COLLAPSE CAUSES THE VIRTUAL PARALYSIS OF TONIC IMMOBILITY

I RECALL THAT I HAVE LAID AROUND IN THE PAST UNABLE TO DO ANY SHORT PHYSICAL ACTION WITHOUT HAVING TO LAY DOWN AGAIN TO RECOVER.

That does not mean I do not do anything it means I have to do everything in short segments and in a constrained manner without causing any of a number of adverse  neck or back reactions. Having to sit to shovel, for instance is not a speedy way to get shoveling done. I am having a very hard time getting anything done at this time.

ONE OF MY REMEDIES FOR THIS VIRTUAL PARALYSIS WAS TO WORK LAYING DOWN.  I DICTATED INNUMERABLE WRITINGS TO AP, MY PRODUCTION EXPIDITER. YEARS AGO MUSICIANS WOULD COME TO MY HOME AND I WOULD PRACTICE WITH THEM; I WAS LAYING DOWN.

What I did not realize is how I came to be Virtually Paralyzed on many occasions. I would know that following a motor vehicle accident I was injured but I did not realize that as all the carpets of the support I had contracted to receive if I was injured were pulled joyously and sadistically out from under me, I would feel the empty inside feeling and the barely able to stand feeling and then I would collapse.

I DO NOT HAVE TO GO RIGHT DOWN TO THE GROUND. SOMETHING TRIGGERS TONIC IMMOBILITY OR VIRTUAL PARALYSIS EVEN IF I CATCH MYSELF BEFORE I FALL RIGHT DOWN. I DO GO RIGHT DOWN OFTEN AND I MAY NOT HAVE BEEN AWARE THAT I WAS DOWN.

I BELIEVED THAT I FELL OR SLIPPED MANY TIMES THAT I ACTUALLY COLLAPSED DUE TO BEING DISACKNOWLEGED AND OVERWHELMED.

I HAVE GONE INTO A STATE OFCONVULSION IN SITUATIONS WHICH WERE SIMILAR AND EVEN WHEN I SPRAYED MY LEGS WITH COLD WATER. MY CHEST FROZE SOLID, I COULD HARDLY BREATHE UNTIL I GOT INTO A HOT SHOWER. FORTUNATELY THE SHOWER WAS NEARBY.