Disabled not compensated means that the minute I am smashed in an accident I stop all productive activity. There has to be an alternative pay day when all of yours are terminated by injury.
I WORKED AT THE CNR BUT I ALSO DID ART AND WRITING AND I PLAYED HARMONICA AND GUITAR.
I NEEDED MY AFFLAC OUT OF WORK INSURANCE TO CONTINUE TO SUPPORT MUSIC AND ART. WITHOUT IT LIFE WAS EXTREMELY TAXING PHYSICALLY. IT WAS HARD TO DO A LOT OF WORK THAT WAS NOT ACCOMPLISHED SEATED.
I NEEDED MY INSURANCE PAY
THERE WAS A LOUD KNOCKING ON A DOOR. I SPASMED INTO A REVERSE ARCH. MY LEFT LEG TWISTED. I FELL ASLEEP REPEATEDLY IN THE FOLLOWING HOURS.
I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS THE SAMSUNG R5 SOUND BAR. I THOUGHT IT WAS REAL.
I HAVE SPECULATED ABOUT WHY I MIGHT HAVE BECOME MORE DISABLED WITHOUT INJURING MYSELF. THE REAL ARRIVAL OF POLICE, OR THE THREAT OF THE CREATION OF THAT, HAS CAUSED ME TO COLLAPSE IN THE PAST.
THIS LEADS BACK TO CHILDHOOD ASSAULTS BY MY MOTHER, WHERE I WAS WRENCHED DOWN TO THE GROUND BY MY HAIR, BENDING MY BACK INTO A REVERSE ARCH, TWISTING MY NECK AND COLLAPSING MY LEFT LEG TO DO IT.
I STILL HAVE THE SAME REACTION WHEN I THINK I HAVE THE POLICE TRYING TO GET INTO MY HOUSE AND AT ME.
PAUL WHELAN SAID THE MOST TERRIFYING PART OF STATE OPPRESSION WAS WAITING FOR THE RUSSIAN POLICE TO ARRIVE.
I WILL HAVE TO OBSERVE WHAT IS GOING ON EVERY TIME I HEAR SOUNDS IN MY DRIVEWAY. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOW AND I HAVE MEMORIES OF LOOKING OUT TO SEE THAT THE POLICE WERE HERE.
I STRUGGLE TO JUST KEEP UP WITH BASIC HOUSEHOLD MAINTENANCE AND TO DO MY DISHES AND ALL OF MY YEAR'S LAUNDRY IN THE SUMMER. I ALSO GROW A SELF SUPPLY, BUT THAT IS IT. I CAN DO NO MORE BETWEEN BOUTS OF HAVING TO LAY DOWN.
TODAY IS WORSE THAN THAT. POSSIBLY BECAUSE I WORKED LATELY AT MY SELF SUPPLY I AM SO PARALYZED TODAY THAT I CAN NOT EVEN SO MY DISHES.
I DO NOT THINK ANYONE, NOT EVEN DOCTORS, REALLY BELIEVES ME WHEN I SAY "I AM VIRTUALLY PARALYZED."
I FORCED MYSELF TO DO MY SLASH THREE DAYS AGO AND I AM GOING THROUGH THAT FOUR DAYS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AFTER AN HOUR AND FORTY MINUTES OF WORK. I HAVE DONE NOTHING ELSE TO CAUSE THIS SITUATION WHERE IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE TO MOVE NOR TO GO ANYWHERE.
THIS IS WHAT DISABLED AS I AM IS LIKE, I JUST CANNOT DO ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR A FEW THINGS LIKE SITTING TYPING, BUT NOTHING FOR VERY LONG. ALMOST ALL OF THE JOBS I NEED TO GET DONE ARE TOO ARDUOUS OR THEY TAKE TOO LONG.
TUA TAGAVALOVA SUFFERS FROM ANOTHER CONCUSSION AND MEDICAL EXPERTS ARE MORE CONCERNED ABOUT HIS CONTINUED WELL BEING THAN BEFORE.
I, EACH TIME I SUFFERED AN ADDITIONAL CONCUSSION, WAS DEMONIZED AND ATTACKED AS IF I WAS FAKING INJURY.
