TUA TAGOVAILOVA HAS SUFFERED ANOTHER HEAD INJURY

THE NEWS IS THAT THIS HEAD INJURY ON TOP OF PREVIOUS HEAD INJURY IS VERY BAD.

WHEN I WAS INJURED TWICE ON TWO OCCASIONS I WAS DEMONIZED BY INSURANCE COMPANY AGENTS AND INSURANCE COMPANY LAWYERS. 

INSTEAD OF OFFERING INCREASED CARE, THE INSURANCE COMPANY'S AGENTS AGGRESSIVELY FOUGHT THE FACTS WITH DISBELIEF.THEY ALSO DECLARED THAT I WAS TOO DANGEROUS TO DEAL WITH AND THEREFORE THEY WOULD NOT HAVE TO COMPENSATE ME. ADDITIONALLY THE INSURANCE COMMUNITY HAD NO REGARD FOR THE YEARS OF EFFORT I HAD PUT INTO UNIVERSITY AND WORK AND THE SKILLS I HAD ACQUIRED NOR THE SKILLS I HAD ACQUIRED IN THE PURSUIT OF MY MUSIC CAREER AND IN DOING MY WRITING. 

 TAGOVAILOA'S IMMEDIATE POST HEAD OR BRAIN STEM INJURY AND MY OFT REPEATED "STUMBLING" WHICH IS MUCH MORE SERIOUS THAN A STUMBLE ARE NOW KNOWN TO ME.

THERE IS VIDEO OF TUA TAGOVAILOVA "STUMBLING" AFTER HIS RECENT HEAD OR BRAIN STEM INJURY.

AS TUA TRIES TO WALK OFF THE FIELD, HE STARTS TO NOT BE ABLE TO PROPERLY LIFT HIS LEGS. THEN LACKING SUPPORT OR LEG CONTROL? HE PITCHES FORWARD.

THE NEAR COLLAPSE AND THE COLLAPSES HE HAS SUFFERED ARE VERY SIMILAR TO HOW I HAVE COLLAPSED A NUMBER OF TIMES. 

HERE IS ANOTHER SIMILARITY: 

I REMEMBER AFTER MY 1998 ACCIDENT THAT I HAD TO TWIST MY LEGS AND MY BACK TO SIT. MY GIRLFRIEND DID NOT THINK I WAS INJURED BUT I WAS BECOMING "FLAWED" AND SHE DUMPED ME. TAGOVAILOVA HAS A "HAND AND ARM" POSTURING WHICH IS SIMILAR TO MY LEG CONTORTION.

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TUA TAGOVAILOA EXHIBITS POSTURAL 

I was unable to continue my academic load of classes and labs after I was hit in the head on my hard hat by a hammer coming down 80 feet on to me from the Barrachois bridge on the Gaspe' coast when I was 17 in 1963.

Fatigue after a concussion

I signed on to be a surveyor.  Some Canadian National Railroad Clerk sent me to a Grouting  Gang instead and an unhappy laborer dropped a hammer onto my head.

Your brain will seem to have less energy. Even after a little effort, you may feel worn out.

Fatigue is a common symptom following an acquired brain injury. Your brain will seem to have less energy. Even after a little effort, you may feel worn out and unable to go on. Your brain is telling you that you need a rest – listen to it. If you struggle on, you will make yourself even more tired and less able to cope.

NOT ONLY INSURANCE COMPANIES IGNORE BRAIN INJURY BUT SO DO CLERKS, MANDARINS AND FAMILY.

DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED: AN ABSURD OUTCOME FOR VICTIMS

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What causes tiredness/fatigue?

Physiological causes

• After an injury, your brain is not able to process information as effectively or efficiently as before (i.e. limited ability to multi-task, decreased processing speed). Mental activity now takes more effort which can result in rapid mental fatigue and feeling overloaded. Your brain has to work harder to do just basic day-to-day activities and your “energy bank” is rapidly depleted. You may find that other symptoms arise or symptoms worsen when you are tired and recovery from your injury may take longer.

IN THE TRADITION OF PUNISHMENT, I HAD CHANGED COURSES TO NOT HAVE 35 HOURS OF CLASSES PLUS LABS AND STUDY TO  20 HOURS.  I WAS TO ASSIST THE ENGINEERS AT CNR SYSTEM HQ. ( ONE YEAR LATER I HAD EXACTLY THAT JOB AT MICA CREEK DAM.) 

I WAS GIVEN A JOB LOADING BOXCARS ON AFTERNOON SHIFT. I HAD HIGHER TEST SCORES THAN ANY OTHER EMPLOYEE BUT THAT WAS DISREGARDED AS WAS ANY CONTRACTUAL OBLIGATION. I WAS THROWN OFF OF THE CNR SENIOR MANAGEMENT PROGRAM.

THEN I WAS THROWN OUT OF UNB OVER MY NON VIOLENT OBSCENITY FREE NEWSPAPER. I REFUSED TO COOPERATE TO MAKE THINGS GO SMOOTHLY AND THEN I HAD A CONVULSION RIGHT IN THE CHANCELLOR'S OFFICE. 

I WONDER WHY ALL CLERKS AND MANDARINS HAVE TO SCREW ME?

MY MOTHER HAD STOLEN MY PATERNAL GRANDFATHER'S TRUST FUND HE LEFT ME.

I WAS LITERALLY ON THE STREET AND WHEN I GOT OFF OF IT I WOULD BE SCREWED AGAIN AND AGAIN BY MANDARINS ,CLERKS AND FAMILY TOO. GANGS OF CROOKS GOT ME AS WELL. THE DISABLED PERSON HAS TO BE COMPENSATED NOT PUNISHED.

