IF A DISABLED PERSON LIKE MYSELF RECEIVED WHAT THEY HAD CONTRACTED TO RECEIVE AND THEY HAD PAID FOR WHILE EMPLOYED WITH A CREDIBLE CORPORATION, THE DISABILITY I SUFFER FROM MIGHT NOT HAVE DEVELOPED OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL I AM NOT FUNCTIONAL

I AM DEFINITELY EXPERIENCING THE SAME INABILITY TO HAVE A PROPER RELEASE BREATH WHICH I SUFFERED FROM WHEN I HAD THE BREATH CRUSHED OUT OF ME AS A CHILD; THAT WAS PERPETRATED BY MY MOTHER.

THIS INFERNAL SHORTNESS OF BREATH, AND DIAPHRAGM LOCKING UP, AND SPASM AND WEAKNESS IS CAUSED BY OR IT IS ASSOCIATED WITH A REVERSE ARCH IN THE ARCHITECTURE AND ALIGNMENT OF THE BACK. 

SHELL SHOCK AFTER WWI WAS CALLED "SWAYBACK", DESCRIBING THE SPINAL MISALIGNMENT AND/OR SPASM THAT BOWS THE BACK  CAUSING AN INABILITY FOR THE AFFLICTED PERSON TO GET TO THEIR FEET AND STAND UP STRAIGHT. 

I AM AFFLICTED BY A STATE OF FUGE AND HYPER ALERTNESS AS I TRY TO MAKE SURE SOME AUTHORITY WILL NOT SNEAK UP AND THREATEN ME AND THEN I  HAVE A TONIC IMMOBILITY COLLAPSE. 

THERE HAVE BEEN A HUNDRED THIRTY HOSTILE PEOPLE ON MY PROPERTY IN THE LAST THIRTY YEARS,  SEVENTEEN HERE AT ONCE FORTY TWO YEARS AGO.

AS I TRY TO RECOVER, FOR INSTANCE IN THIS TWENTY YEAR LONG STRUGGLE TO BE AT LEAST SOMEWHAT FUNCTIONAL, I WAS ROLLERBLADING UP TO FIFTEEN KILOMETRES PER SESSION BEFORE BEING SURROUNDED IN THE BCSC AND AT THE ROCKCLIFFE AND I CAN NOT  ROLLERBLADE AT ALL NOW.

 AS I TRY TO RECOVER, I  COLLAPSE EACH TIME I AM SUBJECTED TO ANOTHER POLICE THREAT, ACCOMPLISHED  BY SENDING THE POLICE OR THE QUASI POLICE HERE, OR BY SAYING THEY WILL BE USED AGAINST ME AGAIN AS SOMEONE TRIES TO GET THEIR WAY WHEN THAT IS NOT LAWFUL.

ALL OF THESE MALICIOUS PLOYS CAUSE ANGUISH AND SWAY BACK AND FUGE AND TONIC IMMOBILITY COLLAPSE. 

THE HOUSE IS DOWN IN A HOLE AND THE FRONT YARD WAS EXCAVATED WITH A SEVENTEEN FOOT DEEP SIXTY FOOT WIDE DITCH CREATING AN IMPASSIBLE BARRIER FOR ME TO CROSS.

IF I TRY TO DRIVE OFF, THE TRAILER LOOMING OVERHEAD, THE EXCAVATED BANK AND THE STRIPPED SOIL OVERWHELM ME SUBTLY, BUT WITH A CHEST SEIZING BACK DROPPING STAGGER CAUSING SHELL SHOCK LIFE. 

THIS HAS BEEN VERY BAD FOR A VERY LONG TIME. THE SHERIFFS AND HAROLD TURNHAM CAUGHT ME BY SURPRISE WHEN I WAS PLEADING BEFORE THE BRITISH COLUMBIA SUPREME COURT IN 2001. SIX PEOPLE SURROUNDED ME AND I COLLAPSED AND I HAVE NOT RECOVERED AS OF APRIL 25TH 2022.

IN 2001 ALSO COLLAPSED WHEN TWELVE PEOPLE WERE IN MY PARKING LOT WHEN I ARRIVED AT MY ROCKCLIFFE APARTMENT BUILDING IN VICTORIA BC.

THE TWO COLLAPSES THEN WORKED TOGETHER TO FLOOR ME JUST LIKE WHAT HAPPENED ON SEVERAL PREVIOUS OCCASIONS. I WAS NOT AWARE OF THE SHELL SHOCK OR TONIC IMMOBILITY OR FUGE UNTIL A FEW YEARS AGO. I HAD THOUGHT I HAD BACK AND/OR HEAD INJURY FROM ACCIDENTS THAT CAUSED "VIRTUAL PARALYSIS", ONE CAN BARELY MOVE AND CAN BE FORCED TO RECLINE UP TO 99% OF THE TIME. YES, 99%.

