WHY WOULD FAMILY MEMBERS SEEK TO PREVENT MY RECOVERY FROM PARALYZING INJURY?

I RECOVERED TO VARYING EXTENTS THROUGHOUT THE SIXTY YEARS I HAVE BEEN DISABLED. FAMILY MEMBERS OBJECTED TO NEARLY EVERY ACTIVITY WHICH I TOOK UP WHETHER I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED OR WHEN I WAS ABLE TO BE ACTIVE, WORKING AT MY JEWELRY FACTORY OR PLAYING MY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS OR DANCING LIVE ON STAGE OR IN CLUBS.

I WAS GREGARIOUS EVEN WHEN I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED AND CONFINED TO MY HOME. MY FAMILY MEMBERS DID NOT LIKE THIS. "KEEP LINDON AWAY FROM HIS FRIENDS" SAID MY EX WIFE FOR INSTANCE."LINDON NEEDS PEOPLE".

THIS WAS TO BE MY PERMANENT RENTAL HOME. I WAS DEFRAUDED OF IT AND I NEVER SAW MY FRIENDS AGAIN. MY EX-WIFE WAS OUT TO DESTROY WHAT WAS ALREADY GONE. SHE PHONED ANY OF MY FRIENDS SHE COULD REACH AND UNNECESSARILY DEFAMED ME.

WHEN I RECOVERED TO THE EXTENT THAT I COULD PERFORM LIVE MUSIC ON HARMONICA MY BROTHER SAID " WHO WANTS THEIR BROTHER PRANCING AROUND ON STAGE PLAYING HARMONICA", FOR INSTANCE.

UPON RECOVERING TO THE POINT WHERE I COULD PERFORM ON HARMONICA AND DANCE OR QUAD OR ROLLERBLADE, AND THAT WAS INTERMITTENT AND LIMITED, THE ACHIEVEMENT WAS NOT RECOGNIZED.

THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, LINDON COLLARD, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.

I WOULD SAY I HAD BEEN DISABLED SINCE 1970 AND IN RESPONSE I WOULD BE CHALLENGED BY ANY PHYSICAL ABILITY I HAD MANAGED TO RE-INSTITUTE OF MY FORMER ACTIVITIES. 

MANY ACTIVITIES WHICH I HAD ENJOYED OR WHICH I HAD WORKED AT PROGRESSIVELY BECAME  NO LONGER POSSIBLE FOR ME TO ACCOMPLISH BUT NO ONE EVER PAYS ANY ATTENTION TO THAT. I WOULD BE CHALLENGED AS TO WHY I WAS NO LONGER DOING SOMETHING AS IF IT WAS A WILLFUL OR WEAK OR DELINQUENT RESPONSE.

THE CAUSE OF THE ABANDONMENT OF ACTIVITIES IS THE DISABILITY I SUFFER.

I NEVER WILLINGLY GIVE UP ANYTHING I DO AS THERE IS NOT A WHOLE LOT OF CHOICE OF ACTIVITY, PARTICULARLY NOW, BUT I HAVE BEEN SIMILARLY VIRTUALLY PARALYZED IN THE PAST.

  

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MY FAMILY MEMBERS HAD A LOT MORE DISPARAGING AND IRRATIONAL COMMENTS ABOUT MY ACTIVITIES WHICH WERE NECESSARY TO ACHIEVE AND MAINTAIN MY RECOVERY AND TO TRY TO BE ABLE TO BE GAINFULLY EMPLOYED FROM ACCUSATIONS OF BEING CAPABLE OF VIOLENCE OR BEING CRAZY. "HE'S CRAZY" SAID MY WIFE "HE THINKS HE IS GOING TO BE A ROCK STAR". 

I PRACTICED AT HARMONICA EVEN WHEN I HAD TO DO IT LAYING DOWN.

I ALSO PRACTICED GUITAR, VOCALS AND KEYBOARD UNTIL I WAS SEVENTY FIVE ON A DAILY BASIS. I FELL INTO THE TERRIBLE DITCH THE REDNECKS DUG TO RUIN MY PROPERTY TWO YEARS AGO AND I BECAME UNABLE TO PRACTICE. I WAS HAVING A HARD TIME FOR THE LAST EIGHT YEARS SINCE I COLLAPSED DURING A FAKE 911 RAID, BUT I DID SOME PRACTICE AS IT IS DETAILED IN MY DAILY DIARY, DOCUMENTED IN COPYBOOKS.

