I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT I COULD GO TO MY APARTMENT BUILDING WITHOUT COLLAPSING, THAT IT WAS AN ISSUE OF "MIND OVER MATTER". THAT IS NOT SO, COLLAPSE OR TONIC IMMOBILITY ARE INVOLUNTARY AND NOT CONTROLLABLE.

I JUST RECALLED "COLLAPSE". IT FEELS LIKE EXTREME SLIPPERINESS HAS BEEN ENCOUNTERED OR THE DIFFERENT FEELING, LIKE WATER IS SWEEPING ME AWAY OR A PUSHED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BACK FEELING.

I COLLAPSED A NUMBER OF TIMES WITHOUT REALIZING WHAT HAPPENED.

I ASSUMED THAT I HAD SLIPPED OR STUMBLED AND I REMEMBER THAT DECADES AGO I HAD FOUND MYSELF LAYING ON MY LEFT SIDE ON THE LAWN AND I DID NOT RECOLLECT ANYTHING ABOUT HOW I GOT THERE.

IN 2001 I WAS FULLY AWARE OF COLLAPSING DOWN MY LEFT SIDE AND INJURING MY KNEE AND MY MID BACK.

IN THE LIGHT OF THIS EXPERIENCE I WAS ABLE TO RECALL PREVIOUS FALL SITUATIONS OR WHEN I COLLAPSED BUT I REMAINED SQUATTED DOWN BUT I WAS STILL ON ONE OR BOTH FEET.

Synonyms of collapse

intransitive verb

1

: to fall or shrink together abruptly and completely : fall into a jumbled or flattened mass through the force of external pressure

2

: to break down completely : DISINTEGRATE

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3

: to cave or fall in or give way

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4

: to suddenly lose force, significance, effectiveness.

5

: to break down in vital energy, stamina, or self-control.

especially : to fall helpless.

6

: to fold down into a more compact shape

Signs that it’s a seizure

The doctor will suspect seizure if you have:

• a sense of déjà vu before collapsing
• major shaking as soon as you collapse
• blood in your mouth or confusion after collapsing.

THE SENSE OF DEJA VU IS SOMETHING I HAVE EXPERIENCED.

I HAVE ALSO TASTED THE "METALLIC" TASTE IN MY MOUTH.

I HAVE BEEN PSYCHOLOGICALLY AND PERCEPTUALLY IMPACTED.

I HAVE ALSO BEEN PHYSICALLY IMPACTED, PARALYZED.

MY RIBS ARE STILL IMPACTED TWENTY FIVE YEARS LATER.

MY BROTHER ANDREW HIT ME WITH A TEN FINGER TAI CHI BLOW AFTER HE TORE UP MY LAWN WITH HIS TRUCK AND KICKED HENRY DOG. HE WAS ANGRY I HAD DISCOVERED HE AND HIS CO- CONSPIRATORS HAD STOLEN THE HOUSE AND THE ORIGINALLY ONE MILLION DOLLARS MY UNCLE ALBERT HAD WILLED TO ME. THEY STOLE MY MAIL AND THE SAME THING WAS DONE, MAIL THEFT AND HIDE THE INHERITANCE FROM ME. HE SAID IT WOULD BE BAD FOR ME TO INHERIT MONEY, HE AND MY MOTHER THOUGHT I WOULD NOT TRY HARD ENOUGH IF I KNEW. THEY SIMILARLY CUT MY INHERITANCE FROM MY AUNT ANNETTE IN HALF. 

WHEN I FOUND OUT I LEFT TWO PHONE MESSAGES. HE WAS NOT ANSWERING HIS PHONE. HE KNEW HE WAS GUILTY.

HE CAME TO MY HOUSE STRUCK ME AND HE SAID HE WOULD TELL THE POLICE THAT I WAS HARASSING HIM.

OPEN AND PLAY THE VIDEO CLICK ON THE ICON ON THE TOP LEFT TO ENTER THE CHANNEL AND VIEW A FEW OF MY MUSIC VIDEOS. THERE ARE MANY MORE, FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFTY VIDEOS.

I NEVER PLAYED HARMONICA ON STAGE AGAIN. MY RIBS STILL SHAKE AND SPASM OCCASIONALLY. I NEVER PERFORMED LIVE ON ANY STAGE AGAIN AS I HAD PREVIOUS TO THE FREEZING CHAINED UP IN A SHERIFF VAN AND THE INJURIES I SUFFERED FROM MOTOR VEHICLE CRASHES AND COLLAPSES AND CONVULSION. I CANNOT PLAY ANY OF MY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS NOW IN 2025.