CTIMS

PERHAPS THE MOST ANGUISHING ASPECT OF "DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED" IS THAT I ACCURATELY REPORTED WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME PHYSICALLY AND THE PERSISTENT AND CONTINUING SYMPTOMS AND I WAS OVERRULED BY SKEPTICISM AND UNCERTAINTY NOT BY ANY EVIDENCE

DISABLED AND DISBELIEVED

I HAVE A NUMBER OF PHYSICAL DEFICITS.

ONE OF THE DEFICITS IS THAT I HAVE TONIC IMMOBILITY OR COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY WHICH CAN BE TRIGGERED BY A SPLASH OF COLD WATER OR A HOSTILE INTERVENTION AGAINST ME OR FROM SENSING PERIL, WHICH COULD BE AS HARMLESS AS HAVING A BOX FALL OFF A SHELF AND STRIKE ME OR EVEN FALL  CLOSE TO ME OR WHEN MY 1971 TRIUMPH'S REAR WHEEL SLIPPED AND ALARMED, MY LEFT LEG COLLAPSED AND DOWN I AND THE BIKE WENT.

THE WORST AND MOST DANGEROUS AND LONG LASTING COLLAPSES CAN HAPPEN BY REVISITING THE SITE WHERE I HAVE SUFFERED A LOSS 
OR WHERE EGREGIOUS HARM HAD BEEN DONE TO ME OR MY PROPERTY OR PROSPECTS.

I CANNOT GO TO MY HOME AND BUSINESS AT THE ROCKLIFFE.

I HAD A CONVULSION TWO YEARS AGO AS I JUST DROVE PAST THE BUILDING.+^ SEVEN YEARS AGO I TOTALLY COLLAPSED AS I ATTENDED TO BUSINESS THERE AND I HAVE NEITHER BEEN ABLE TO GO BACK NOR HAVE I RECOVERED. 

The women are at war with me whom they have not met, they have blazed in with a Police Escort and mobbed in with twelve of them and thrown beer bottles at my son and they stated THEY WERE GOING TO BANKRUPT MYSELF AND MY FERRARI.

+^TWO YEARS AGO I HAD AN APPOINTMENT AT HEALTH POINT FOUR BLOCKS AWAY FROM THE ROCKCLIFFE.

I HAD TO DRIVE FROM OTTER POINT AS I WAS ROUSTED OFF OF MY #300 SUITE AT THE ROCKCLIFFE. IN 2001, I HAD COLLAPSED WHEN I ARRIVED AND THERE WERE TWELVE PEOPLE ON MY PROPERTY FENCING ME OFF OF THE PARK I BOUGHT THE APARTMENT BUILDING ON ACCOUNT OF. I HAD BEEN BACK THERE, BUT I WOULD COLLAPSE AGAIN, WHICH I DID IN NOVEMBER OF 2015 AND THAT AND OTHER CLOSELY RELATED AND AROUND THE SAME TIME COLLAPSES CRIPPLED ME AND I HAD A HARD TIME GETTING ANYWHERE.

ON THE WAY TO MY APPOINTMENT, WHERE I PLANNED TO ARRIVE 40 MINUTES EARLY,  I HAD A FIFTY MINUTE SERIES OF CONSTRUCTION DELAYS IN VIEW ROYAL. I, AFTER ONE HOUR AND FORTY MINUTES OF DRIVING I PASSED THE ROCKCLIFFE AND I HAD A CONVULSION.

THE IMPACT OF HAVING MY JOURNEY MADE SO LONG BY THE AGITATORS FROM THE ALF TOONE COOP PUT ME BACK FARTHER INTO SHELL SHOCK AND TONIC IMMOBILITY THAN I WAS IN 2020 AND POSSIBLY 2016. +^

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I HAVE A HARD TIME DEALING WITH THE DAMAGE DONE HERE AT OTTER POINT. ALL I HAVE TO DO IS TO VIEW THE STRIPPED SOIL WASTELAND OR THE DITCH AND DOWN I GO. 

THIS MAKES IT REALLY HARD TO LEAVE.

IT IS ANGUISHING THAT NO ONE BELIEVES THAT THIS IS POSSIBLE.

I HAD TO WALK ALONG THE LOG BESIDE THE DITCH. I HAD BEEN OUT IN MY CAR THE DAY BEFORE AFTER TRYING FOR SEVERAL WEEKS TO LEAVE TO GO SHOPPING UNSUCCESSFULLY, AND I HAD NOT UNLOADED IT FULLY. THE C-CAN STUCK IN MY DRIVEWAY MADE IT NECESSARY FOR ME TO WALK ON THE TWO FOOT  IN DIAMETER LOG WHICH PREVENTS VEHICLES FROM DRIVING INTO THE DITCH.

MY LEFT LEG COLLAPSED. IT FELT LIKE THE LOG HAD ROLLED BUT IT COULD NOT ROLL, IT WAS PINNED WITH RE-BAR.

MANY TIMES IN THE PAST I HAD THOUGHT I SLIPPED OR TRIPPED BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY A LEFT LEG COLLAPSE.

I FELL TO THE BOTTOM OF THE DITCH.

PEOPLE SAY, THAT IS YOUR FAULT, YOU FELL INTO THE DITCH. I DID NOT DIG THE DITCH. I NOW KNOW FOR SURE THAT WHAT PRECIPITATED ME INTO THE DITCH WAS A LEFT LEG COLLAPSE.

I HAD A LEFT LEG COLLAPSE YESTERDAY WHEN I SAW THE DITCH FROM THE FRONT PORCH. TODAY AS I GOT OUT OF BED, MY LEFT LEG LET GO SEEMINGLY WITHOUT A RECALLED EVENT OR PLACE OR VIEW OF THE DAMAGE DONE HERE. 