MY PROPERTY WAS TORN UP AND HAD A HUGE HOLE AND A THREE HUNDRED BY SIXTY TO ONE HUNDERED FOOT WIDE DITCH SEVENTEEN FEET DEEP CUT INTO IT WHICH MAKES IT A DANGEROUS PLACE FOR A DISABLED PERSON.

IN ADDITION TO MY FAMILIAL THEFT AND DEFAMATION, THERE IS ANOTHER SCAPEGOATING AND  NEWCOMER HATING COMPONENT TO MY CONTINUING DISABILITY AND ANGUISH.

A HUGE HOLE AND A LONG WIDE DITCH  MADE MY ORIGINALLY FLAT AND GENTLY SLOPING MEADOW INTO AN IMPOSSIBLE OR VERY DIFFICULT PLACE TO GET AROUND ON FOR A DISABLED PERSON WITH MY INSTABILITY.

                    THE DITCH IS HARD TO SEE.

Looking up out of the ditch at the bank with my bus on it.

THE HOLE IS A BIT EASIER TO SEE.

THIS IS WHAT MY MEADOW LOOKED LIKE WHEN I BOUGHT THE PROPERTY AT OTTER POINT IN 1979.

MY OTHER PROPERTY IN VICTORIA BC

IT IS NUCLEAR WINTER FOR ME AT THE ROCKLIFFE.

I AM FROZEN OUT, LEFT WITH NOTHING OF MY PERSONAL WILL 

 WAS MADE INTO ANOTHER DANGEROUS PLACE FOR A DISABLED PERSON. I WILL COLLAPSE IF I AM TERRORIZED BY AN UNFRIENDLY GROUP OF PEOPLE ON MY PROPERTY OR IN A HEARING. I NEVER WENT ON TO THE PROPERTY OF THE ALF TOONE COOP BUT THEY CALLED POLICE TWENTY SEVEN TIMES TO MY MOSTLY RENTED OUT TWENTY FIVE SUITE  RESIDENTIAL COMPLEX AND THEY EVEN SENT POLICE OUT HERE TO MY HOME AT OTTER POINT FIFTY KILOMETERS AWAY.

Jay Reid is a San Francisco California psychotherapist who sends me information about scapegoated persons which includes familial abuse.

Lindon Collard	9:15 AM (0 minutes ago)
to Jay

You are perceptive. What caused grief for me is that 

my brother, sister, sister in law and my wife met with

my mother and on several occasions impoverished me and defamed me. If only I could be in terrible straits, it would be so good for me. I would "not have tried hard enough" if I had received the inheritances from my paternal grandfather on my eighteenth birthday (when I was going to purchase a eleven room hotel with a lounge and a cafeteria/dance hall in Fredericton NB where I had attended University for several years)  and my childless uncle Albert when I was thirty five. (His home, acre and one million dollars) which was accomplished by stealing my mail and then forging a new will. I found out years later.

They also got together and substantially diminished other inheritances I had. I was also forced to make payments for sixteen years to pay for money of mine they lent to my wife (for her business) and then they took more money when my father left me money.

I am an artist, writer, musician, composer and performer which is evidenced by my blogs, videos and cartoons on blogspot  and on You Tube. I was competent on stage for twenty five years, nineteen seventy to nineteen ninety five.

Police tried forty times to provoke me or convict me of something, raiding my home and even laying bogus charges against me. Fortunately I do Live Law as well as Live Music and I defeated most of the charges personally and two charges using Peter Firestone, an eminent BC lawyer. All of the charges claimed I was harassing persons by making lawful complaints about their unlawful actions, always when I was on my own property. I never went to their property, not ever. I was advised to respond only from my own property or in hearings by my lawyers.  

I also wrote the writs and attempted to progress a British Columbia Supreme Court civil action over "Prevarication and Collusion". Dates were set for hearings and then moved up without notifying me.

