THE ADJUSTERS AND THE LAWYERS, POLICE AND JUDGES PACK UP, PICK UP THEIR PAY AND GO ON WITH THEIR LIVES. THAT IS NOT WHAT HAPPENED TO ANY OF THE ACCIDENT INJURED PERSONS I HAVE EVER MET

"DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED" IS MORE THAN JUST A COUPLE OF WORDS. 

THAT MISUSE OF  ADJUDICATION HAS DIMINISHED MOST OF MY LIFE. 

THE SYSTEMATIC ABUSE OF PERSONS INJURED IN ACCIDENTS CREATES  AN ABSURD OUTCOME FOR THE VICTIMS. 

MY DIARY:

How I feel May 30 2022

I woke at 2am til 3am, I had to get up I checked my rooms, I was not sure how long I had been  constantly trying and failing to get up and do anything, actually except to sit supported by my elbows, which are feeling raw, and eat or write. 

I lay down at 9pm Sunday, to prepare to do music practice, but that did not get to happen.

I got up a second time at 4;10 am and I salved, made coffee, and fed the cats .

I have work clothes on but I am collapsing as I write at 6:49 Am.

I so not know how l will get things I need, my sons generally are too busy to be asked to get me supplies. Perhaps I can order from Walmart as it says on TV?

I have to lay down.

Postscript: I continually neglect to enter what is required when nausea and vertigo result from too long of an activity.I have to lay at 135* on the recliner and hold on to various solid supports with tension on my hand and arm, sometimes one way, sometimes another. I have to brace my legs and my knees from time to time, against furniture or under a table or by foot, under a counter. 

I might have to swallow, copious saliva can be generated, and swallowing has to be done, which has a beneficial effect.

How to deal with this when out and about is problematic.

How could I go to Costco? That is almost moot as I keep collapsing in the driveway, so I am not even getting in my car. The sight of the Ditch is really overwhelming and bad.

My low back begins to lose strength, then swayback sets in and I can't breathe. I am unable to walk or to do other functions. Last time I went to my car I had to lay on the covered car before I could try to make it back to the house.