I WOULD ASSUME THAT YOU DO NOT BELIEVE ME. HOW COULD SUCH THINGS HAPPEN. THAT LEG WAS COLLAPSED HUNDREDS OF TIMES WHEN MY MOTHER GRABBED MY HAIR, TWISTED MY NECK AND THREW ME DOWN IN CHILDHOOD. UNFORTUNATELY IT IS A PAVLOVIAN RESPONSE. THAT IS WHAT HAPPENS TO ME WHEN I AM ATTACKED OR ALARMED OR WHEN I VIEW THE TERRIBLE DAMAGE DONE HERE AT OTTER POINT.

I USED TO STOP MY CAR AND ROLL OUT MY BACK REVERSE ARCH ON THE GRASS BESIDE THE ROAD. IF I STEPPED ON A QUARTER, MY BACK ALIGNMENT WOULD BE DESTROYED. I WORKED THE JEWELRY FACTORY MOSTLY FROM A ROLLER CHAIR.

THAT WAS IN A STATE OF RELATIVE RECOVERY, AFTER I WAS DISABLED AND NOT ABLE TO BE ON MY FEET MORE THAN FORTY FIVE MINUTES FOR FOUR YEARS, FROM MAY 1970 TO MAY 1974.

DESPITE THIS HISTORY, I WAS ATTACKED BY THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG. THEY IGNORED ALL FACT, LAW AND ETHICS. THEY WOULD LIE AND FAKE AND STEAL AND OBFUSCATE AND EVEN TRY TO PROVOKE ME RIGHT AFTER AN ACCIDENT WHEN I WAS IN A DECLARED STATE OF FUGUE OR DISASSOCIATED MEMORY. 

I AM SIMILARLY PROFOUNDLY PARALYZED TODAY AS I WAS FROM NINETEEN SEVENTY TO NINETEEN SEVENTY FOUR. DO I HAVE FUGUE? 

YES. I CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO CONTACT ANY OF THE SUBSCRIPTION SERVICES WHICH I PAID FOR BUT COULD NOT UTILIZE. MY CONTENTIOUS SITUATION WITH MY C-CAN AND VICTORIA TOWING TRYING TO GROSS ME LED TO AGGRAVATED RESTLESSNESS.

I ALWAYS JUST WANTED TO GET PRACTICED UP ON HARMONICA  AND DANCE AND GO TO PLAY WITH A WELL REHEARSED LIVE BAND. LATER I WANTED TO PERFORM MY NEW MUSIC.

WHAT IS THE REASON FOR ALL THE HAMPERING, THEFT AND OPPOSITION?

I JUST HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO GET OVER ARSON, THEFT, INHERITANCE CONVERSION, EXTORTION, FORCED LABOR AND A HUNDRED PEOPLE ON MY PROPERTY INTENDING SOME HARM TO BEFALL ME, ALWAYS.

I HAVE NOT RECOVERED FROM A SERIES OF COLLAPSES AND CONVULSIONS I EXPERIENCED SIX YEARS AGO, I AM STILL MORE THAN VIRTUALLY PARALYZED DROOLING OUT OF BOTH SIDES OF MY MOUTH FROM THE COLLAPSES I EXPERIENCED AFTER THE VICTORIA BY-LAW RAID HERE AT OTTER POINT FEBRUARY 24 2016 OR FROM THE CONVULSION I EXPERIENCED JUNE 8 2016, WHEN I LOST THREE TEETH AS WELL.

I CANNOT ESCAPE MY DISABILITY NOR CAN I DEAL WITH ALL OF THE DAMAGE DONE TO MY PROPERTY. I WAS NEARLY KILLED BY THE COMBINATION OF THE TWAIN LAST FRIDAY

I WAS PASSING THE SHIPPING CONTAINER STUCK IN THE DRIVEWAY BECAUSE OF THE DITCH THE REDNECKS, DENNIS IRELAND AND RICK METCALFE AND NORMAN REID AND RON SHAMBROOKE AND OTHER UNKNOWN PERSONS DUG IN THE MIDDLE OF MY ONLY FLAT LAND, THE COUPLE OF ACRES OF MEADOW.

THE CULVERT YOU CAN SEE, TO UNDERSTAND SCALE,

IS A FOUR FOOT IN DIAMETER ROUND CULVERT.

ON FEBRUARY 24 2016 TWO POLICE VEHICLES ARRIVED WITH VICTORIA CITY BY-LAW KEEPING THE ALF TOONE ATTACK ON MYSELF AT THE ROCKCLIFFE GOING.

I HAD COLLAPSED PREVIOUSLY AND BEEN TERRORIZED INTO FUGUE AND VIRTUAL PARALYSIS BY EVENTS WHICH OCCURRED SINCE NOVEMBER OF 2015. 

ALL OF THE EVENTS AND THE RESULT OF THE COLLAPSES AND THE  CONVULSIONS WERE POSTED ONLINE AND EMAILED TO MLA JOHN HORGAN.

I HAVE A PERSISTENT LEFT LEG COLLAPSE WHICH I PUBLISHED.

I CANNOT DRIVE ANY OF MY FIVE  COLLECTOR MOTORCYCLES BECAUSE MY LEFT LEG MIGHT COLLAPSE WHEN IT WOULD BE REQUIRED TO SUPPORT AND STEADY THE MOTORCYCLE.

AS I PASSED THE CONTAINER STUCK BY THE DITCH, MY LEFT LEG COLLAPSED AND I WAS PITCHED INTO THE BOTTOM OF THE DITCH A TEN FOOT FALL. 

I COULD EASILY HAVE BEEN KILLED AS THERE ARE BIG ROCKS IN THE DITCH.