Unfortunately the response of Police was to " find anything to charge Lindon Collard with" and to try to seize my home for my wife and her lawyer to sell including "prepare your musical instruments for sale". I was terrified; I could not leave my home lest Police By-Law and Sheriffs arrived again when I was not home. They would have prevented my re-entry.  

THIS IS FROM AN EARLIER BLOG POST, WITH A FEW ADDITIONAL STATEMENTS:

TRIXIE DASHEVSKY, AKA BETTY COLLARD WAS NOT SATISFIED. DESPITE HAVING SPENT OR TAKEN ALL OF MY MONEY AND PUTTING ME IN DEBT. WHEN I WAS IN ENGLAND SEEKING MUSICAL EMPLOYMENT SHE GOT RCMP, CRD, AND BAILIFFS OR SHERIFFS TO TRY TO SEIZE MY HOME, SAYING IT WAS ABANDONED, BUT MY GIRLFRIEND ANN AND A FRIEND OF HERS WERE AT OTTER POINT HOUSE AND THE AUTHORITIES LEFT. 

ON SEPARATE OCCASIONS A POLICE OFFICER AND A BY-LAW OFFICER UTTERED THE IDENTICAL STATEMENT :"WE ARE A 24/7 OPERATION WE ARE COMING ANYTIME WE HAVE TO". IT MUST HAVE BEEN LOCAL ENFORCEMENT POLICY TO TERRIFY AND INTIMIDATE PEOPLE AT THEIR OWN HOMES. 

WHEN YOU SO NOT KNOW WHEN THE POLICE ARE COMING, ANYTIME, IT IS HARD TO HAVE A RESTFUL SLEEP OR EVEN TO RELAX AT HOME.

THIS EVENT MADE IT IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ANYONE HOUSE SIT SO I COULD NOT LEAVE. HAVING ALL THOSE ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS WORKING TO SEIZE MY HOME FOR MY EX-WIFE CAUSED ME TO BE TERRORIZED AND I LOST THE CONFIDENCE NECESSARY TO LEAVE HOME AND TO TRAVEL AT ALL TO PERFORM LIVE MUSIC.

I AM ON THE EDGE ALL THE TIME. I WILL COLLAPSE FROM MAKING A PHYSICAL EFFORT, OR FROM A STRESSFUL OR HOSTILE COMMUNICATION.

IT IS CONSTANTLY AND COMPLETELY DENIED THAT I HAVE A RECURRING COLLAPSE DISABILITY. I COULD FALL OVER RIGHT NOW IF I WAS NOT JAMMED IN, LEGS UNDER THE DESK SHELF, WITH MY ARMS HELD UP ON THE CHAIR ARMS.

BACK INTO FUGUE

I WAS IN A DISASSOCIATED STATE OF MIND IN THE AFTERMATH OF MY 1986 CAR CRASH WHICH I BRIEFLY EMERGED FROM IN 1990. I RELAPSED QUICKLY. I WAS FEARFUL AND OVERWHELMED AS SOON AS MY EX-WIFE BEGAN TO DIVORCE ME.

I WAS RECOVERED AND CONFIDENT AND COMPETENT IN 1992. I HAD MET MY EX-WIFE'S DEMANDS, WHICH HAD TOTALLY IMPOVERISHED ME AND I THOUGHT THAT THE CONTINUING, SIX YEARS BY THEN, EXTORTION I WAS PAYING WOULD SATISFY HER AS LONG AS I COULD PAY.

TRIXIE DASHEVSKY, AKA BETTY COLLARD WAS NOT SATISFIED. WHEN I WAS IN ENGLAND SEEKING MUSICAL EMPLOYMENT SHE GOT RCMP, CRD, AND BAILIFFS OR SHERIFFS TO TRY TO SEIZE MY HOME, SAYING IT WAS ABANDONED, BUT MY GIRLFRIEND ANN AND A FRIEND OF HERS WERE AT OTTER POINT HOUSE AND THE AUTHORITIES LEFT.