DO PEOPLE WHO DENY THAT I AM DISABLED THROUGH THE STATEMENTS THEY MAKE ABOUT MY SEVERE DISABLING COLLAPSE, CONVULSION AND VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND ABOUT WHAT I SHOULD DO REALLY BELIEVE THAT I AM NOT DISABLED.D

DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED: AN ABSURD OUTCOME FOR VICTIMS.

I KNOW HOW DISABLED I AM THROUGH MY EXPERIENCES AS I HAVE TO ACCOMPLISH VARIOUS TASKS AND I EXPERIENCE A VERY SHORT ENDURANCE.

I ALSO HAVE TO LAY DOWN AFTER EVERY ACTIVITY AND SOMETIMES THAT IS ALL I CAN DO ALL DAY, STAY LAYING DOWN.

EACH TIME I WAS INJURED IN A MOTOR VEHICLE CRASH, I DID NOT CAUSE ANY OF THE COLLISIONS WHICH INJURED ME, I WAS REACTED AGAINST AS IF I WAS LYING OR FAKING OR I WAS WORTHLESS AS ICBC CLAIMED AFTER MY DECEMBER 21 1986 CRASH. 

THERE IS A TERRIBLE RESULT FOR THE DISABLED AND NOT COMPENSATED PERSON. THEY ARE DEFAMED, DENIED ANY SUPPORT, DISPARAGED AND  INTIMIDATED. THE INSURANCE COMPANIES INQUIRE WITH AND FLOAT RUMORS TO THE POLICE.

I THINK THAT EVERY TIME RUMORS WERE FABRICATED OR SPREAD TO THE POLICE, THEY BELIEVED OR PRETENDED TO BELIEVE THE ALWAYS UNEVIDENCED COMPLAINTS AND ALLEGATIONS.

BEING SUBJECTED TO THIS TREATMENT HAS A TERRIBLE PSYCHOLOGICAL EFFECT ON ME. I BECOME VIRTUALLY PARALYZED, WORN OUT FROM CONSTANTLY BEING VIGALENT THAT THE POLICE OR BY-LAW OR FAKE 911 CALLERS WERE NOT ON MY PROPERTY OR TRYING TO GET SOME SORT OF TROUBLE GOING FOR ME. THEY ARE TRYING TO HAVE A CONFRONTATION RESULT BETWEEN MYSELF AND THE POLICE, TRYING TO GET ME ARRESTED OR TRYING TO SEIZE MY PROPERTY.

ADDED TO THIS HORRIBLE MISUSE OF GOVERNMENT RESOURCES WAS THE OPPORTUNISTIC PREYING UPON ME BY MY WIFE, MY MOTHER AND OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS.

I DID NOT IMAGINE ANY OF MY FEELINGS OF BEING GANGED UP UPON. I HAVE ALWAYS DEMONSTRATED THE FACTS OF WHAT WAS DONE TO ME: INHERITANCE THEFT, DENIAL OF COMPENSATION FOR BEING DISABLED, (I HAD OUT OF WORK INSURANCE), INSURANCE FRAUD,  EXTORTION, FALSE ACCUSATION AND FALSE ARREST AND IMPRISONMENT AND THE STATEMENTS MADE BY POLICE AND BY-LAW THAT THEY WERE COMING ANY TIME 24/7.  

ALL OF THIS GANGING UP ON ME, LYING TO ME AND ABOUT ME, AND TRYING TO INTIMIDATE ME HAS OCCUPIED MY LIFE AND I HAVE BEEN ANGUISHED AND WORN OUT AND I WAS SEVERELY LIMITED IN MY PURSUIT OF A CAREER IN ART WRITING AND MUSIC AND BEING ABLE TO MONETIZE MY ART, WRITING AND MUSIC.

I HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM ALL CONFLICT, EVEN ON THE TELEPHONE. I HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM PEOPLE WHO DEFAMED ME, TRESPASSED, STOLE MY INHERITANCES AND THE PLACE WHERE THAT HAPPENED. I AM UNSETTLED AT MY HOME WHERE REPEATED EVENTS THAT CAUSED COLLAPSE OCCURRED BUT I HAVE NOWHERE ELSE TO GO.

