Disabled not compensated means that the minute I am smashed in an accident I stop all productive activity. There has to be an alternative pay day when all of yours are terminated by injury. I WORKED AT THE CNR BUT I ALSO DID ART AND WRITING AND I PLAYED HARMONICA AND GUITAR. I NEEDED MY AFFLAC OUT OF WORK INSURANCE TO CONTINUE TO SUPPORT MUSIC AND ART. WITHOUT IT LIFE WAS EXTREMELY TAXING PHYSICALLY. IT WAS HARD TO DO A LOT OF WORK THAT WAS NOT ACCOMPLISHED SEATED. I NEEDED MY INSURANCE PAY
Thursday, August 27, 2020
Saturday, August 8, 2020
MY ALARMING VISAGE
HOW CAN I GO OVER THE SAME GROUND AGAIN?
LIKE TO ARCHEOLOGY THE INFORMATION IS NOT READILY APPARENT EVEN IF YOU DUG DEEP EARLIER.
I was laying there on the media room couch, I can't stand and sit with my arms on the chair arms when I get up and write or whatever. I accomplish many tasks from a sitting position which other persons might not sit to do, to shovel for example.
I was laying down, feet up hanging by my shoulders as well, in mild traction. It felt so good, floating without moving a muscle and with my eyes closed, I enjoyed the calm and lack of striving to hold muself up and I had a shuddering breath release.
One of my first memories is of laying on the bed in the front room of the second floor apartment at 2737 Allard Street in Ville Emard right across from St. Jean de Matteau Catholic Cathedral, I think it was a Cathedral. I had the same shuddering release breath which preceedes back release contemporaneously. It is quite a relief.
I recalled the day I was called in (unlawfully) to ICBC and after the interview I was presented as too frightening to deal with and they recorded and transcripted my calls, I saw automatically printed records of my calls where I say over and over that the version of the accident espoused by ICBC was an absurd fraud.
I told them to have a technically skilled accident investigator to deal with me, I had pictures, drawings and calculations to present. Instead a really angry Bink Lofgren said to me "You are making me late for my vacation"."You were going eighty five miles per hour and left a one hundred and eighty five foot long skid mark."
I probably had a collapse on partial collapse at this point, and I did not know this until recently, there is a terrible expression on my face. The person dominating me causes the collapse, it is not my fault, I cannot control it. When multiple persons attack me that excerbates my falling victim to collapse. Financial threats really terrorize and paralyze me. I had no money a lot or owed more than I had or owed constant money draining and wealth accumulation destroying payments to wife and Mother, so I may overreact to the possibility of financial loss and collapse.
I think I have had a look on my face as I freaked or went into Tonic Immobility that people found freakish and frightening and they discriminated against me as if I had threatened them when I had not. I, surprised that I was to not get paid a sum of money I was depending on to not have to borrow to buy groceries, was described as having the "Most Hostile Look on My Face" that the person who freaked me by saying there would not even be a discussion about paying me my money triggered. I thought I lost my balance and my breath. I now know that is why I was treated as a freakish threat, it was the look on my face as I collapsed. You would look alarmed too if it happened to you.
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