FAKE 911 CALLING, SUBORNING POLICE AND BY-LAW AND SHERIFF HARASSMENT WORKING TOGETHER  WITH MY DISABILITY TO DO WHAT THEY WANT.

I CAN PROVE THEY NEARLY KILLED ME AND THEIR STATEMENTS INDICATE THAT THIS WAS THEIR INTENT.

I TOLD DOCTORS AND LAWYERS AND THE AUTHORITIES ABOUT MY SYMPTOMS FOR YEARS AND YEARS. THE SAME SYMPTOMS ARE EXHIBITED BY OTHER INJURED PERSONS BUT THE CORRELATION WAS NOT MADE.

TUA TAGOVALOA SYMPTOMS OF HEAD INJURY AND SYMPTOMS I HAVE EXPERIENCED ARE VERY SIMILAR. 

YOU CAN VIEW WHAT I DESCRIBE HERE BUT I AM NOT PERMITTED TO POST IT.

AS TUA TRIES TO WALK OFF THE FIELD, HE STARTS TO NOT BE ABLE TO PROPERLY LIFT HIS LEGS OR IT IS LIKE HE IS CLIMBING A STEEP SANDY SLOPE AND CANNOT GET TRACTION. THEN LACKING SUPPORT OR LEG CONTROL? HE PITCHES FORWARD.

THE NEAR FALL AND THE FALL HE TAKES IS JUST LIKE I HAVE FALLEN CLIMBING THE STAIRS A NUMBER OF TIMES. I FELL SOMETIMES AND I CAUGHT MYSELF ON THE HANDRAILS MANY TIMES. 

SEVERAL TIMES ON THE WAY DOWN I HAVE MISSED THE HANDRAILS AND I FELL DOWN SOME STEPS TO THE FLOOR.

 

I can not find pictures or video but I saw Tua Tagovailoa having a stumbling episode ( Post- script: RIGHT AFTER HIS FIRST FALL) similar to what I experience that I noted in the previous paragraph. He had the same form of twist in his hand that I have to posturally assume to get relief from symptoms which may affect any part of my body. ( Postscript: LAST NIGHT I HAD TO TRACTION MY ARMS AND HANDS TO OBTAIN RELIEF) This is just one of the postures.

My hands are often more contorted than this. Tua had a very twisted hand. 

My entire body may have to be contorted to obtain relief from severe spasm.

THE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN TUA TAGOVAILOA'S IMMEDIATE POST HEAD OR BRAIN STEM INJURY AND MY OFT REPEATED "STUMBLING" WHICH IS MUCH MORE SERIOUS THAN A STUMBLE ARE NOW KNOWN TO ME.

I WILL LOOK FOR THE VIDEO OF TUA TAGOVAILOVA "STUMBLING" AFTER HIS RECENT HEAD OR BRAIN STEM INJURY.

YOU CAN VIEW WHAT I DESCRIBE HERE BUT I AM NOT PERMITTED TO POST IT.

AS TUA TRIES TO WALK OFF THE FIELD, HE STARTS TO NOT BE ABLE TO PROPERLY LIFT HIS LEGS OR IT IS LIKE HE IS CLIMBING A STEEP SANDY SLOPE AND CANNOT GET TRACTION. THEN LACKING SUPPORT OR LEG CONTROL? HE PITCHES FORWARD.

THE NEAR FALL AND THE FALL HE TAKES IS JUST LIKE I HAVE FALLEN CLIMBING THE STAIRS A NUMBER OF TIMES. I FELL SOMETIMES AND I CAUGHT MYSELF ON THE HANDRAILS MANY TIMES. 

SEVERAL TIMES ON THE WAY DOWN I HAVE MISSED THE HANDRAILS AND I FELL DOWN SOME STEPS TO THE FLOOR.

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TUA TAGOVAILOA EXHIBITS POSTURAL DISORDER SYMPTOMS IN HIS HANDS RIGHT AFTER HIS SECOND HEAD OR BRAIN STEM INJURY IN A WEEK.

https://youtu.be/EPbg_KIyUko

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THE INJURY HE EXPERIENCED A WEEK BEFORE THE SEPTEMBER 29 2022 RE-INJURY WAS A FALL TO THE GROUND WITH HIS NECK BEING IMPACTED MORE THAN THE HEAD IN THE HELMET. IS THERE ANY PROTECTION FOR THE NECK? IS THE NFL QUARTERBACK JUST AS UNPROTECTED AS I AM FROM THAT WHIPLASH LIKE INJURY WHEN I AM CRASHED INTO AS I RIDE IN MY CAR OR WHEN I WAS EXITING MY CAR AND THE J-HOOK TURNING PROHIBITED IN THAT AREA AS WELL SAINT MICHAEL'S BUS LIFTED MY CAR BY IMPACTING THE THE DOOR AND DROPPED IT ON MY HEAD. 

I WAS TWISTED AND MY HEAD WAS HARD ON TOP AND SWELLING AND I COULD NOT SPEAK PROPERLY, SPITTING AND SPUTTERING AND DID THAT EVER PISS OFF HIS MAJESTY THE LORD COP.

Today another list of the symptoms of head injury are being aired after an injury to an NFL Quarterback occurred yesterday. Dolphins QB Tua Tagovailoa was taken off the field and sent by ambulance to hospital a with head injury.

I HAVE CATALOGED AND COMMUNICATED THE SYMPTOMS OF HEAD INJURY TO MY ELECTED REPRESENTATIVES BY E-MAIL AND BY PRINTED LETTERS AND TO MEDICAL PRACTITIONERS IN PERSON.

THERE IS GENERALLY DATED, SIGNED AND LOCATED DOCUMENTATION OF MY APPOINTMENTS WITH MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS AND WHAT WAS SAID.