THIS EVENT MADE IT IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ANYONE HOUSE SIT SO I COULD NOT LEAVE. HAVING ALL THOSE ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS WORKING TO SEIZE MY HOME FOR MY EX-WIFE CAUSED ME TO BE TERRORIZED AND I LOST THE CONFIDENCE NECESSARY TO PERFORM LIVE MUSIC.

IN 1993 I WAS AWAITING MY YOUNGEST CHILD'S ARRIVAL FOR A VISIT. THERE WAS A KNOCK, I OPENED THE DOOR AND BENT OVER TO GREET MY CHILD AND INSTEAD MY EX-WIFE JUMPED AT ME, SCRATCHING AT MY EYES. SHE SAID "YOUR GIRLFRIEND IS A COKER AND YOU WERE SEEN RUNNING WITH HUGE BAGS OF COCAINE AFTER YOU WERE IN A CAR ACCIDENT." 

I WAS HORRIFIED AND TERRORIZED. IS THIS WHAT SHE IS SAYING ABOUT ME? I FELT DISMAYED AND I HAD A TONIC IMMOBILITY OR STIFF PERSON COLLAPSE WHICH I THOUGHT WAS SLIPPING ON PLASTIC BOTTLES FOR RECYCLING AT THE TIME BUT I REALIZE IT WAS LIKE A NUMBER OF COLLAPSES I HAVE EXPERIENCED SINCE THEN. 

I DID PARTIALLY RECOVER BY LATE 1995 OR EARLY 1996 BUT IN OCTOBER 1996 THE POLICE WERE BACK TO LOCK ME UP FOR TWO MONTHS OR MORE AND THEN THEY WOULD SEIZE MY HOUSE AND LAWS ARE ON THE BOOKS WHICH WOULD ALLOW MY EX-WIFE TO SEIZE AND SELL MY HOUSE AND MY POSSESSIONS TO PROVIDE "..HER FUTURE INCOME."

SOOKE RCMP CORPORAL HAL ZEIKE FORGED DOCUMENTS WHICH WOULD ALLOW A TWO MONTH PSYCHIATRIC INCARCERATION OF MYSELF BUT PRISON AUTHORITIES SAW THE FRAUD HE WAS COMMITTING. I WAS RELEASED AFTER FIVE DAYS IN THREE  JAILS BUT I STILL HAD TO FIGHT AND PERSONALLY DEFEAT BOGUS CHARGED LODGED BY LAWYER FRITZ VERHOOVEN.

I WAS TERRIBLY PARALYZED AFTER THIS AND BEING CHAINED, HOG TIED, IN A FREEZING NOT VENTILATED SHERIFF'S VAN FOR SIX HOURS ON OCTOBER 5 1996.

MY DISABILITY HAS BEEN DIS-ACKNOWLEDGED BY THE PREVARICATION AND COLLUSION OF THE LAW SOCIETY AND INSURANCE COMPANY AGENTS AND INSURANCE COMPANY LAWYERS.

A HARD HARD LIFE HAS BEEN THE RESULT FOR MYSELF, DISABLED, UNASSISTED AND DEFAMED. I HAVE HAD TO STRUGGLE TO DEAL WITH FRAGILITY,  WITH A LACK OF DISPOSABLE INCOME AND TO DO WITHOUT MOST OF THE PLEASURES OF LIFE.

I WAS AN EMPLOYEE OF THE CANADIAN NATIONAL RAILROAD, WHICH WAS A CROWN CORPORATION BACK IN 1970, FOR SEVEN YEARS WITH EXCELLENT REVIEWS, AND I NEVER HAD A PROPER JOB AGAIN AFTER I BECAME DISABLED, INJURED IN A CAR CRASH  AS A PASSENGER. THEN I WAS DRIVEN FURTHER INTO PARALYSIS AND DESPAIR BY THE ACTIONS OF A CNR CLERK  WHO DEFRAUDED ME OF MY PAID FOR FROM MY CHECK DISABILITY INSURANCE AND THE INSURANCE COMPANY LAWYER WHO LIED ABOUT ME AND MADE A DEAL WITH THE JUDGE AND MY LAWYER WITHOUT MY PARTICIPATION. AS A RESULT OF THEIR DEAL I WAS AWARDED A TOKEN PAYMENT OF $10, 000. MY LAWYER ADMITTED HE HAD BEEN FOOLED BUT HE SAID THE DEAL WAS NOT REVOCABLE. I GOT SCREWED.