I WAS HIT ON MY HEAD WITH BROOMS AND A STEEL EDGED YARD STICK HUNDREDS OF TIMES AS A CHILD.
I HAD A HAMMER, FALLING EIGHTY FEET STRIKE ME ON MY HARD HAT COVERED HEAD IN 1963.
I WAS THROWN ONTO MY HELMET PROTECTED HEAD; I WAS STRUCK ON MY MOTORCYCLE BY A LEFT TURNING CAR IN VANCOUVER IN 1967.
I WAS SMASHED INTO THE ROOF AND THE WINDSCREEN IN A MOTOR VEHICLE CRASH AS A PASSENGER IN 1970.
I WAS PROPELLED INTO A STEEL POLE BY A LEFT TURNING CAR IN 1986 WHICH CAUSED A SEVERE HEAD INJURY AGAIN.
I WAS CRASHED INTO BY A PICKUP TRUCK WHICH WAS ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD IN 1997 WHERE I WAS UNCONSCIOUS AFTER THE COLLISION.
I HAD MY CAR LIFTED UP BY A J-HOOKING 94 PASSENGER BUS AND THE CAR WAS DROPPED ONTO MY HEAD IN DOWNTOWN VICTORIA IN 1998.
I SUFFERED FROM MORE HEAD INJURY WHEN I COLLAPSED WHILE BEING ASSAULTED BY OVERWHELMING MOBS OR ERRING LAW OFFICERS AT MY HOME FROM 2001 TO 2016. THE COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION CAUSED A SHOCK WAVE TO TRAVEL UP TO MY HEAD, KNOCKING MY TEETH OUT FROM THE SEVERITY OF THE BLOW AS MY JAW CRASHED SHUT.
THERE NOT ANY UNDERSTANDING NOR RECOGNITION OF HOW SERIOUS AND DEBILITATING THE REPEATED CONCUSSIONS WERE.
I WAKE MOST MORNINGS WITH MY LEFT HAND CLENCHED LIKE TUA TAGOVIAILOVA HAND IS WHICH WAS DECLARED TO BE A SYMPTOM OF A CONCUSSION INJURY.
Tuesday, December 27, 2022
TUA TAGOVAILOVA HAS SUFFERED ANOTHER HEAD INJURY
THE NEWS IS THAT THIS HEAD INJURY ON TOP OF PREVIOUS HEAD INJURY IS VERY BAD.
WHEN I WAS INJURED TWICE ON TWO OCCASIONS I WAS DEMONIZED BY INSURANCE COMPANY AGENTS AND INSURANCE COMPANY LAWYERS.
INSTEAD OF OFFERING INCREASED CARE, THE INSURANCE COMPANY'S AGENTS AGGRESSIVELY FOUGHT THE FACTS WITH DISBELIEF.THEY ALSO DECLARED THAT I WAS TOO DANGEROUS TO DEAL WITH AND THEREFORE THEY WOULD NOT HAVE TO COMPENSATE ME. ADDITIONALLY THE INSURANCE COMMUNITY HAD NO REGARD FOR THE YEARS OF EFFORT I HAD PUT INTO UNIVERSITY AND WORK AND THE SKILLS I HAD ACQUIRED NOR THE SKILLS I HAD ACQUIRED IN THE PURSUIT OF MY MUSIC CAREER AND IN DOING MY WRITING.
THERE IS VIDEO OF TUA TAGOVAILOVA "STUMBLING" AFTER HIS RECENT HEAD OR BRAIN STEM INJURY.
AS TUA TRIES TO WALK OFF THE FIELD, HE STARTS TO NOT BE ABLE TO PROPERLY LIFT HIS LEGS. THEN LACKING SUPPORT OR LEG CONTROL? HE PITCHES FORWARD.
THE NEAR COLLAPSE AND THE COLLAPSES HE HAS SUFFERED ARE VERY SIMILAR TO HOW I HAVE COLLAPSED A NUMBER OF TIMES.