I REPORT THE FACTS REGARDING THE SYMPTOMS AND THE EFFECT ON ABILITY AND ACTIVITY AND I DOCUMENT SOME OF THE MEDICAL REPORTS WHICH ARE ON TELEVISION AND THE INTERNET.

FOR INSTANCE THIS IS HAPPENING AGAIN RIGHT NOW, I NOTED IT A FEW DAYS AGO. THE INJURED QUARTERBACK HAD SIMILAR SYMPTOMS TO THESE.

 

I BEGIN TO TIRE, I HAVE "FALL DOWN" SYMPTOMS JUST LIKE RIGHT NOW. I AM SLUMPING AND I HAVE TO LAY FLAT RIGHT QUICK I FEEL AND IF I KEEP UP I WILL BEGIN DROPPING THINGS, COLLIDING WITH THINGS AND BECOMING IMMOBILE SUDDENLY. 

I can not find pictures or video but I saw Tua Tagovailoa having a stumbling episode ( Post- script: RIGHT AFTER HIS FIRST FALL) similar to what I experience that I noted in the previous paragraph. He had the same form of twist in his hand that I have to posturally assume to get relief from symptoms which may affect any part of my body. ( Postscript: LAST NIGHT I HAD TO TRACTION MY ARMS AND HANDS TO OBTAIN RELIEF) This is just one of the postures.

My hands are often more contorted than this. Tua had a very twisted hand. 

My entire body may have to be contorted to obtain relief from severe spasm.

There are a number of posts about this contorted positioning on this blog.

NOTE THAT THE INJURED QUARTERBACK HAS "POSTURAL SYMPTOMS "WHICH CONTORT THE BODY". I CAN HAVE THOSE FROM HEAD INJURY AND BRAIN STEM INJURY WHICH CAN, IN MY CASE, OCCUR FROM COLLAPSE OR FROM GOING INTO CONVULSION AS WELL.

INSTANCES OF THIS "TWISTED BODY ALIGNMENT" CAUSED MY GIRLFRIEND TO BREAK UP WITH ME AFTER MY JUNE 1998 ACCIDENT INJURY. SHE SPOKE TO ME ABOUT IT BEFORE SHE DUMPED ME.

I HAD AN EPISODE OF POSTURAL CONTORTION AND CLINGING TO THE FURNITURE, JUST LIKE IT HAPPENS NOW,  WHEN I WAS ACCOSTED ABOUT MY NEWSPAPER BY COLIN B. MCKAY IN 1965. HE THREW ME OUT OF THE UNIVERSITY OF NEW BRUNSWICK AFTER THAT.

It is a shame that lies told about me and the self aggrandizing attitudes of practitioners, adjudicators, and judges have caused my accurate and illuminating observations and experience documentation to be ignored.

DESPITE THE DELIBERATE, ACCURATE AND METHODICAL RESEARCH I DID, BY CONTACTING AND INFORMING MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS AND BY ASKING FOR DIAGNOSTIC PROCEDURES, AND THEN BY RIGOROUS ONLINE INVESTIGATION I FIND OUT ABOUT MANY OF THE SYMPTOMS AND CAUSES OF MY DISABILITY AND VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND LACK OF ENDURANCE THROUGH THE VIEWING AND LISTENING TO THE OBSERVATIONS AND THEOREMS ADVANCED IN TELEVISED INTERVIEWS AND DOCUMENTARIES. 

DOCTOR SANJA GUPTA WAS DISCUSSING A BRAIN INJURY AND HE STATED WHAT JUST THE LOSS OF NORMAL BALANCE REGULATION COULD DO, IN THE STATED CASE, THE SMALL ORGANS IN THE EAR WERE BEING DISCUSSED; HE SAID THAT WHEN THIS INJURY HAS OCCURRED IT COULD REQUIRE 50% TO 70% OF A PERSON'S AVAILABLE ENERGY OR POWER OR STRENGTH JUST TO STAY UPRIGHT.

REPEATEDLY I HAD BROUGHT THE INFORMATION ABOUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME TO THE ATTENTION OF DOCTORS, LAWYERS, AND POLITICAL LEADERS AND THE MINISTRIES OF THE CROWN AND THE MEDIA. DOCTOR GUNDERSON DID SEND ME FOR AN MRI AND HEART MONITORING WAS DONE BUT I THINK THAT AFTER THIS WAS FRUITLESS THE CONTINUING INVESTIGATION INTO THE CAUSE AND RESULTANT DAMAGE OF SHELL SHOCK OR VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY OR TONIC IMMOBILITY JUST PLAIN DID NOT HAPPEN. 

I THINK I WAS A VICTIM OF BEING OVERBALANCED AND THROWN DOWN A THOUSAND TIMES AS A CHILD AND THIS WRECKED MY BALANCE SYSTEM. 

I THINK A PAVLOVIAN RESPONSE WAS ALSO GENERATED BY THIS ABUSE. WHEN SOMEONE STARTS THE SAME TYPE OF PSYCHOTIC IRRATIONAL  ATTACK AS MY MOTHER DID, I LOSE MY BALANCE, PROFOUNDLY. AT THE SAME LOCATION OR IF THE SAME TYPE OF BEHAVIOR WAS EXHIBITED COLLAPSE COULD OCCUR AT ANY TIME. SOME PARTS OR ALL PARTS OF MY BODY LET GO AND I FALL DOWN.

Saturday, July 23, 2022

SHELL SHOCK CREATES A BEWILDERING VIRTUAL PARALYSIS WHICH CAN HAPPEN MANY TIMES WITHOUT ONE'S BEING ABLE TO KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED. FUGUE CAUSES ONE TO BE AWARE OF ONLY THE RESULT.

