long term.

How do I know if I have stiff person syndrome?

Stiff person syndrome can be suggested by findings on electromyography testing (EMG). EMGs assess muscles and the nerves that control them. There are also blood and spinal fluid tests to find GAD antibodies typically found in the disease.

Symptoms of Stiff Person Syndrome

• Extreme muscle stiffness and rigidity
  • Most often in the head, neck, back, chest, and limbs
  • Less often, but severe, in the leg
• Extreme spasms

  • Triggered by stress, loud noises, and other environmental stimuli  ( EDITOR'S NOTE : THE COLLAPSES AND CONVULSIONS I EXPERIENCE ARE TRIGGERED IN THE AFTERMATH OF SERIOUS INJURY,BY MY BEING THREATENED, ASSAULTED, SURROUNDED, UNJUSTLY DISBELIEVED, OR SUBJECTED TO POLICE RAIDS.)

  • So severe the person can fall down in response
• Difficulty walking
• Anxiety and/or depression

Can stiff person syndrome be cured?

Not yet. Currently, the effects of immunotherapy on neurological syndromes associated with GAD antibodies are incomplete.

I THINK I HAVE MANY OF THESE SYMPTOMS.I HAVE POSTED ABOUT THESE SYMPTOMS AS ACCIDENT INJURY, TONIC IMMOBILITY, TONIC COLLAPSE AND EVEN SHELL SHOCK. I MIGHT HAVE MORE THAN ONE OF THESE MALADIES CAUSING MY VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND SPASM ON THIS "DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED" blog @blogspot.

WHAT HAPPENS IN THE AFTERMATH OF COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION? I HAVE BEEN VIRTUALLY PARALYZED FOR SEVEN YEARS THIS TIME. THERE WERE NO CAR CRASH INJURIES, THERE WAS COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION INJURY.

I, LIKE SOME OTHER PEOPLE, TEND TO BECOME MORE AND MORE DISABLED IN THE AFTERMATH OF INJURY, COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION. WHEN ONE IS INJURED THERE IS NOT AN IMMEDIATE UNDERSTANDING OF HOW LONG THE DISABILITY CAUSED BY ANY INJURY WILL LAST AND WHAT IT WILL DEVELOP INTO.

FOR SEVERAL DAYS NOW I HAVE BEEN FORCED TO LAY FLAT AND IN THE "THROWN DOWN" POSITION, THE POSITION WHICH I WOULD END UP IN AS A CHILD WHEN I WAS WRENCHED BY MY HAIR TO THE RIGHT THEN TO THE LEFT AND DOWN TO THE FLOOR ON MY LEFT SIDE.

RECENTLY, MORNING AFTER MORNING I WOKE IN A SEVERE REVERSE ARCH SPASM AND I HAD TO STRETCH MY SPINE OUT FOR HOURS TO BE ABLE TO GET UP.

I HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO STAND AND I HAD TO DO ANY WORK I DID SEATED AND ONLY EARLY IN THE MORNING. I HAVE TO REPEATEDLY RETURN TO THE LAY FLAT OR THE 135* RECLINING POSITION AND I HAVE TO FALL ASLEEP, PREFERABLY IN BED NUDE, SEVERAL TIMES PER DAY.

HOW DID I GET INTO THIS VIRTUAL PARALYSIS CONDITION AGAIN?

I THINK THAT THIS IS THE CUMULATIVE RESULT OF SEVERAL COLLAPSES AND CONVULSIONS, MANY OF THEM ARE FROM ABOUT  SEVEN YEARS AGO.

NOVEMBER 2015: I WAS AT THE ROCKCLIFFE. THE HALL VENTILATOR WAS RATTLING. I WAS IN THE HALL OUTSIDE THE ELECTRICAL ROOM. I BECAME ALARMED AND I HAD AN INTERIOR COLLAPSE BUT I DID NOT GO DOWN MUCH. I HEADED FOR MY CAR AND IN A REPRISE OF MY 2001 COLLAPSE, I WENT RIGHT TO THE GROUND WITH MY LEFT KNEE FOLDED FLAT.

AROUND THE SAME TIME I HAD A CONVULSION WHEN I WAS TOLD I WOULD NOT GET PAID FOR AN INCORRECTLY CALCULATED BILL. I ALSO HAD A CONVULSION OR COLLAPSE SEATED IN MY CAR ON OTTER POINT ROAD WHERE I WAS NEARLY SWARMED BY ANGRY ROAD WORKERS BUT I FLED IN MY CAR. 

ON FEBRUARY 24 2016 I WAS IN THE SHOWER WHEN A LOUD POUNDING CAUSED ME TO COLLAPSE. THEN UNFORTUNATELY I WAS NOT IN CONTROL OF THE COLLAPSE SYNDROME AND A FEW ENSUING MONTHS  I HAD THREE COLLAPSES RIGHT DOWN TO THE GROUND ON THE LEFT SIDE, WRECKING MY KNEE AND MY DAMAGING MY SPINE.