HERE IS ANOTHER SIMILARITY:
I REMEMBER AFTER MY 1998 ACCIDENT THAT I HAD TO TWIST MY LEGS AND MY BACK TO SIT. MY GIRLFRIEND DID NOT THINK I WAS INJURED BUT I WAS BECOMING "FLAWED" AND SHE DUMPED ME. TAGOVAILOVA HAS A "HAND AND ARM" POSTURING WHICH IS SIMILAR TO MY LEG CONTORTION.
SINGING, PLAYING KEYBOARD, OPERATING THE KURZWEIL K2000.
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Wednesday, May 10, 2023
"THEY FEEL POWERLESS SO THEY CREATE CHAOS". Dark Imaginings Live performance by Lindon Collard demands freedom from the fabrications and constraints of people who create chaos.
THE PERSISTENCE OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND THE INTENSITY OF ITS EFFECT TOOK A LONG TIME TO RECOVER FROM IN THE PAST AFTER I HAD A PHYSICAL INJURY.
I HAVE ALSO HAD EPISODES OF COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION INJURY WHICH WOULD ALSO EVENTUALLY TURN OUT TO BECOME VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.
THE NOT COMPENSATED PART OF THESE EPISODES CAUSED ENDURING FINANCIAL DAMAGE, I NEVER CAUGHT UP FOR THE TIME I COULD NOT WORK DUE TO VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.
IN THE PAST I WAS PARALYZED IN 1968. I WAS INTERMITTENTLY PARALYZED FROM 1970 TO 1977 WHEN I HAD ONE OF MY BEST RECOVERIES, I WAS ABLE TO WORK AT MY JEWELRY FACTORY, ON THE ORIGINAL HOUSE HERE AT OTTER POINT, AS A VOLVO SALESMAN, AND THEN LONG HOURS AT CHOCOLATE AND VANILLA. IN DECEMBER OF 1986 I WAS IN A MOTOR VEHICLE WHICH DID NOT CAUSE PARALYSIS BUT WHICH CAUSED DISSOCIATIVE AMNESIA AND FUGUE. I ALSO WAS NOT ABLE TO BICYCLE EVER AGAIN. I WOULD EXPERIENCE A REVERSE BACK ARCH SPASM WHENEVER I TRIED.
I EMERGED FROM AMNESIA AND FUGUE BRIEFLY IN 1990 AND I RELAPSED UNTIL EARLY 1992 AFTER WHICH I DO NOT RECALL HAVING FUGUE NOR AMNESIA.
I COLLAPSED IN 1993. I LIVED HERE ALONE. MY EX LUNGED AT MY EYES AND ACCUSED ME OF COCAINE SELLING AND I WAS AGAIN SUBJECT TO VIRTUAL PARALYSIS. ( I HAD THOUGHT I SLIPPED ON POP BOTTLES TO BE RECYCLED, THAT BECAME FRICTIONLESS ROLLERS, BUT IT WAS A COLLAPSE.) I REMEMBER LAYING IN BED AND NOT BEING ABLE TO TYPE OR TO READ MORE THAN A FEW WORDS.
THEN I WAS SENT AROUND IN CHAINS BY THE FRAUD AND MANIPULATION OF THE LAWYER FRITZ VERHOOVEN AND SOOKE RCMP CORPORAL HAL ZEIKE. I WAS VERY COLD AND LEFT CHAINED UP IN AN UNHEATED UNVENTILATED SHERIFF VANLAYING ON THE FLOOR IN OCTOBER OF 1996. I, SELF REPRESENTED, PROVED THAT THE LAWYER'S COMPLAINT WAS FALSE, I WAS NOT CONVICTED, I DID NOT GET TO HAVE SOOKE RCMP CORPORAL HAL ZEIKE NOR THE LAWYER FRITZ VERHOOVEN HELD RESPONSIBLE. THE IMPOSITION OF POWERLESSNESS ON A DISABLED PERSON CAUSES FUGUE, VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND COLLAPSE.
