TOTAL RECALL FROM AGE 4 TO AGE 76 1/2.

I woke up this morning long before the Sun came up and I had to start in stretching and twisting and pulling my spine into place, my neck out of locked spasm and my legs down into alignment.

WHEN I GOT THE SPASMS AND LOCKUPS SETTLED DOWN I WAS IN THAT OLD FAMILIAR POSITION WHICH I REMEMBER BEING IN AS A FOUR YEAR OLD, ON THE BED, STRUGGLING TO GET A BREATH AFTER I WAS THROWN DOWN AND JUMPED ON BY MOTHER.

I WOULD STRUGGLE FOR A RELEASE BREATH AND, (THE POLICE RAIDING CAN CAUSE THIS), THEN AS NOW I WOULD EVENTUALLY HAVE THE SHUDDERING GULPING OF AIR AS MY BREATH RESTARTED PROPERLY INSTEAD OF GASPINGLY AND POLICE COULD CAUSE THIS TO HAPPEN AND LAST FOR YEARS.

THE POSITION, WHETHER FALLING DOWN IN TONIC IMMOBILITY OR WEDGING INTO A SUPPORT POSTURE, OR LAYING ON THE BED, IS THE SAME.

I AM IN THE POSITION WHICH IS THE SAME AS THE THROW DOWN PROCEDURE CAUSED, IMPLEMENTED BY MY MOTHER.

I WAS YANKED BY THE HAIR TO THE RIGHT BUT THEN WRENCHED TO THE GROUND BY THE HAIR TO MY LEFT.

THAT POSITION, LEFT LEG BENT AND TWISTED OVER TO THE LEFT AND MY SPINE TWISTED TO THE LEFT BUT WITH MY HEAD TURNED THE OTHER WAY AND THE MID BACK FALLEN IN IN A REVERSE ARCH IS THE POSITION I HAVE TO ASSUME TO STOP SPASM.

I HAVE TO STRAIGHTEN UP TO STAND AND RIGHT NOW THAT IS LASTING AS LITTLE AS ONE MINUTE AND I HAVE TO BE BACK IN A RECLINED POSITION OR I MUST BE LAID OUT COMPLETELY FLAT OR EVEN IN THE AGE FOUR TO TWELVE THROW DOWN TWIST POSITION OR RECLINING AT 135* CLINGING TO THE FURNITURE.

I ALSO HAVE TONIC IMMOBILITY AND

SHELL SHOCK        <click

WHEN THESE ARE TRIGGERED, DOWN I GO, AS THROWN DOWN AND JUMPED ON.