IT IS ABOUT MY COLLAPSE SYNDROME.

I AM NOT HATING ANYONE I CANNOT TOLERATE. I COLLAPSE. I CAN HAVE A CONVULSION. I GET INJURED.

I HAVE SPOKEN AND WRITTEN ABOUT HAVING MY HEAD PULLED BACK AND MY NECK WRENCHED TO THE RIGHT AND THEN BEING THROWN DOWN TO THE LEFT AND SOMETIMES I WAS JUMPED ON AND CRUSHED BREATHLESS BY MY MOTHER.

THERE WAS AND IS NO WAY TO RESIST AND I AM SUSCEPTIBLE TO COLLAPSE DOWN TO THE GROUND.

DURING THE PULL BACK PART OF MY MOTHER'S ATTACKS, THE SUPPORT OF MY HEELS WOULD BE OVERWHELMED AND TO THIS DAY IF I HAVE A FORCE EXERTED ON EITHER HEEL, IT WILL LET LOOSE UPWARDS PITCHING ME OFF BALANCE AND FORWARDS.

EITHER KNEE CAN FOLD AND DROP ME TO THE SIDE.  

WHEN I COLLAPSE IT IS INVOLUNTARY AND IRRESISTIBLE. NO ONE WILL BLAME THE PERPETRATORS. THEY BLAME ME.

THIS IS HOW I WOULD COLLAPSE WHICH MAY NOT SEEM TO BE THAT BAD BUT THE FOLDED KNEE, USUALLY ON MY LEFT, IS INJURED BADLY BY OVER EXTENSION TO FLAT DURING MY COLLAPSES. I CAN ALSO HAVE A SEIZURE, WITH MY BACK ARCHING AND MY CHEST LOCKING UP. MY JAW CAN CLENCH AND SOME TEETH CAN BE KNOCKED OUT FROM THAT OR FROM THE BOTTOMING OUT PART OF THE COLLAPSE.

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JUST BEING IN CONTACT WITH ANYONE WHO HAD ADVERSELY AFFECTED ME COULD CAUSE TONIC IMMOBILITY, OR STIFF PERSON SYNDROME OR SHELL SHOCK TO SET IN FOR WEEKS, MONTHS OR YEARS. VIRTUAL PARALYSIS RESULTS.

When you collapse, you may become unconscious for a short while, such as when you faint. You might fall to the ground and not respond to sounds or being shaken. You collapse when your brain isn't getting enough oxygen. When you're on the ground, it's easier for your heart to pump oxygen to your brain.  From "Health Direct". The lack of oxygen to the brain could be Postural Hypo Tension, where blood pressure goes down when it should go up due to blood vessel constriction which is supposed to be triggered when a person is standing but that does not happen and that person will have to lay down or fall to the ground.

I HAVE EXPERIENCED THE REVERSE ARCH SPASM, I HAVE WOKE UP WITH IT HAPPENING THERE CAN ALSO BE A TIGHT CHEST SPASM. YOU THINK YOU WILL DIE.

WITHIN A FEW WEEKS OF MY VARIOUS VEHICLE CRASH INJURIES I WAS NOT THINKING ABOUT WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME. I TOLD THE DOCTORS AND LAWYERS WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME. THE ACCIDENT INJURY ASSESSORS AND ADJUDICATORS SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THAT I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASSESSED BY A NEUROLOGIST.

I GOOGLED "CAN BLOWS TO THE HEAD CAUSE EPILEPSY"?  THE AI OVERVIEW:

Yes, blows to the head can cause epilepsy, a condition known as post-traumatic epilepsy (PTE): 

• Risk factors

  People who have experienced head injuries from falls, car crashes, sports injuries, or other accidents are more likely to develop PTE. The more times someone has had a head injury, the greater their risk. Other risk factors include: 

ABOUT VIRTUAL PARALYSIS

VIRTUAL PARALYSIS IN MY CASE, IS CHARACTERIZED BY MANY AUTONOMIC OR AUTOMATIC STANDING AND WALKING PROCESSES HAVING TO BE DONE BY INDIVIDUAL COMMANDS. I HAVE TO WILLFULLY MOVE AND HOLD IN PLACE ANY PART OF MY BODY, LEGS AND ARMS I AM USING TO WORK, STAND OR MOVE.