I HAVE WRITTEN UP THE TEN OR THEREABOUTS COLLAPSE CAUSING POLICE INVOKING THREATS AND INVASIONS OF MY PROPERTY I HAVE EXPERIENCED SINCE 2001 IN THE BLOG. 

CAPRICIOUS JUSTICE

I REMEMBER THINKING AS I LEFT FOR VANCOUVER: FOUR HOURS TO GO PLAY HARMONICA AFTER I HAVE A SLEEP IN THE CAR ON ARRIVAL IS BETTER THAN NOTHING.

THEN THERE WAS NOTHING. EVERYONE HAD SEEN ME LAY THERE FOR YEARS AND THEN I WORKED THE JEWELRY FACTORY FROM A ROLLING CHAIR. EVERYONE PRETENDED THEY DID NOT KNOW THAT HAD HAPPENED OR THEY DID NOT CARE.

DEATH OF THE CONVULSANT

STEVE FONYO DIED RECENTLY AT AGE 56. HE HAD BEEN SUBJECT TO SEIZURES FOR SOME TIME, IN THE AFTERMATH OF A HEAD INJURY.

I HAVE BEEN SUSPICIOUS THAT A COLLAPSE OR A CONVULSION COULD CAUSE ME TO DIE. SOME OF THE "RESET" CHANGES TO OUTLOOK OR DIRECTION OF ROTATION OR ANGLES OF CORNERS MAKE ME WONDER ABOUT HOW PLAUSIBLE IT IS THAT DEATH OCCURRED.

DEATH AND RESTART? IT SURE AS HELL WREAKS HAVOC ON THE PHYSICAL CONDITION OF THE BODY AND ON THE CONDITION OF THE MIND, MEMORY AND VISION.

IT COULD ALSO BE JUST A HEAD INJURY MISALIGNING THE EYES.

IS THE TONIC IMMOBILITY COLLAPSE AND VIRTUAL PARALYSIS A DIFFERENT CONDITION FROM THE APPARENT "RESET" CHANGES?

WHAT CREATES TONIC IMMOBILITY

IF THIS  RAID, JUST THE GOONS IN FRONT , CAME TO MY HOUSE, I WOULD COLLAPSE.

I HAVE COLLAPSED INVOLUNTARILY, MANY TIMES,
KNOCKING OUT TEETH AND FROM GOING INTO A CONVULSION,
SIX YEARS AGO I  AM  STILL ALWAYS  DROOLING. 

THERE IS A LOT OF NOT VERY DEFINITE INFORMATION ABOUT WHAT CAUSES TONIC IMMOBILITY BUT THE RESULT, IMMOBILITY, IS ALWAYS THE RESULT.

MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE DOES ALIGN WITH THE MAIN COMMON SYMPTOM , A FUNCTIONAL PARALYSIS, AS IT IS REPORTED. THE IRREMEDIABLE SITUATION WHERE I AM POWERLESS AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO THAT WILL NOT MAKE IT MORE DANGEROUS IS A TYPICAL SCENARIO IN THE LITERATURE ABOUT TONIC IMMOBILITY.

THERE IS THE UNFORTUNATE SITUATION WHERE A WOMAN IS COMPLETELY IN THE WRONG, PRESSING HER UNLAWFUL WILL OVER ME IN MY DELICATE SITUATION AND I AM NOT PERMITTED TO UNDERTAKE ANY EFFECTIVE RESPONSE. POLICE WILL VIEW ANY CONFLICT AS MY AGRESSION WHEN IT WAS ALWAYS MY PLACE THAT WAS BEING INVADED OR MY ASSETS THAT WERE BEING STOLEN.

IT DOES NOT MATTER WHO OR WHAT THE OPPOSITION OR THE INVADERS ARE IT IS ALL ABOUT WHOSE PROPERTY IT IS.

STORIES ABOUT SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN INJURED BY SOMEONE ELSE'S NEGLIGENCE OR WHOSE ASSETS OR INHERITANCES ARE STOLEN, OR WHOSE PROPERTY IS INVADED OR RAIDED OR STOLEN MEAN NOTHING AS TO WHOM IS LEGALLY CULPABLE AND WHO IS DAMAGED BY THE BAD BEHAVIOR. 

