I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT I COULD GO TO MY APARTMENT BUILDING WITHOUT COLLAPSING, THAT IT WAS AN ISSUE OF "MIND OVER MATTER". THAT IS NOT SO, COLLAPSE OR TONIC IMMOBILITY ARE INVOLUNTARY AND NOT CONTROLLABLE.

I JUST RECALLED "COLLAPSE". IT FEELS LIKE EXTREME SLIPPERINESS HAS BEEN ENCOUNTERED OR THE DIFFERENT FEELING, LIKE WATER IS SWEEPING ME AWAY OR A PUSHED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BACK FEELING.

I COLLAPSED A NUMBER OF TIMES WITHOUT REALIZING WHAT HAPPENED.

I ASSUMED THAT I HAD SLIPPED OR STUMBLED AND I REMEMBER THAT DECADES AGO I HAD FOUND MYSELF LAYING ON MY LEFT SIDE ON THE LAWN AND I DID NOT RECOLLECT ANYTHING ABOUT HOW I GOT THERE.

IN 2001 I WAS FULLY AWARE OF COLLAPSING DOWN MY LEFT SIDE AND INJURING MY KNEE AND MY MID BACK.

IN THE LIGHT OF THIS EXPERIENCE I WAS ABLE TO RECALL PREVIOUS FALL SITUATIONS OR WHEN I COLLAPSED BUT I REMAINED SQUATTED DOWN BUT I WAS STILL ON ONE OR BOTH FEET.

Synonyms of collapse

intransitive verb

1

: to fall or shrink together abruptly and completely : fall into a jumbled or flattened mass through the force of external pressure

2

: to break down completely : DISINTEGRATE

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3

: to cave or fall in or give way

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4

: to suddenly lose force, significance, effectiveness.

5

: to break down in vital energy, stamina, or self-control.

especially : to fall helpless.

6

: to fold down into a more compact shape

Signs that it’s a seizure

The doctor will suspect seizure if you have:

• a sense of déjà vu before collapsing
• major shaking as soon as you collapse
• blood in your mouth or confusion after collapsing.

THE SENSE OF DEJA VU IS SOMETHING I HAVE EXPERIENCED.

I HAVE ALSO TASTED THE "METALLIC" TASTE IN MY MOUTH.

I HAVE BEEN PSYCHOLOGICALLY AND PERCEPTUALLY IMPACTED.

I HAVE ALSO BEEN PHYSICALLY IMPACTED, PARALYZED.

MY RIBS ARE STILL IMPACTED TWENTY FIVE YEARS LATER.

MY BROTHER ANDREW HIT ME WITH A TEN FINGER TAI CHI BLOW AFTER HE TORE UP MY LAWN WITH HIS TRUCK AND KICKED HENRY DOG. HE WAS ANGRY I HAD DISCOVERED HE AND HIS CO- CONSPIRATORS HAD STOLEN THE HOUSE AND THE ORIGINALLY ONE MILLION DOLLARS MY UNCLE ALBERT HAD WILLED TO ME. THEY STOLE MY MAIL AND THE SAME THING WAS DONE, MAIL THEFT AND HIDE THE INHERITANCE FROM ME. HE SAID IT WOULD BE BAD FOR ME TO INHERIT MONEY, HE AND MY MOTHER THOUGHT I WOULD NOT TRY HARD ENOUGH IF I KNEW. THEY SIMILARLY CUT MY INHERITANCE FROM MY AUNT ANNETTE IN HALF. 

WHEN I FOUND OUT I LEFT TWO PHONE MESSAGES. HE WAS NOT ANSWERING HIS PHONE. HE KNEW HE WAS GUILTY.

HE CAME TO MY HOUSE STRUCK ME AND HE SAID HE WOULD TELL THE POLICE THAT I WAS HARASSING HIM.

OPEN AND PLAY THE VIDEO CLICK ON THE ICON ON THE TOP LEFT TO ENTER THE CHANNEL AND VIEW A FEW OF MY MUSIC VIDEOS. THERE ARE MANY MORE, FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFTY VIDEOS.

I NEVER PLAYED HARMONICA ON STAGE AGAIN. MY RIBS STILL SHAKE AND SPASM OCCASIONALLY. I NEVER PERFORMED LIVE ON ANY STAGE AGAIN AS I HAD PREVIOUS TO THE FREEZING CHAINED UP IN A SHERIFF VAN AND THE INJURIES I SUFFERED FROM MOTOR VEHICLE CRASHES AND COLLAPSES AND CONVULSION. I CANNOT PLAY ANY OF MY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS NOW IN 2025.