ON JUNE 8 2016 I WAS TRESPASSED UPON AND ACCUSED OF TORTURING A DOG. THERE WAS A WOMAN WHO LOOKED LIKE POLICE. THEN A BARE ASSED WOMAN EMERGED ASS FIRST FROM THE POLICE STYLE SUV.

ABOUT CONVULSION: I HAVE HAD CONVULSIONS ON A NUMBER OF OCCASIONS. THE CONVULSION I HAD JUNE 8 2016 WAS A NECK AND JAW CONVULSION. MY JAW CLENCHED SO HARD I LOOSENED THREE TEETH WHICH EVENTUALLY FELL OUT AND I CRACKED SEVERAL TEETH,. I HEARD THEM CRACK. I  HAVE DROOLED OUT OF BOTH SIDES OF MY MOUTH SINCE THEN.

I ONCE HAD A CHEST CONVULSION JUST FROM HAVING COLD WATER SPRAY ON MY LEGS AT THE SAFE AND UNRAIDED HOUSE I OWNED AT 134 HOWE ST. IN VICTORIA.  I I I COULD NOT BREATHE  UNTIL I GOT INTO A HOT SHOWER AND I STOPPED CONVULSING. FORTUNATELY, THE SHOWER WAS ONLY FORTY FEET AWAY.

CONVULSION CAN BE WORSE THAN COLLAPSE. I HAVE WOKE IN BED IN A TERRIBLE CHEST SEIZURE WHERE I ACTUALLY THOUGHT I MIGHT DIE FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO BREATHE. SOME CONVULSIONS ARE PRIMARILY IN THE BACK, CAUSING A REVERSE ARCH SPASM WHICH CAN PERSIST FOR YEARS.

I DO NOT KNOW WHY I CONVULSED AS I DID. I HAD NO SEX FOR FIFTEEN YEARS, CAUSED BY WOMEN DRIVING ME OFF OF MY VICTORIA RESIDENCE, AND THEN HERE IT IS A BARE ASS+ AND A POLICE TRUCK WITH A PERSON WHO LOOKED LIKE POLICE AND HAD THREATENED ME WITH TERRIBLE DERANGED CHARGES. 

I HAD TO GET TO A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT IN 2021. AS I DROVE PAST THE ROCKCLIFFE I HAD A COLLAPSE AND CONVULSION, I MISSED MY APPOINTMENT. I ALSO BECAME MORE PARALYZED THAN BEFORE THIS AND I MY ABILITY TO STAND A WITHOUT COLLAPSING IN A COUPLE OF MINUTES WAS LESSENED AND SHORTENED.

AROUND ONE YEAR AGO I HAD A C-CAN STUCK IN THE DRIVE WAY. I WAS TRYING TO SAFEGUARD POSSESSIONS FROM A POSSIBLE DAM COLLAPSE, THE DAM JUST ABOVE MY PROPERTY WAS DECLARED "UNSAFE" AFTER AN INSPECTION. AS I WALKED ON THE LOG BESIDE THE C-CAN BY THE DITCH, I HAD A LEFT LEG COLLAPSE AND I FELL INTO THE DITCH, ONLY TEN FEET DEEP AT THAT POINT FORTUNATELY, BUT UNFORTUNATELY,  I BECAME  MORE INJURED, AND MORE DISABLED AND PARALYZED.

Physical Symptoms of Tonic Immobility, Shell Shock, and Back Injury which may be related to Postural Hypo-tension.

POSTURAL HYPO-TENSION CREATES A LOWERED  BLOOD PRESSURE UPON STANDING ( OR WHEN CONFRONTED) WHEN BLOOD PRESSURE SHOULD RISE THIS IS A QUICK COLLAPSE  SYNDROMKE                 SYNDROME.

THERE IS EVIDENCE THAT BACK INJURY CAN INTERFERE WITH THE  (AUTOMATIC) SYMPATHETIC RESPONSE WHICH RAISES BLOOD PRESSURE WHEN IT IS SENSED TO DROP BY GLANDS LOCATED IN THE NECK.

Introduction - SCIRE Professional

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I WONDER IF THERE ARE OTHER SENSORS, PERHAPS IN THE LEGS?

I WAS PULLED DOWN AGAINST MY LEGS' RESISTANCE REPEATEDLY AS A CHILD. 

I CAN FEEL MY STRENGTH EBBING WHEN MORE PRESSURE IS ON MY LEGS OR KNEES AS I DESCEND  STAIRS OR WHEN I COME TO A SUDDEN STOP.

THERE IS THE POSSIBILITY THAT SHELL SHOCK IS INVOLVED OR IT MAY EVEN BE THE CAUSE OF POSTURAL HYPO-TENSION AND TONIC IMMOBILITY MAY ALSO BE CAUSED BY SHELL SHOCK. 

SWAYBACK IS AN OLD DESCRIPTOR OF

SHELL SHOCK 

IS THE SWAYBACK I EXPERIENCE AND I CALL REVERSED ARCH BACK SPASM A PART OF SHELL SHOCK OR TONIC IMMOBILITY OR IS IT A SEPARATE BACK INJURY WHICH INDEPENDENTLY CAUSES HYPO-TENSION?