LATELY I COLLAPSE OR CONVULSE WHENEVER ANY CONFRONTATION WOULD OCCUR OR EVEN WHEN I RE-VISITED THE SITE OF PAST COLLAPSES. CONVULSION CAN BE AS SIMPLE AS CHEST CONSTRICTION BUT BREATHING AND SPEAKING COULD BE VERY DIFFICULT DURING A CHEST LOCK-UP.
I NEVER RECOVERED FROM THE MOB AT MY ROCKCLIFFE COLLAPSE COUPLED WITH BEING SURROUNDED IN THE BC SUPREME COURT.
MY CHEST WOULD FREEZE UP AND MY BACK WOULD ARCH IF I TRIED TO GO TO A COURT HOUSE, AND THEN I HAD THE SAME SYMPTOM IF I TRIED TO DO MY USUAL ROLLERBLADING.
IT IS NOW 2024. I COLLAPSED AT THE ROCKCLIFFE IN 2015, OUT HERE AT OTTER POINT IN FEBRUARY 2016 AND I HAD A CONVULSION LATER, IN JUNE.
I HAD A CONVULSION PASSING THE ROCKCLIFFE IN 2019 OR THERABOUTS AND I FELL IN THE DITCH (DUG TO RUIN MY LAND) ABOUT 2 OR 2 1/2 YEARS AGO AND I AM REALLY BADLY PARALYZED TODAY, WEDGED UNDER THE DESK SHELF AND HOLDING MYSELF UP ON THE ARMS OF MY CHAIR AND I CAN'T KEEP ON GOING. I WILL LAY FLAT RIGHT AWAY.
I RECOVERED TO VARYING EXTENTS THROUGHOUT THE SIXTY YEARS I HAVE BEEN DISABLED. FAMILY MEMBERS OBJECTED TO NEARLY EVERY ACTIVITY WHICH I TOOK UP WHETHER I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED OR WHEN I WAS ABLE TO BE ACTIVE, WORKING AT MY JEWELRY FACTORY OR PLAYING MY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS OR DANCING LIVE ON STAGE OR IN CLUBS.
I WAS GREGARIOUS EVEN WHEN I WAS VIRTUALLY PARALYZED AND CONFINED TO MY HOME. MY FAMILY MEMBERS DID NOT LIKE THIS. "KEEP LINDON AWAY FROM HIS FRIENDS" SAID MY EX WIFE FOR INSTANCE."LINDON NEEDS PEOPLE".
THIS WAS TO BE MY PERMANENT RENTAL HOME. I WAS DEFRAUDED OF IT AND I NEVER SAW MY FRIENDS AGAIN. MY EX-WIFE WAS OUT TO DESTROY WHAT WAS ALREADY GONE. SHE PHONED ANY OF MY FRIENDS SHE COULD REACH AND UNNECESSARILY DEFAMED ME.
WHEN I RECOVERED TO THE EXTENT THAT I COULD PERFORM LIVE MUSIC ON HARMONICA MY BROTHER SAID " WHO WANTS THEIR BROTHER PRANCING AROUND ON STAGE PLAYING HARMONICA", FOR INSTANCE.
UPON RECOVERING TO THE POINT WHERE I COULD PERFORM ON HARMONICA AND DANCE OR QUAD OR ROLLERBLADE, AND THAT WAS INTERMITTENT AND LIMITED, THE ACHIEVEMENT WAS NOT RECOGNIZED.
THIS IS NOT A PICTURE OF MYSELF, LINDON COLLARD, BUT IT LOOKS VERY SIMILAR TO ME PERFORMING.
I WOULD SAY I HAD BEEN DISABLED SINCE 1970 AND IN RESPONSE I WOULD BE CHALLENGED BY ANY PHYSICAL ABILITY I HAD MANAGED TO RE-INSTITUTE OF MY FORMER ACTIVITIES.
MANY ACTIVITIES WHICH I HAD ENJOYED OR WHICH I HAD WORKED AT PROGRESSIVELY BECAME NO LONGER POSSIBLE FOR ME TO ACCOMPLISH BUT NO ONE EVER PAYS ANY ATTENTION TO THAT. I WOULD BE CHALLENGED AS TO WHY I WAS NO LONGER DOING SOMETHING AS IF IT WAS A WILLFUL OR WEAK OR DELINQUENT RESPONSE.
