THE EXTRAORDINARY HEAVINESS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS

I am so Paralyzed that I can't lift my arms, I am supporting them on the arms of the typist chair.

When I do lift myself and cling to things to do a task, like making a sandwich, I end up sitting on the kitchen rolling stool, immobile. Gargoyling.

No one comes to see me. Last Thursday, went to the Bank Machine and the Grocery Store and the Hardware Store and the Health Food Store.

That was my greatest mobility in two weeks, it lasted two hours, mostly I reclined at 135* in my car or I would not have lasted. There was only a couple of minutes of standing at each shop. The exception was the Grocery Store where I had to support myself on the Grocery Cart. My hands and thumbs in particular, still ache and my back as well. I think that is why I am so wrecked as to be useless today.

I had tried to go for a week without being mobile enough to go shopping. I left Sooke and I had to come right home. I could not get eggs or the mail.

The car sits where I drove it in to and unloaded it. Each morning, now Saturday I tried to go to get eggs, it has to be early to get the Egg Lady eggs. I am not able to even drive a few blocks to get eggs and the mail. Really, I am not mobile.

I will lay flat now, I have held myself up on my arms for too long, I am having some tremors and my ribs where I was injured 20 years ago with a 10 finger Tai Chi blow spasm in and out.