OBVIOUSLY DISABLED AND CHALLENGED AS TO "WHAT IS THE MECHANISM THAT BRINGS THE DISABILITY ABOUT ?"

WHY TONIC IMMOBILITY, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS, COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY AND SHELL SHOCK COME ABOUT AND BECOME A DAY AFTER DAY IMPEDIMENT TO DOING VIRTUALLY ANYTHING IS AN INTERESTING STUDY FOR MEDICAL RESEARCHERS.

LAW SHOULD BE LESS INQUISITIVE. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT COLLAPSE DID HAPPEN AND TO WHOM IT HAPPENED AND WHO COMMITTED AN UNLAWFUL ACT WHICH CAUSED MY SHELLSHOCK, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND TONIC IMMOBILITY. 

WHEN I AM PARALYZED LIKE I AM TODAY, I AM VULNERABLE TO COLLAPSES CAUSED BY POLICE OR BY BEING THREATENED WITH POLICE.

I HAVE TO GET TO MY FEET TO ANSWER THE POLICE KNOCKING, JUST LIKE THE GESTAPO WOULD NOT GO AWAY THEY WILL NOT GO AWAY WITH THEIR SOCIOPATHIC TERRORIZATION.

MY METHODS FOR COPING WITH MY DISABILITY SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN INTERFERED WITH

EVERY PITFALL I EXPERIENCED SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HAVE BEEN AVOIDED.

I HAD DISABILITY INSURANCE WITH AFLAC. I WAS CHEATED AND SUFFERED FOR A LIFETIME WITHOUT ASSISTANCE.

I STARTED MY OWN BUSINESS AND MY BUSINESS WAS ROBBED AND ARSONED.

I BOUGHT MY OWN PROPERTY TO HAVE SOMEWHERE THAT WAS PEACEFUL AND UNINTERRUPTED SO I COULD HEAL, AND REST AND DO MY ART, WRITING AND MUSIC AND THERE HAVE BEEN MANY MORE POLICE AND BY-LAW AND SHERIFFS THAN GIRLFRIENDS AND JEWELERS AND MUSICIANS HERE.

I AM DISABLED SO THAT I REQUIRE A SLEEP EVERY FEW HOURS. MY EX-WIFE INTERFERED WITH MY ABILITY TO GO TO VANCOUVER, PLEADING WITH AN ASSOCIATE TO HELP HER SAVE HER MARRIAGE BY NOT LETTING ME SLEEP AT HIS OFTEN VACANT HOME.

THERE IS THE WOMEN'S LIE SPREADING COLLUSION SPREADING STORIES TO LAWYERS, POLICE, ICBC, AND MALIGNANT NARCISSISTS AT THE ALF TOONE COOP WHO DROVE ME OFF MY LAST SLEEPING PLACE IN ANY CITY AT THE ROCKLIFFE IN VICTORIA.

I HAVE TO DRIVE ONE HOUR AND SLEEP AND GET UP AND DO AN HOUR OR SO IN THE WORST CONDITION AND THREE OR FOUR IN THE BEST CONDITION AND EVERY TIME I HAVE GONE TO MY ROCKCLIFFE I HAVE COLLAPSED. THIS TIME I SUFFERED MORE COLLAPSES AND IT HAS BEEN SIX YEARS NOW PARALYZED MOSTLY AND NO PLACE TO SLEEP IN ANY CITY. NO WOMEN, NO MUSICIANS, NO CONVERSATIONS, NO NOTHING TO HELP ME TO NORMALIZE AND RECOVER.

THE EXTRAORDINARY HEAVINESS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS

I am so Paralyzed that I can't lift my arms, I am supporting them on the arms of the typist chair.

When I do lift myself and cling to things to do a task, like making a sandwich, I end up sitting on the kitchen rolling stool, immobile. Gargoyling.

No one comes to see me. Last Thursday, went to the Bank Machine and the Grocery Store and the Hardware Store and the Health Food Store.

That was my greatest mobility in two weeks, it lasted two hours, mostly I reclined at 135* in my car or I would not have lasted. There was only a couple of minutes of standing at each shop. The exception was the Grocery Store where I had to support myself on the Grocery Cart. My hands and thumbs in particular, still ache and my back as well. I think that is why I am so wrecked as to be useless today.

I had tried to go for a week without being mobile enough to go shopping. I left Sooke and I had to come right home. I could not get eggs or the mail.

The car sits where I drove it in to and unloaded it. Each morning, now Saturday I tried to go to get eggs, it has to be early to get the Egg Lady eggs. I am not able to even drive a few blocks to get eggs and the mail. Really, I am not mobile.

I will lay flat now, I have held myself up on my arms for too long, I am having some tremors and my ribs where I was injured 20 years ago with a 10 finger Tai Chi blow spasm in and out.

A regression from "Start of Throw Down" procedure to the second stage with a "Right Side Lock Up".

I woke up this morning August 22, 2022, at 4;30 am with a spasm in my neck and my right leg twisted. I tried to pull it out but I could not. Legs are "tensed" back out of a proper alignment with the heels ready to collapse the calves upwards. I had a severe reverse arch of the back. There are tensed ligament connections transferring tension, nerve irritation and spasm between the legs and my neck.

I HAVE SWAYBACK LIKE THAT IN THE 

SHELL SHOCK LIFE  blog

I COULD NOT GET THE SPASMS AND LOCKUPS SETTLED DOWN. I COULD NOT GET INTO IN THAT OLD FAMILIAR POSITION WHICH I REMEMBER BEING IN AS A FOUR YEAR OLD, ON THE BED, STRUGGLING TO GET A BREATH AFTER I WAS THROWN DOWN AND JUMPED ON BY MOTHER. I WAS STUCK IN THE CRUMPLED TO THE RIGHT, AFTER THE PULL TO THE LEFT, UNBALANCED AND DISORIENTATED, COMPRESSED INTO A HEAP, AS I WAS JUST BEFORE MY MOTHER WOULD, NOT ALWAYS, BUT OFTEN JUMP ON ME. 