THE CAUSE OF THE ABANDONMENT OF ACTIVITIES IS THE DISABILITY I SUFFER.
I NEVER WILLINGLY GIVE UP ANYTHING I DO AS THERE IS NOT A WHOLE LOT OF CHOICE OF ACTIVITY, PARTICULARLY NOW, BUT I HAVE BEEN SIMILARLY VIRTUALLY PARALYZED IN THE PAST.
I was sitting in the driveway in a 20 year old smashed up 1967 Buick. For some reason I smiled as I prepared to drive to Vancouver. I would have to sell several ounces of Marijuana and I would not get any money for myself. I was drowning in payments.
My ex-wife, who had created all of the debt with nothing to show for it came out of the house clutching two kids, she hissed: "YOU ARE ALL SMILING AND HAPPY AND I AM NOT. I AM GOING TO WIPE THE SMILE OFF OF YOUR FACE".
MY FAMILY MEMBERS HAD A LOT MORE DISPARAGING AND IRRATIONAL COMMENTS ABOUT MY ACTIVITIES WHICH WERE NECESSARY TO ACHIEVE AND MAINTAIN MY RECOVERY AND TO TRY TO BE ABLE TO BE GAINFULLY EMPLOYED FROM ACCUSATIONS OF BEING CAPABLE OF VIOLENCE OR BEING CRAZY. "HE'S CRAZY" SAID MY WIFE "HE THINKS HE IS GOING TO BE A ROCK STAR".
I PRACTICED AT HARMONICA EVEN WHEN I HAD TO DO IT LAYING DOWN.
I ALSO PRACTICED GUITAR, VOCALS AND KEYBOARD UNTIL I WAS SEVENTY FIVE ON A DAILY BASIS. I FELL INTO THE TERRIBLE DITCH THE REDNECKS DUG TO RUIN MY PROPERTY TWO YEARS AGO AND I BECAME UNABLE TO PRACTICE. I WAS HAVING A HARD TIME FOR THE LAST EIGHT YEARS SINCE I COLLAPSED DURING A FAKE 911 RAID, BUT I DID SOME PRACTICE AS IT IS DETAILED IN MY DAILY DIARY, DOCUMENTED IN COPYBOOKS.
IN ADDITION TO MY FAMILIAL THEFT AND DEFAMATION, THERE IS ANOTHER SCAPEGOATING AND NEWCOMER HATING COMPONENT TO MY CONTINUING DISABILITY AND ANGUISH.
A HUGE HOLE AND A LONG WIDE DITCH MADE MY ORIGINALLY FLAT AND GENTLY SLOPING MEADOW INTO AN IMPOSSIBLE OR VERY DIFFICULT PLACE TO GET AROUND ON FOR A DISABLED PERSON WITH MY INSTABILITY.
THE DITCH IS HARD TO SEE.
Looking up out of the ditch at the bank with my bus on it.
THE HOLE IS A BIT EASIER TO SEE.
THIS IS WHAT MY MEADOW LOOKED LIKE WHEN I BOUGHT THE PROPERTY AT OTTER POINT IN 1979.
MY OTHER PROPERTY IN VICTORIA BC
IT IS NUCLEAR WINTER FOR ME AT THE ROCKLIFFE.
I AM FROZEN OUT, LEFT WITH NOTHING OF MY PERSONAL WILL
WAS MADE INTO ANOTHER DANGEROUS PLACE FOR A DISABLED PERSON. I WILL COLLAPSE IF I AM TERRORIZED BY AN UNFRIENDLY GROUP OF PEOPLE ON MY PROPERTY OR IN A HEARING. I NEVER WENT ON TO THE PROPERTY OF THE ALF TOONE COOP BUT THEY CALLED POLICE TWENTY SEVEN TIMES TO MY MOSTLY RENTED OUT TWENTY FIVE SUITE RESIDENTIAL COMPLEX AND THEY EVEN SENT POLICE OUT HERE TO MY HOME AT OTTER POINT FIFTY KILOMETERS AWAY.