THE POLICE WILL DO ANYTHING TO DISQUALIFY SOMEONE THEY HEARD BAD THINGS ABOUT WITHOUT ASSESSING ANY GOVERNMENT OR BUSINESS RECORDS OR ASSESING A MAN'S PERFORMASNCE OR EVEN APPLYING BASIC COMMON SENSE. 

EVERYTIME I RECALL THE PARALYZING EVENTS THAT CREATED COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY OR TONIC IMMOBILITY I RELIVE THE PARALYSIS AND ANGUISH.

I THINK THAT DAMNED BULLSHIT AUTHOTITARIANISM CAUSES AN INSTANT FALL INTO COLLAPSED AND VIRTUALLY PARALYZED TONIC IMMOBILITY.

THE EFFECTS OF A COLLAPSE OR A SEIZURE CAN BE SUBTLE AND UNDERSTOOD ONLY IN RETROSPECT

WHEN I EXPERIENCE A FULL OR ONE SIDE BODY COLLAPSE, THE RESULT IS UNEQUIVOCAL. I WILL BE DOWN TO THE GROUND IN A SQUAT OR WITH ONE LEG AND KNEE FOLDED DOWN FLAT AND I WILL BE DISABLED BY SPINAL DISTRESS.

WHEN I CONVULSE AND REMAIN ON MY FEET, I MAY NOT BE AWARE OF HOW SEVERE THE EFFECT IS ON SOME LESS OBVIOUS ASPECTS OF MY DISABILITY SUCH AS AN INABILITY TO KNOW WHERE I AM WITHOUT MOVING AND I HAVE AN UNFAMILIAR AND INCORRECT PERCEPTION OF ANGLES.  BUILDINGS AND STREET CORNERS APPEAR TO NOT HAVE RIGHT ANGLES BUT HAVE ACUTE ANGLES INSTEAD. I HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO READ WHILE I WAS AFFECTED BY THIS PERCEPTUAL MALFUNCTION. 

NOVEMBER FIFTH 2020 I DROVE FOR ONE AND ONE HALF HOURS AND AS I PASSED THE ROCKLIFFE APARTMENTS WHERE I HAVE A SUITE I HAD A SEIZURE OR A COLLAPSE WHICH IS STILL AFFECTING ME. 

I DID NOT REALIZE UNTIL NOW THAT I WAS AFFECTED SO SEVERELY BY BEING DENIED THE USE OF MY SECONDARY HOME WHICH FORCED ME TO DRIVE TO A MEDICAL APPOINTMENT NEAR MY APARTMENT FROM OTTER POINT. 

I KEEP SEEING THE VERY END OF MY BUILDING AND I REALIZE NOW WHY I WAS THE LAST FIFTEEN MINUTES LATE. I COULD NOT RECOGNIZE THE HEALTH POINT DRIVEWAY TO PARK THERE.

I WAS EXPERIENCING THE SAME TYPE OF SYMPTOMS AS I WAS EXPERIENCING IN 2001 WHICH I DOCUMENTED, INFORMED AUTHORITIES ABOUT AND I REPORTED THIS TO MY MEDICAL  PRACTITIONERS.  

HEAD INJURY IS DEEMED A FACTOR IN THE HERNANDEZ MURDER SPREE

AN NFL PLAYER HAD GONE ON A VIOLENT AND DEADLY MURDER SPREE. I NOTICED THAT IT WAS REFERRED TO AS A RESULT OF MENTAL DEFECT DUE TO HEAD INJURY.

I THINK IT WAS INCREDIBLY OBNOXIOUS AND CRIMINAL HOW I WAS PROVOKED AND PRESSURED IN THE AFTERMATH OF SERIOUS HEAD INJURY IN MOTOR VEHICLE ACCIDENTS. I WAS SUBJECTED TO ADDITIONAL ANGUISH CAUSED BY LOSSES BEING MADE  PERMANENT AND IRREVERSIBLE BY THE CORRUPT ADJUDICATIONS FORCED ONTO ME BY POLICE, LAWYERS, PROVINCIAL AUTHORITIES AND THE COURTS. 

EVERY LOSS OR INJURY REGARDLESS OF WHO DID IT, WAS CONSIDERED TO BE A RESULT OF SOME PERSONAL FLAW OF MINE OR "IT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED ANYWAY" OR EVEN " ICBC CONSIDERS YOU TO BE WORTHLESS AND YOU SHOULD TAKE A ZERO DOLLAR SETTLEMENT AND LET US PAY YOUR LAWYER $3000". 

