I AM ALWAYS ON THE VERGE OF COLLAPSE. I HAVE TO SUPPORT MYSELF ON SOMETHING ALMOST ANY TIME I AM ON MY FEET. EVEN THE TWO MINUTES WHICH ARE ALL I CAN DO OFTEN ARE SUPPORTED.

I HAVE TO SUPPORT MYSELF ON SOMETHING EVEN WHEN I AM STANDING IN MY HOME. I CAN MAKE SHORT RUNS FOR A FEW SECONDS TO FEED BIRDS OR THE CATS BUT I HAVE TO LEAN ON SOMETHING TO COOK OR WASH DISHES.

From my Microsoft documents file:

Apage on how I feel May 27 2025:

I have been keeping a paper diary with many entries daily.

I will note here what I will write in DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED.

WHY WOULD I COLLAPSE WHEN CONFRONTED OR IN THE SAME SITUATION WHERE I COLLAPSED   PREVIOUSLY OR IN THE PRESECNCE OF THOSE PERSONS?

I AM ALMOST ALWAYS ON THE VERGE OF COLLAPSING, BARELY ABLE TO STAND. AROUND THE HOUSE I AM ALWAYS SUPPORTING MYSELF ON SOMETHING.

I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO RECOVER FROM HEAD, NECK AND SPINAL INJURY. I KNOW NOW THAT I HAD THE CORRECT METHODOLOGY TO EFFECT RECOVERY FROM THE PHYSICAL AND THE PSYCHOLOGICAL INJURIES CAUSED BY THE ACCIDENTS AND THE BAD TREATMENT I WAS SUBJECTED TO.

EVERYTHING WAS CONTROLLED BY WOMEN, MY MOTHER, MY WIFE, MY SISTER IN LAW EXERTED A RELENTLESS UNEDUCATED RESISTANCE AGAINST THINGS THAT WERE NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS AND THAT THEY KNEW NOTHING ABOUT EXCEPT TO OPPOSE WHAT OTHER PERSONS WERE DOING.

THE MAD POSTURING ASSUMED BY THE WOMEN AND WHICH THEIR WIMPED OUT SLAVE MEN SUPPORTED NEVER HAD A PRODUCTIVE END PRODUCT. CERTAINLY THEY SUCKED OUT SOME MONEY FOR THEMSELVES IN SOME CASES BUT THERE WAS ALWAYS A NET LOSS FOR EVERYONE ELSE AND ESPECIALLY FOR WHOMSOEVER THEY WERE CONTROLLING.

MODERN DAY MEDICINE NOW PUBLISHES THAT MUSIC, DANCE AND CREATIVITY, COMPANIONSHIP AND RELAXATION AND A FEELING OF SECURITY ARE ESSENTIAL TO RECOVERY, IN PARTICULAR FROM TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY EPILEPSY.

THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMEN'S CRIMINAL GANG WAS OPPOSED TO A PLEASANT RECOVERY FROM INJURY. THEY THOUGHT THAT STEALING MONEY AND PUTTING PRESSURE ON ME, A DISABLED PERSON WAS THE WAY TO FORCE A MAN TO RECOVER AND GET BACK TO BEING A SLAVE FOR THEM.

I KNOW THAT I WILL COLLAPSE IF I GO TO THE ROCKLIFFE OR SEE MY ABUSERS OF ANY SORT OR WHEN I SEE HOW MY PROPERTY WAS STRIPPED OF SOIL AND TREES AND THE HOUSE IN A HOLE WITH A DITCH OUT FRONT

AM I COLLAPSED OR VIRTUALLY PARALYZED MOST OF THE TIME HERE AT OTTER POINT BECAUSE MY HOME HAS BEEN TURNED INTO A COLLAPSE ZONE BY THE TRESPASSING, VANDALISM AND THE THIRTY THREE RAIDS THERE WERE HERE?

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It was ten years ago when I collapsed as I went to inspect the Rockcliffe Apartments. I heard the hall pressurizer malfunctioning and alarmed, I had a back spasm but I did not go down. I headed to my car and in the parking lot I had a repeat of my 2001 left side collapse bending and folding my left leg and left knee, so the knee was injured and my back was twisted and spasming.

A MULTI BLOG POST FROM LINDON COLLARD TOTAL RECALL. THERE SHOULD BE COMPENSATION FOR DISABLING INJURY WHICH LASTS AS LONG AS THE DISABILITY OR INJURY PERSISTS.

Thursday, May 1, 2025

THE PERMANENT NATURE OF INJURY, UNJUST TREATMENT AND THE LOSS OF WHAT I WAS WORKING AT.

I MIGHT HAVE A MORE FREQUENT RECALL THAN OTHER PEOPLE DO OF WHAT MADE ME LIMP OR OR CAUSED FUGUE, CONVULSION OR COLLAPSE BECAUSE IT COMES TO MIND DUE TO ASSOCIATION WITHIN MY TOTAL RECALL MEMORY. 

EVEN THE NOT PHYSICAL LOSS OF MY PROSPECTS OR PROJECTS OR WHERE I HAD WORKED LINGERS, SURFACING IN MY THOUGHTS, BROUGHT BACK BY SIMILAR EVENTS OR ASSOCIATIVE FACTORS.

THE HYPER ALERTNESS I ADAPTED TO SO I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISED BY POLICE ON MY PROPERTY OR TRYING TO BREAK INTO OR IN MY HOME ROUSTS ME EVERY TIME I HEAR A SUSPICIOUS NOISE WHICH SEEMS TO BE NEAR MY HOUSE OR IN THE DRIVEWAY. THE EFFECT OF THE FAKE 911 CALLS AND THE POLICE RAIDS NEVER GOES AWAY. 

THE NEVER ENDING EFFECT OF SOME PHYSICAL INJURIES IS THE WORST ASPECT OF LINGERING INJURY WHICH COMES TO MIND WHEN I WAKE UP OR TRY TO ACCOMPLISH A TASK OR TO DO MY, NOW IN HIATUS, MUSIC PRACTICE.

CLICK ON THE ARROW TO VIEW AND HEAR "DARK IMAGININGS". THIS A LIVE UNCUT VIDEO OF A SONG DONE IN A MUSIC PRACTICE.