You are perceptive. What caused grief for me is that
my brother, sister, sister in law and my wife met with
my mother and on several occasions impoverished me and defamed me. If only I could be in terrible straits, it would be so good for me. I would "not have tried hard enough" if I had received the inheritances from my paternal grandfather on my eighteenth birthday (when I was going to purchase a eleven room hotel with a lounge and a cafeteria/dance hall in Fredericton NB where I had attended University for several years) and my childless uncle Albert when I was thirty five. (His home, acre and one million dollars) which was accomplished by stealing my mail and then forging a new will. I found out years later.
They also got together and substantially diminished other inheritances I had. I was also forced to make payments for sixteen years to pay for money of mine they lent to my wife (for her business) and then they took more money when my father left me money.
I am an artist, writer, musician, composer and performer which is evidenced by my blogs, videos and cartoons on blogspot and on You Tube. I was competent on stage for twenty five years, nineteen seventy to nineteen ninety five.
Police tried forty times to provoke me or convict me of something, raiding my home and even laying bogus charges against me. Fortunately I do Live Law as well as Live Music and I defeated most of the charges personally and two charges using Peter Firestone, an eminent BC lawyer. All of the charges claimed I was harassing persons by making lawful complaints about their unlawful actions, always when I was on my own property. I never went to their property, not ever. I was advised to respond only from my own property or in hearings by my lawyers.
I also wrote the writs and attempted to progress a British Columbia Supreme Court civil action over "Prevarication and Collusion". Dates were set for hearings and then moved up without notifying me.
Unfortunately the response of Police was to " find anything to charge Lindon Collard with" and to try to seize my home for my wife and her lawyer to sell including "prepare your musical instruments for sale". I was terrified; I could not leave my home lest Police By-Law and Sheriffs arrived again when I was not home. They would have prevented my re-entry.
THIS IS FROM AN EARLIER BLOG POST, WITH A FEW ADDITIONAL STATEMENTS:
TRIXIE DASHEVSKY, AKA BETTY COLLARD WAS NOT SATISFIED. DESPITE HAVING SPENT OR TAKEN ALL OF MY MONEY AND PUTTING ME IN DEBT. WHEN I WAS IN ENGLAND SEEKING MUSICAL EMPLOYMENT SHE GOT RCMP, CRD, AND BAILIFFS OR SHERIFFS TO TRY TO SEIZE MY HOME, SAYING IT WAS ABANDONED, BUT MY GIRLFRIEND ANN AND A FRIEND OF HERS WERE AT OTTER POINT HOUSE AND THE AUTHORITIES LEFT.
ON SEPARATE OCCASIONS A POLICE OFFICER AND A BY-LAW OFFICER UTTERED THE IDENTICAL STATEMENT :"WE ARE A 24/7 OPERATION WE ARE COMING ANYTIME WE HAVE TO". IT MUST HAVE BEEN LOCAL ENFORCEMENT POLICY TO TERRIFY AND INTIMIDATE PEOPLE AT THEIR OWN HOMES.
WHEN YOU SO NOT KNOW WHEN THE POLICE ARE COMING, ANYTIME, IT IS HARD TO HAVE A RESTFUL SLEEP OR EVEN TO RELAX AT HOME.
THIS EVENT MADE IT IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ANYONE HOUSE SIT SO I COULD NOT LEAVE. HAVING ALL THOSE ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS WORKING TO SEIZE MY HOME FOR MY EX-WIFE CAUSED ME TO BE TERRORIZED AND I LOST THE CONFIDENCE NECESSARY TO LEAVE HOME AND TO TRAVEL AT ALL TO PERFORM LIVE MUSIC.
I was sitting in the driveway in a 20 year old smashed up 1967 Buick.
ReplyDeleteFor some reason I smiled as I prepared to drive to Vancouver.
I would have to sell several ounces of Marijuana and I would not get any money for myself. I was drowning in payments.
My ex-wife, who had created all of the debt with nothing to show for it came out of the house clutching two kids, she hissed: "YOU ARE ALL SMILING AND HAPPY AND I AM NOT. I AM GOING TO WIPE THE SMILE OFF OF YOUR FACE".