Monday, November 17, 2025

PEOPLE CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I SPEND MONTHS OR YEARS PARALYZED AFTER ACCIDENT INJURY, COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION.

I AM HAVING ONE OF THOSE PARALYZED DAYS TODAY. I CAN MAKE IT TO THE TOILET; I CAN WALK THE FIFTY FEET NECESSARY TO FEED THE WILD BIRDS; I CAN LEAN ON A COUNTER AND SLICE UP A SALAD OR PUT A MEAL ON TO COOK BUT I HAVE TO LAY FLAT REALLY QUICKLY. THE EFFORT TO MOVE OR STAND IS UNBEARABLE FOR VERY LONG.



THE YEARS FOR WHICH SOME IMPEDIMENT HAS CONTINUED AND THE PREVIOUSLY ENJOYED ACTIVITIES HAVE NOT CONTINUED SURELY ARE EVIDENCE THAT SOMETHING NEGATIVE OR DISABLING HAD HAPPENED.

 


VIRTUAL PARALYSIS CAN BE LIKE BEING ENCASED IN CONCRETE OR WADING IN MUD, IT IS JUST INCREDIBLY HARD TO MOVE.








I AM SUFFERING FROM ANOTHER PERIOD OF VIRTUAL PARALYSIS, A SYMPTOM OF STIFF PERSON SYNDROME OR TONIC IMMOBILITY. 



I ENDURED MONTHS OR YEARS OF THIS DISABLING INABILITY TO STAND OR SIT, I HAD TO LAY DOWN AND STAY DOWN FOR MOST OF THE DAY FOR MONTHS IN 1967 AND 1968 AND AGAIN FROM 1970 TO 1974 AND I HAD TO SLEEP EVERY FOUR HOURS OR OR EVEN AFTER FORTY MINUTES OF MOBILITY TO REMAIN ACTIVE AFTER THAT UNTIL 1978 AND AGAIN FROM 1986 UNTIL  1992 AND AGAIN FOR MANY YEARS AFTER THAT, IT WAS NOT AS BAD BUT I NEVER REALLY RECOVERED.



DOES THIS NOT MEAN THAT WHEN I WAS INJURED THROUGH COLLISION, CONVULSION OR  COLLAPSE SOMETHING SERIOUS AND DISABLING HAPPENED.