I WOULD STRUGGLE FOR A RELEASE BREATH AND, (THE POLICE RAIDING CAN CAUSE THIS), THEN AS NOW I WOULD EVENTUALLY HAVE THE SHUDDERING GULPING OF AIR AS MY BREATH RESTARTED PROPERLY INSTEAD OF GASPINGLY AND POLICE COULD CAUSE THIS TO HAPPEN AND LAST FOR YEARS.

I WAS YANKED BY THE HAIR TO THE RIGHT BUT THEN WRENCHED TO THE GROUND BY THE HAIR TO MY LEFT.

THAT POSITION, LEFT LEG BENT AND TWISTED OVER TO THE LEFT AND MY SPINE TWISTED TO THE LEFT BUT WITH MY HEAD TURNED THE OTHER WAY AND THE MID BACK FALLEN IN IN A REVERSE ARCH IS THE POSITION.

I HAVE TO STRAIGHTEN UP TO STAND AND RIGHT NOW THAT IS LASTING AS LITTLE AS ONE MINUTE AND I HAVE TO BE BACK IN A RECLINED POSITION OR I MUST BE LAID OUT COMPLETELY FLAT OR EVEN IN THE AGE FOUR TO TWELVE THROW DOWN TWIST POSITION OR RECLINING AT 135* CLINGING TO THE FURNITURE.

I ALSO AM AFFLICTED BY TONIC IMMOBILITY AND

SHELL SHOCK        <click

WHEN THESE ARE TRIGGERED, DOWN I GO, JUST LIKE WHEN I WAS THROWN DOWN JUST BEFORE I WAS, NOT ALWAYS, BUT OFTEN, JUMPED ON.

PEOPLE MISREAD BOTH MY HAPPINESS AT BEING MOBILE AND MY CHAGRIN AS I COLLAPSE

WHEN I AM MOBILE, SINCE THE 1980's, I SMILE AND I AM HAPPY AND PEOPLE MISREAD THIS AND CONDEMN ME AS IF I AM IRRATIONALLY HAPPY OR  THEY PURPORT THAT I AM NOT TAKING THEM SERIOUSLY AND REACT AGAINST ME.

WHEN I AM IMMOBILE, NO ONE SEES ME.

WHEN I COLLAPSE INTO SHELL SHOCK THERE IS A VERY GRIM LOOK ON MY FACE WHICH PEOPLE OBJECT TO AND EVEN THINK THAT THAT JUSTIFIES THEIR  CALLING POLICE TO HELP THEM.

I CAN NOT EVER HARASS OR THREATEN OR EVEN ARGUE WITH PEOPLE BECAUSE I WILL GO INTO   (Click on the banner.)

 SHELL SHOCK

I HAD AND HAVE TO OBJECT THROUGH TAPED MESSAGES AND IN LETTERS AND EMAIL AND THROUGH PUBLICATION.

HAD I NOT BEEN INJURED IN 1968 AND 1970 AND HAD I NOT HAD TO STOP WORKING I WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN IN A SUCH A FINANCIALLY WEAK CONDITION AS WELL AS BEING PHYSICALLY SO WEAK THAT YOU CANNOT IMAGINE SUCH WEAKNESS I WOULD CONJECTURE.

I WOULD NOT EVER HAVE LEFT MY JOB AT THE CNR. THAT JOB MIGHT WELL HAVE LED ME TO THE SENIOR MANAGEMENT POSITIONS I HAD HIRED ON TO THE CNR TO WORK AT AND I WOULD LIKELY HAVE GOTTEN TO WORK AT. IF THAT HAS NOT HAPPENED I WAS ALWAYS WORKING AT ART, MY WRITING AND/OR MY MUSIC. I HAVE NEVER QUIT.

I THINK I WOULD HAVE BEEN REQUIRED TO ORGANIZE AND TRAIN WORKERS. 

THERE WAS DOCUMENTED PROOF OF MY ABILITY TO ORGANIZE, TRAIN AND RETAIN THE LOYALTY AND COOPERATION OF EMPLOYEES.

THERE NIGHT BE MORE FRAGMENTS AND REMAINDERS OF MY ABILITY AND PERFORMANCE RECORDS THAN ONE MIGHT IMAGINE THERE COULD BE.

FIND ANYTHING I DID. I ALWAYS TRIED MY BEST AND THAT WAS ALWAYS GOOD.

IF YOU SET OUT TO ALWAYS LEAVE A RECORD OF INTEGRITY AND DILIGENCE YOU WILL LOOK GOOD AND BE ABLE TO TELL STORIES WHERE YOU LOOK GOOD.

THIS IS NOT AN EGOTISTICAL FLAW! 

DO NOT BE MAD AT ME ABOUT THIS TOO!

AT THE DROP OF A BAT, WHAP!

ALL ROADS LEAD TO 

SHELL SHOCK !  Click on SHELL SHOCK to enter the blog.

THIS COULD BE A HARD TO GRASP CONCEPT. THIS CAN HAPPEN WITHOUT WARNING AND THROUGH MANY  AN AGENCY. THAT IS THE WAY THE CREATOR OF THE SYNDROME, IN MY CASE, PLANNED IT AND WANTED IT.

THE ONSET CAN BE INSTANT, OR IT MAY BE DELAYED. IT IS  SURPRISING AND SUBTLE AND COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING WITHOUT BEING OVERTLY KNOWN.