THIS IS AN EXHAUSTING TASK. WHEN I CAN OR THINK I CAN STAND OR MOVE ABOUT I AM OFTEN EXHAUSTED WITHIN AS LITTLE AS TWO OR THREE MINUTES.

RIGHT NOW, I CAN HARDLY MOVE. I CAN WEDGE MYSELF IN OR LEAN ON SOMETHING AND ACCOMPLISH A TASK. I SWEPT THE SAUNA WHERE I STORE BINS OF CLEANED CLOTHES AND NOW I CAN ONLY WEDGE MYSELF IN AT THE COMPUTER DESK.

THIS IS IT. I CAN NOT PHYSICALLY WRITE ANY MORE, I HAVE TO LAY DOWN FLAT NOW. IT IS UNUSUAL THAT LAYING FLAT REDUCES THE STRAIN ON MY BODY SO MUCH.

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DEVICES ARE ON THE WAY WHICH WILL HELP TO DEAL WITH VIRTUAL PARALYSIS.

 

KNOCK! KNOCK! AND COLLAPSE.

THERE WAS A LOUD KNOCKING ON A DOOR. I SPASMED INTO A REVERSE ARCH. MY LEFT LEG TWISTED. I FELL ASLEEP REPEATEDLY IN THE FOLLOWING HOURS.

I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS THE SAMSUNG R5 SOUND BAR. I THOUGHT IT WAS REAL.

I HAVE SPECULATED ABOUT WHY I MIGHT HAVE BECOME MORE DISABLED WITHOUT INJURING MYSELF. THE REAL ARRIVAL OF POLICE, OR THE THREAT OF THE CREATION OF THAT, HAS CAUSED ME TO COLLAPSE IN THE PAST.

THIS LEADS BACK TO CHILDHOOD ASSAULTS BY MY MOTHER, WHERE I WAS WRENCHED DOWN TO THE GROUND BY MY HAIR, BENDING MY BACK INTO A REVERSE ARCH, TWISTING MY NECK AND COLLAPSING MY LEFT LEG TO DO IT.

I STILL HAVE THE SAME REACTION WHEN I THINK I HAVE THE POLICE TRYING TO GET INTO MY HOUSE AND AT ME.

PAUL WHELAN SAID THE MOST TERRIFYING PART OF STATE OPPRESSION WAS WAITING FOR THE RUSSIAN POLICE TO ARRIVE. 

I WILL HAVE TO OBSERVE WHAT IS GOING ON EVERY TIME I HEAR SOUNDS IN MY DRIVEWAY. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOW AND I HAVE
MEMORIES OF LOOKING OUT TO SEE THAT THE POLICE WERE HERE.

 

I AM PRETTY SURE THAT NO ONE KNOWS HOW DISENABLING MY DISABILITY IS.

I STRUGGLE TO JUST KEEP UP WITH BASIC HOUSEHOLD MAINTENANCE AND TO DO MY DISHES AND ALL OF MY YEAR'S LAUNDRY IN THE SUMMER. I ALSO GROW A SELF SUPPLY, BUT THAT IS IT. I CAN DO NO MORE BETWEEN BOUTS OF HAVING TO LAY DOWN.

TODAY IS WORSE THAN THAT. POSSIBLY BECAUSE I WORKED LATELY AT MY SELF SUPPLY I AM SO PARALYZED TODAY THAT I CAN NOT EVEN SO MY DISHES.

I DO NOT THINK ANYONE, NOT EVEN DOCTORS, REALLY BELIEVES ME WHEN I SAY "I AM VIRTUALLY PARALYZED."

HERE I AM, SIMILARLY DISABLED TO WHAT I WAS IN 1970

I JUST CAN NOT MOVE WITHOUT IT BEING AN EXTREME EFFORT OF WILL AND I CAN NOT WAIT TO LAY DOWN ALL THROUGH IT.  

I HAVE HOPED FOR THIS FOR YEARS.

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I FORCED MYSELF TO DO MY SLASH THREE DAYS AGO AND I AM GOING THROUGH THAT FOUR DAYS OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AFTER AN HOUR AND FORTY MINUTES OF WORK. I HAVE DONE NOTHING ELSE TO CAUSE THIS SITUATION WHERE IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE TO MOVE NOR TO GO ANYWHERE.

I CAN NOT EVEN SIT AND TYPE ANY MORE.