DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED: MY AFFLICTION IS NOT DRAMATIC, I DO NOT RAGE AT THE EMERGENCY WARD, I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO LAY MOTIONLESS.
NO ONE NOTICES THE SOLITARY PARALYSIS, I HAVE TO BE IN A MOBILE STATE TO BE OUT AT SUCH AS A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT.
Coincidentally, the motionlessness is not surmountable for long one can only move so much and in such a manner as to be able to continue for a time.
Some activities quickly cause overwhelming fatigue or collapse or spasm and convulsion or locked back joints followed by defecatating and vomiting simultaneously.
IF I DO NOT DO MORE THAN I SHOULD AND RECLINE OR SLEEP OR LAY MOTIONLESS FOR DAYS IF THAT IS WHAT IS NECESSARY I CAN BE READY AT ALMOST ANY TIME TO UNDERTAKE MORE ACTIVITY. THEN THERE WILL BE MORE LAYING MOTIONLESS TO RECOVER.
WHEN I AM FORCED TO SO MUCH AS STAND UNSUPPORTED WHEN I CANNOT DO THAT I BEGIN TO SUFFER JOINT LOCKUP DAMAGE.
Just because I can do some things at some times, that does not mean that I can do more things at more times. IT IS EASY TO OVERWHELM ME. That was unfortunately exactly what was done to me too many times and the result is an UNBREAKABLE PARALYSIS, A CONTINUING AND WORSENING COLLAPSE, PREVENTING STANDING, WALKING AND EVEN SITTING.
I definitely experienced Virtual Paralysis in 1968 and 1970 to 1974 with the periods in between being carefully balanced between Motionless Rest and work.
I knew what I could do and I controlled my time at work and my sleep and my Motionless Resting as a CNR Foreman, then as a Jewellery Manufacturer and as a house builder at my own home.
I ran out of money before I finished my house I was completing and I found out after I took the Volvo Salesman's job that it was six days and til 9:30 at night.
The house finishing continued and I worked six days in Victoria and the house was burned down and all my goods and Family goods were destroyed in 1980.
I continued to work and the new house and the land were a Disaster I had to remedy and Wife and Family and the Insurance Company made things as difficult as possible Day after day after day until I really badly completely Collapsed in 1984. Disabled thus, the Wife took over amd spent and borrowed on my house. I had to work at her business and soon I worked day and night for nothing Year after year after year. I can remember being desperate to lay down.
I CAN REMEMBER THE RELIEF I FELT THAT THE WIFE WAS GONE WHEN SHE LEFT WITH EVERYTHING PORTABLE IN 1990.
PROSTRATE I LAY AS MUCH AS I HAD TO ONCE AGAIN IN A STATE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS, I DANCED LIVE AND I PERFORMED LIVE HARMONICA AND I SLEPT DEEP AND LONG AND I FELT QUITE ALLRIGHT.
THEN THE EX-WIFE ATTACKED ME HERE AT MY HOUSE AND THE BY-LAW AND POLICE STARTED COMING IN FORCE AND THE FAMILY ATTACKED ME CULMINATING WITH ANDREW'S TAI CHI SUCKER BLOW TO MY CHEST IN MY KITCHEN IN 2000.
I WAS OK AT HOWE STREET BUT AT THE APARTMENT BUILDING THE ATTACKS INTENSIFIED AND CAME OUT TO HERE AT OTTER POINT FROM THERE AS FROM HERE PREVIOUSLY AND PRESENTLY.
I CANNOT GET ENOUGH MOTIONLESS REST AND CAREFREE RELAXATION TO RECOVER. THIS HAS GONE ON FOR FORTY YEARS HERE AND MY CHILDHOOD HAD THE SAME DAMNED PUNISHMENT PSYCHOPATHS ON TO ME AND I NEED TO REST.
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