WHAT EFFECT DO YOU THINK THIS HAS ON THE IMPOVERISHED AND UNEMPLOYED ACCIDENT VICTIM. I WONDER WHAT PROVOKED THE NFL PLAYER, EMPLOYED, NOT DISABLED AND IMPOVERISHED TO LASH OUT LIKE HE DID? I HAD TO JUST SUCK IT UP.

     IT WAS REALLY REALLY HORRIBLE!

CHEST COMPRESSION

PEOPLE AT THE TRAVIS CURTIS CRUSH EXPERIENCED AN INABILITY TO BREATHE.

That is what happens during the Seizures I experience when I am subjected to the various stimuli that cause either Collapse or Convulsion. I experience their description of how they are not able to get a breath, coupled with severe rigidization of the chest, and sometimes other muscle systems.

I know that the Tonic Immobility Collapses can cause a Virtual Paralysis that lasts for months or years. I am not sure whether the effects of Convulsion or Spasm or the Seizures aforementioned are long lasting. It is likely that a thorough research of my Daily Diary of Condition and Activity would reveal what happened after some of the Convulsion episodes. 

PRECIPITATION INTO THE UNDERCLASS IS DEVASTATING

May 4th 1970, a 1956 Ford pulled in front of the Mini Cooper I was a passenger within and stopped immediately.

This was the beginning of my third precipitation into the Underclass. 

 

Each time I was thus precipitated, it was not only the event which began the precipitation but also the Despair which is created when your support structure is deliberately destroyed though the lawful outcome which was prearranged by myself or my Paternal Grandfather would make that impossible.

 

I had a large inheritance at eighteen, in January 1964, while attending University full time, and I was dispossessed of that by my Mother. I ended up in a freezing tenement eating lunch meat sandwiches within a few weeks of  my Farmer's and Merchant's Trust account having been seized by my Mother. ( Her 2nd account seizure.)

I was injured in a Motor Vehicle Collision I did not cause in February of 1967 and I was denied my prearranged, paid for on each pay check, Affleck or similar `` Out of Work Insurance``. 

Once again I lived in a room in an indigent tenement and this time I ate a diet of  oatmeal, eggs, potatoes, carrots and onions only. I do not remember eating anything else.

.erclass

 

The precipitation into the Underclass is devastating and the anguish and denial of ones worth creates the Virtual paralysis of Tonic Immobility. No one helped each time I was injured in accidents I did not cause but I was vilified instead.

In the Spring of 1969 I recovered to the point where I returned to the Canadian National Railroad though I had to take every fourth week off of work to lay there for most of ten days in a 135* Reclining position. The booking off as unfit was not paid for by the CNR, it was at my cost, a loss. 

I  starved and laid paralyzed until April or May 1974. 

When I was injured in an accident I did not cause again in May 1970 the clerk, Turner, at CNR Employee Relations said he had ``thrown all of my paperwork into the garbage`` and when I said I would go and report this to Senior Management he said he would call the Police. ``The CN Police will not listen to you, I am a Yard Foreman`` I said. Turner said `` I will have the Commissionaires call City Police``. I do not remember anything as I fled but the park out front and the Ivanhoe Hotel.

THE LYING AND TRYING TO DESTROY THE OWNERS OF LOT A STARTED BEFORE I BOUGHT IT BUT BOORS 002 CONTINUED FOREVER.

TIGHT SPACES

SEE ALL THE AMPLIFIERS

LOOK AT HOW THEY FILL

THE MEZZANINE WITH GEAR

MY PARALYSIS REQUIRES

ME TO CLING TO AN AMP UNTIL 

THERE IS ANOTHER AMP NEAR.

WHAT CAN BE DONE BY LIARS:

NONE OF IT WAS TRUE, BUT IT STILL,    

CAUSES ME TO COLLAPSE IN FEAR. 

 

TALES OF OLD VANCOUVER

SOMEHOW I KNEW WHAT I WAS DOING:

I HAPPILY DID ALL OF WHAT I COULD.

I was thinking of what Vancouver was like when I lived there and when I returned to pursue Art, Music and Writing. There were a lot of really cool things going on.

I was there for the Seventies; I had the Advanced Method jewelry Manufacturing  downtown and the Burr House in Delta  the last half of the Decade. I returned when I could until the later nineties when it was no longer possible at all.

THE ASSIDUOUS PURSUIT OF ART, MUSIC AND WRITING EMPLOYMENT WAS CHARACTERIZED AS INSANE AND THUS COULD POSE A RISK AND BE DANGEROUS: "PLEASE MR POLICEMAN CRUSH MY HUSBAND'S PRETENSIONS TO BEING AN ARTISAN,ARTIST, WRITER AND MUSICIAN, HE'S CRAZY".