I DISCOVERED AND REPORTED THE BAD ACTS TO POLITICIANS, TO AUTHORITIES, TO LAWYERS AND TO THE  COURTS TO NO AVAIL. IN ADDITION NO ONE WOULD LOOK INTO THE LOSS OF MY DISABILITY PENSION AND I DID NOT KNOW AFFLIC WAS THE INSURER UNTIL THREE YEARS AGO.

THE DEAL BETWEEN LAW SOCIETY MEMBERS TO COLLUDE WITH RESPONDENTS AND POLICE AND ADMINISTRATIVE AND INSURANCE COMPANY FRAUD AS IF I WAS WITHOUT CREDIBILITY MUST BE PROSECUTED.

{ A  DECLARATION, IN TOTAL TRANSPARENCY: I WAS INJURED AGAIN IN 1986,1993, 1996,1997, 1998, 2001, 2015, 2016 AND 2022 WHICH ALWAYS CAUSED ME TO LOSE SOME  MOBILITY FOR A PERIOD OF TIME, AND TO EXPERIENCE AN INCREASED  VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.}

There were probably more injury causing events than those listed above, 

LINDON COLLARD TOTAL RECALL   click in

I discovered what had happened with my inheritance from my Uncle Albert and I  recalled that my trust fund from my paternal grandfather had provided the money my Mother lent to my ex-wife for her  " Major Business" ( My, from 1964, Trust  Fund would have grown by 2001 to over three hundred thousand dollars). Instead, I had to pay back with the interest several times the amount my ex-wife got for her business. I phoned  My Brother Andrew who did not answer so I left two messages. He drove in, tore up my lawn with his truck, kicked Henry Dog and charged into my house and he hit me in the chest with a ten finger Tai Chi blow. I did not ever perform live harmonica on stage again. My right rib just now shook and spasmed which has happened periodically and constantly for twenty two years.

I HAVE THE SAME SYMPTOMS AS I REMEMBER I HAD AT THE AGE OF FOUR YEARS OLD WHEN I WAS YANKED TO THE FLOOR AND THEN I LAY ON THE BED GASPING AND STRUGGLING TO GET UP.

THE INABILITY TO GET A FULL BREATH WAS WORSE WHEN I WAS THROWN DOWN AND JUMPED ON AS A YOUNG CHILD.

THE HAVING TO LAY THERE AND NOT MOVE IS WORSE NOW AS I LAY IN A STATE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS. I CAN GET UP AND GO TO THE TOILET OR MAKE FOOD AND COFFEE BUT IN NO TIME AT ALL I AM LAYING ON THE BED MOTIONLESS AGAIN.

I HAVE BEEN DISABLED BY A FATIGUE SYNDROME OR DAMAGE TO THE ORGANS AT THE TOP OF THE HEAD WHICH ALLOW HUMANS TO STAY AWAKE.

I HAD BEEN VIRTUALLY PARALYZED IN 1968 AND FROM 1970 TO 1974, I SLOWLY  GRADUALLY RECOVERED UNTIL 1978. 

I HAD TO WORK AS A SALESMAN AND A COUPLE OF YEARS LATER AS A BAKER, BOTH JOBS WERE SIX DAYS PER WEEK IN VICTORIA FOR MOST OF 1980 TO 1986. SOMEHOW I WAS ABLE TO LAST ALL DAY.

IN DECEMBER OF 1986, A LOT OF THAT CHANGED WHEN MY CAR WAS CRASHED INTO BY A LEFT TURNING CAR AND IT WAS PROPELLED RIGHT INTO A STEEL TELEPHONE POLE.

I WAS IN A STATE OF FUGUE UNTIL JANUARY 3 1990 AND THEN I HAD A RELAPSE. WHEN I CAME OUT OF THE FOG OF FUGUE I WAS AFFLICTED WITH A REQUIREMENT TO SLEEP FOR FORTY MINUTES AFTER AN HOUR OR SO OF ACTIVITY.