THIS IS ANOTHER DIFFICULT TO GRASP BUT EASY TO HAVE EXPERIENCED ASPECT OF SHELL SHOCK OR TONIC IMMOBILITY OR COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY:

THERE IS A BLANK SPOT IN MEMORY AS COLLAPSE ENSUES. AT THE DROP OF A BAT, FUGUE SETS IN.

What is dissociative fugue? A dissociative fugue is a Zombie like state for me. I even Zombie Work, going through the motions of work but not really remembering how much or how many times, just the whole of the continuation of the work. People with this symptom can't remember who they are or details about their past. Other names for this include a "fugue” or a “fugue state.”  

MINE WAS A LITTLE DIFFERENT IN THE PAST. I DID NOT KNOW HOW I ENDED UP CRIPPLED.

I WOULD ASSUME THAT I HAD SLIPPED OR STEPPED IN A HOLE OR IT WAS THE LAST ACCIDENT.

IT WAS CAUSED BY THE FEAR AND THE ABJECT HOPELESSNESS OF BEING ABANDONED BY EVERYONE.

CLEVERLY REJECTING AN INJURED PERSON'S NEED FOR SUPPORT CAUSED SEVERE SHELL SHOCK.

I WOULD REMEMBER DISCONNECTED EVENTS, I DID NOT KNOW WHO OR WHAT WAS RELATED,

IN THE PAST WHEN I ENDED UP INJURED AND THEN I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED,

SHELL SHOCK RELATED COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION HAD OCCURRED. 

I THINK I DID NOT REMEMBER THAT, I WOULD BE AWARE OF ONLY THE RESULT OF THE COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION.

I HAVE HAD A NUMBER OF CHEST CONSTRICTING CONVULSIONS FROM A CHILL OR EVEN A COLD WATER SPRAY.

WHAT IS WORRYING IS THAT THE ONSET OF THE

SHELL SHOCK 

COULD BE A MISFIRE OF A FEELING OF ENDANGERMENT SUCH AS A MOTORCYCLE TIRE SKIDDING AND I COULD LOSE MY ABILITY TO HOLD THE BIKE UP OR EVEN A BOX FALLING FROM A SHELF ONTO ME OR AN UNEXPECTED SLIP. THIS IS A DAMNED DANGEROUS SITUATION TO BE IN, IT IS VERY LIMITING.

THE PEOPLE WHO CAUSED THE COLLAPSE WERE SO NARCISSISTIC THAT THEY TOOK NO RESPONSIBILITY AND HAVE EVEN COMPLAINED ABOUT THE LOOK ON MY FACE AS I COLLAPSED. 

THEIR FEAR AT THE SIGHT OF MY GRIM VISAGE IS THE ONLY THING RECORDED.

ALL OF THIS MADNESS HAPPENED ONLY ON MY PROPERTY OR INVOLVING MY PROPERTY OR
OTHER ASSETS. THAT IS REALLY CRAZY AND DANGEROUS AND IT CAUSES MORE SHELL SHOCK .

IN THIS STATE OF DISABILITY, CREATED THROUGH A THOUSAND ATTACKS ON MYSELF AS A CHILD BY MY MOTHER, IMAGINE THE EFFECT THAT AN

UNPROVOKED, UNEXPECTED, FABRICATED FAKE 911 CALL RAID HAS.

Postscript on my Facebook Page:

I am reasonably certain now. in 2022 that my main disabling defecit is SHELL SHOCK.

It might be hard to accept that this is why my back is reverse arched this morning.

I went from body surfing on 15 foot waves in Gaspe' and PEI to never entering the water again, it does not seem that you can trust that nothing dangerous will happen.

I used to rollerblade for up to fifteen kilometers but after I was surrounded in the BC Supreme Court by Sherriffs as I spoke my properly filed writ, I never felt safe to be vulnerable on the Streets to Rollerblade again.

What a desperate expensive and long researched plaintiff suit I had Documented in 2000. Due to my Defamation and the Prevarication I faced I could not obtain Legal Representation. Police and Lawyers believed my ex-wife when she knew what I was thinking and though I had never harmed anyone I was aggressive and violent in thought.

I had to represent myself, only to be forced into Collapse and Chest Seizure and to not be able to approach the BC Supreme Coutr building without having SHELL SHOCK render me breathless. The Sherriffs had me terrified. Would they run me down as I rollerbladed? They did not hesitate to break the Law. I could never Rollerblade again, Swayback or SHELL SHOCK would grip me, right out in front of my then at 134 Howe St. suite. I tried again and again but I could not Rollerblade I would go into SHELL SHOCK.

I FELT SECURE TO WANDER THROUGH DANGEROUS PARTS OF LONDON ENGLAND.

Now somehow or other I collapse when I try to get in my car to leave or just to go up the driveway. I think I collapse when I approach the seventeen foot deep ditch, the insane but supported by all Law Enforcement and Ministries neighbors dug to ruin my land.Such a clever use of excavator and deisel to ruin instead of to build and then getting the By-Law and Police onto me, what a magnificant Canard!

I WOULD SELF REPRESENT IN ANY COURT OR BEFORE APPEAL BOARDS.

Ever so clever, it is all diverted or I am defamed and none of the legal work works!

Hopeless to be able to do anything and resentfully brought groceries every two weeks, I feel weak, powerless and vulnerable. The reluctanceof all and sundry to help me in any way makes me go weak. It seems so unreasonable. If I had not been attacked so many times I would have something together to supply myself with my needs. If I had been properly compensated I would not need anyone's help.

Pathetically I will have to beg one of my sons to get me groceries and they are so busy.