ONE MIGHT TAKE A LOOK AT THE ART, MUSIC AND WRITING AT LINDONCOLLARD.com, blogspot or on You Tube.

It is well known that recovery from injury and brain injury and childhood abuse trauma is facilitated by Art and Music. Being in the familiar happy places helps to heal and reactivate the mind.

HOW COULD PEOPLE WITH NOTHING TO LOSE BY MY DOING MY THING FEEL THEY HAD TO INTERVENE AND BRING MY HAPPY RESTORATIVE TIME TO AN END.

"I AM GOING TO WIPE THE SMILE OFF YOUR FACE" SAID MY EX WIFE AND SHE REACHED OUT TO THE POLICE TO SAY I WAS DISCONTENTED AND DANGEROUS.

WRITING, MUSIC COMPOSITION AND PERFORMANCE WERE CHARACTERIZED AS "HUBRIS" OR EGOMANIA WHEN WHAT IT WAS IS CARPING CRITICS FELT SMALL AND UN-CREATIVE SO THEY WERE ANGRY AT ME.

ALL I HAVE HAD TO WRITE ABOUT IS THE EXCEEDINGLY DIMINISHED EXPERIENCE THAT THE WOMEN WANTED AGAINST ME.

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Lindon Collard Thu, Mar 25, 4:21 PM "Crazy Not Insane" by Dorothy O. Lewis is about the creation of Serial Killers and Psychotic Killers through physical injury and other maltreatment or mistreatm Lindon Collard Thu, Mar 25, 4:50 PM Documentary on HBO " Crazy not Insane". Lindon Collard <lindoncollard@gmail.com> Thu, Mar 25, 4:55 PM to redlinenorton View. Documentary on HBO " Crazy not Insane". "Crazy Not Insane" by Dorothy O. Lewis is about the creation of Serial Killers and Psychotic Killers  through physical injury and other maltreatment or mistreatment during childhood. New, sometimes psychotic, alternate entity persons are created to escape the maltreatment.    I definitely attended Mother Collard's Serial Killer School with high impact and pain treatment. The documentary states that shaking children, slamming them into objects or striking their heads with  anything causes brain damage in children. ( I wonder, what about contact sports?) I have at least one alternate personality or reality and it is virtually paralyzed and collapsed. That was what would happen when I was pulled to the left then right and thrown down by my hair and  jumped on by my Mother. That would crush the breath out of me.I would collapse, gasping. She struck  for no reason and without warning with brooms and steel edged yardsticks. I remember the sound of the  steel edge cutting through my hair as she struck my skull, and the taste of blood in my mouth. My left  arm has steel edge grooves all over it.  When we are subjected to similar maltreatment as we experienced in childhood the obnoxious claim is  made that we brought it on ourselves, it is claimed that we mated with persons alike to our abusers, as  if we were stupidly so attracted. My siblings and my wife fell in love with the abuse still being perpetrated againdt me by my mother when I was an adult my siblings and the women who married into the Collard Family continued the stealing crimes which women do, men rape, women steal, and they lie and lie to use the "Big Beaters", POLICE.   ONE OF MY FIRST MEMORIES IS OF LAYING THERE MY CHEST LOCKED AND SHUDDERING AS  I TRIED TO BREATHE AT 2737 ALLARD, I WAS FOUR AT THE TIME. The documentary on HBO stated that personality change created during childhood trauma will manifest  then and later with personality, writing, voice and facial appearance changes. I wrote several songs about Ann's personality changes and I wrote about her assuming a "little girl" voice. She could withdraw into cigarettes and alcohol. She exhibited changing spelling.   Some personality changed individuals are not collapsed but active and dangerous. There is a report of  another personality changing person who would sleep after his macabre acts were accomplished. I have the sleep syndrome severely, sleeping deeply several times a day and right after a live performance,  creating a cartoon, or accomplishing a  drive to Victoria, or in the past to the Ferry or from it into  Vancouver.  I detailed a plethora of accurate and truthful recountations of events, statements and what the results  and symptoms were. I put it into writing, animation and musical performance and what do you know, the data driven Art fits right in with the HBO Documentary and my subsequent research. Like I said " Those who witness child beating of a sibling fall in love with that beater and that beating" and the mates, associates and adversaries of persons terrorized and injured as children FALL IN LOVE WITH HANDING OUT MORE PUNISHMENT, HATRED AND PHYSICAL INJURY.  Brain injured abused persons do not, all of them, collapse like I do. Do reprisers of child maltreatment trigger attacks on themselves, or worse, trigger attacks upon innocent person