I WOULD DRIVE TO THE FERRY, I WOULD SLEEP WHILE IT TRAVELED AND THEN I WOULD DRIVE IN TO VANCOUVER WHERE I WOULD SLEEP AGAIN IN MY SPECIAL QUIET UNDISTURBED PARKING LOTS. I WOULD GO SOMEWHERE I COULD PERFORM LIVE HARMONICA WITH AN ELECTRIC BAND AND SLEEP IN MY CAR AGAIN. THEN I WOULD EAT OR PERFORM.

THESE WERE A WHAT A COUPLE OF MY SLEEPERS LOOKED LIKE

I HAD A SIMILAR CAPABILITY IN VICTORIA WHERE I OWNED A HOME WHICH WAS MOSTLY RENTED OUT.

I WOULD DRIVE IN AND THEN SLEEP IN MY SUITE. AN HOUR LATER I COULD DO THINGS IN VICTORIA. THEN I COULD RETURN AND SLEEP AGAIN AND DO SOMETHING AGAIN OR HAVE SOMEONE VISIT ME AT MY 134 HOWE ST. HOUSE. THE NEXT DAY, EVENTUALLY I WOULD DRIVE BACK TO OTTER POINT.

THAT IS WHAT I WAS INTENDING TO DO AT MY SUITE IN THE APARTMENT BUILDING I BOUGHT, THE ROCKCLIFFE ON HILLSIDE.

ON THE FIRST DAY I WORKED WITH THE CLEANUP CREW AND AT FOUR THIRTY PM I WENT TO BED. SOON THE ALF TOONE CO-OP WAS ON MY PROPERTY WITH THE VICTORIA POLICE. I WAS WOKEN UP BY A WORKER AND I WAS NEVER ABLE TO SLEEP WELL AGAIN. WHEN THE CO-OP PEOPLE TRESPASSED ON MASS I COLLAPSED AND CALLED THE POLICE WHO SIDED WITH THE TRESPASSERS. 

THEN THEY STARTED IN ON SENDING THE POLICE AGAIN AND AGAIN EVEN SENDING THE POLICE TO GET ME WHEN A TRUCK REGISTERED IN MY NAME WAS AT THE BUILDING AND I WAS NOT THERE. 

IT IS NUCLEAR WINTER FOR ME AT THE ROCKLIFFE.

I AM FROZEN OUT, LEFT WITH NOTHING OF MY PERSONAL WILL AND COMFORT AND MY WAY OF PARTICIPATING IN ACTIVITY IN VICTORIA.

I WAS NOT ABLE TO GO TO MY OWN APARTMENT BUILDING ANY MORE BECAUSE I WOULD COLLAPSE.

WHAT HAPPENED IN 1970 THAT ENDED MY ABILITY TO WORK THREE WEEKS ON AND ONE WEEK OFF.

I WAS A PASSENGER IN A MINI COOPER.

WE WERE SWOOPED IN FRONT OF AND WE CRASHED INTO A 1956 FORD. THE SEAT BELTS HAD BEEN KNOTTED INTO A BALL AS MANY PEOPLE DID BACK IN 1970 TO AVOID THE WARNING BUZZER. 

I WAS SMASHED INTO THE ROOF AND THE WINDSCREEN AND THEN I FELL OUT ONTO THE PAVEMENT. THAT WAS IT, I NEVER WORKED AT THE RAILROAD AGAIN.

THE ORIGINS OF MY DISABILITY ARE PROBABLY FROM MY BEING STRUCK IN THE HEAD AND PULLED OFF MY FEET BY MY HAIR AND THROWN DOWN BY MY MOTHER UNTIL I WAS TWELVE YEARS OLD.

Postscript: I saw a report which indicated that a neurological syndrome caused symptoms similar to the ones I experience. It could have been caused by the injuries and suppression and domination which I experienced as a child.   AT AGE SEVENTEEN I WAS STRUCK ON MY HARDHAT BY A HAMMER DROPPED OFF A BRIDGE WHICH CAUSED FATIGUE AND MADE ME SUSCEPTIBLE TO GOING INTO A CONVULSION. I NEVER RECOVERED BUT I ADAPTED AND I MANAGED TO KEEP ON WORKING AND GOING TO UNIVERSITY.

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I WAS DRIVING A TINY MOTORCYCLE IN 1967. A LEFT TURNING CAR CRASHED INTO ME THROWING ME OFF MY MY BIKE ONTO MY HELMETED HEAD BUT I STILL ENDED UP VIRTUALLY PARALYZED FOR MANY MONTHS. I DID NOT GET MY OUT OF WORK INSURANCE FOR THE FIRST OF TWO TIMES I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN IT. I HAD A HEAD INJURY AGAIN.

I RECOVERED ENOUGH TO GO BACK TO WORK AGAIN IN 1969.

I HAVE NEVER RECOVERED FROM INJURY AND DISABILITY.

DESPITE THE INJURED 

AND PARTIALLY 

RECOVERED STATE I 

HAD TO ENDURE, 

I RETURNED TO 

FULL TIME

WORK FOR THREE WEEKS

EVERY MONTH IN 1969 

THE POST ABOVE HAS 

DETAILS.

Saturday, July 1, 2023

I WAS COMPLETELY TRAINED AND CONDITIONED TO WORK AT THE CANADIAN NATIONAL RAILROAD.

 

WHEN I SEE THE YARD AT NIGHT AM NOT REPELLED NOR DISQUIETED, I FEEL A SURGE OF ENERGY, I FEEL READY TO WORK.

BACK IN 1970 I WOULD WORK THREE WEEKS AND THEN I WOULD HAVE TO TAKE A WEEK OFF. MY BACK WOULD HAVE BECOME UNSTABLE. IT WAS DANGEROUS OR IMPOSSIBLE TO GO TO WORK AS THE CANADIAN NATIONAL RAILROAD YARD FOREMAN I WAS EMPLOYED AS. 

TODAY APRIL 18 2024 I HAVE EXACTLY THAT PROBLEM. WHEN I STAND UP I BEGIN TO SWERVE AND MY BACK WOULD FALTER AND I WOULD HAVE TO SUPPORT MYSELF ON SOMETHING.

"DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED":THIS IS AN ABSURD OUTCOME FOR MYSELF.

THE INVISIBLE NATURE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS DISABILITY:

I AM DISABLED AND DUE TO THE NATURE OF PARALYSIS NO ONE IS AWARE OF THIS.

WHEN I AM AFFECTED THE ONLY TIME I FEEL LIKE I AM NOT UNDER TERRIBLE STRAIN TO SIT OR STAND IS WHEN I LAY THERE MOTIONLESS. THIS IS THE SAME PARALYSIS AS I ENDURED, AT ITS WORST FROM 1970 TO 1974, WHEN I HAD TO RECLINE OR LAY DOWN ALL OF THE TIME. I COULD HARDLY EVEN SIT OR STAND AT ALL. I PLAYED HARMONICA  FLAT ON MY BACK. 

Consistent with complete disclosure, include this.

                                   PARALYSIS IS MORE THAN JUST IMMOBILITY.

THERE ARE OTHER LIMITING FACTORS. 

ONE IS THE REQUIREMENT TO NOT MOVE A MUSCLE TO REMAIN COMFORTABLE. 

ANY MOVEMEMNT COULD DISRUPT THIS AND SOMETIMES SPASM WOULD OCCUR.

THE OTHER MAIN LIMITING FACTOR IS THE REQUIREMENT TO BE IN CERTAIN POSITIONS.

1. THE LAYING ON MY LEFT SIDE WITH MY LEGS CAREFULLY BENT IS THE MOSTY COMMON.

2. RECLINING AT 135* WITH MY LEGS ELEVATED IS THE SECOND MOST COMMONLY USED POSITION.

(I SPENT MOST OF MY TIME LIKE THIS 1970 TO 1974.)

3. PRESSED DOWN FLAT FACE DOWN. RARELY.

4.FLAT ON MY BACK. VERY RARELY. 

5. SITTING UP WITH MY BACK SUPPORTED CAN BE A POSITION I HAVE TO ASSUME OCCASIONALLY.